Monday, June 6, 2005

   nuthin' much...

nothing really important happened yesterday...the usual stuff...mom did yell at me for leaving the window of my car opened a crack...cuz it had rained the nite before and the seat was wet...why she's driving my car in the first place just dosen't register in her mind as a bad thing...but me forgetting to roll up the window in MY car is...enough to call me from the car and yell at me...long distance scolding...how amusing... but i swear all this "i'm your mom so you can't say a damn thing back and you know it" is getting old...i keep telling myself that i love her to death...i know i do despite all the things she does to just piss me off...but she is working my last nerves...and she says i'm the one yelling... *sighs* ...i'm starting to wonder if my headaches are from lack of sleep or cuz of her stressing me out... PS. *shivers* ...it's cold again... *wraps blankets around her* ...that's better... *stretches & yawns* ...will you be my pillow?... *snuggles up to reader* I love Ren & Hao. What about you?

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Sunday, June 5, 2005

   ack...my head...

of course my head would be hurting right now...how do you wake up with a headache?...and after nine hours of sleeping?...i just don't understand it...oh well... i apologize for not going to your sites yesterday...mom had me run a lot of errands with her...just a reason to get me to practice my driving... *shrugs* ...whatever works...she said i did really good so who's complaining?... first it was to Oscos to drop off her prescription...then it was off to Price Choppers to buy some meat...she taught me how to pump gas...it's not that hard...then it was off to Sam's Club where i got a new book (i'm such a book worm!) and a pair of Reeboks...good deal...went back to Oscos to pick up her meds and then we were homeward... my friend dropped by the house after that...just in time for dinner too...girl's got good timing...after hangin out for a little bit we decided to go see a movie at AMC 20...ended up watching "The Longest Yard" with Adam Sandler...that guy rocks...the movie was really funny...and that soundtrack kicked azz...ima be jammin to that for a while once i get it...all in all a nice day...despite it being extremely hot... PS. aspirin, come to me!!!... I love Ren & Hao. What about you?

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Saturday, June 4, 2005

   changes...

you never notice how much you change until you take a look at something from a few years ago...i was working on that story that i had started writing back when i was a sophomore in high school (which was about two years ago)...and i started editing it...so far every paragraph that i've looked at has been completely re-written... i thought about just re-writting the entire thing...but that's 45 handwritten pages down the drain...had it been a smaller number of pages i might have been able to part with them for newer material...but come on it's 45 pages...that was like half the notebook...hehe, looks like my notebook's gonna be nothing but crossed out sentences and long paragraphs written in the margin...that should be an amusing sight to see... in keeping with the theme of changes...i started looking at my old yearbooks...and i read a lot of comments that pplz made in them...some made me laugh...some were really ironic cuz they said that we'd be friends forever and currently they aren't talking to me...and others just reminded me of why i loved them so much...what i wouldn't give to see certain pplz one last time and remember the good times we had... hehe...what can i say?...i'm a sentimental old fool...but i guess there's nothing wrong with that...i just wish i had some friends to reminice with right now...it's not all that fun to look back and remember all by yourself... on a lighter and happier note...i just got an email announcing that the book "Eldest" from the Eragon trilogy will be coming out on August 23...the cities for the book tour have been announced as well and Kansas City is one of them... *jumps up and down with joy* ...if you haven't read "Eragon" i suggest you do cuz it's an amazing book...a fantasy adventure that you won't soon forget...dates and venues for the book tour are to be announced... PS. it's always nice to take a trip dowm memory lane... I love Ren & Hao. What about you?

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Friday, June 3, 2005

   mixed feelings...

my state of mind and moods have been...crazy lately...and i thought i was moody before...do you know how stressful it is when your emotions can change at the drop of a dime?...well i hope you never do cuz it's not fun... i guess it has to do with what's been going on with my friends...i love them more than anything...and when pplz say and do bad things to them i bet upset too...cuz they're like the sisters i never had...they're my trigger button i guess...mess with them and you've got a 5'3" (man, i'm so tiny) asian ball of fury on your hands...and right now i need to take out ny fury on someone...cuz you don't f*ck with my friends... and then there are the friends who just write me out of their lives...that's heartbreaking...one friend in particular comes to mind...it's a complicated situation and i don't think you guys wanna know the details...basically she said that we were friends and then doesn't even tell me that she's getting married...i was hurt at first...but now i just get mad every time i think about it...i don't agree with the marriage NE ways...how can you know that you want to spend the rest of your life with someone after a month?... *sighs* ...let me shut up now before i start punching the walls again... then there's my friend who doesn't even bother keeping in touch even though we used to live down the street from each other...from what i hear her life's been spiraling down ever since she dropped out her senior year of high school...i'll keep my mouth shut about that situation as well...but that wall is starting to look really nice right now... and yesterday i was so happy cuz i finally got to working on a story i haven't touched in about two years...tis what writer's block does to you...looks like i've picked up another writing project...let's hope that it doesn't end up being forgotten for another two years... *sighs* methinks i need to get away from all of this...where be a knight in shining armour to saveth me when i needeth it?... *pouts* ... PS. i thank thee for listening to my ranting...i loveth thee much... *hugs* I love Ren & Hao. What about you?

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Thursday, June 2, 2005

   a good book is all I need...

what can i say?...i have a preference when it comes to the books i read...it's apparent with the "Lord of the Rings" trilogy...and i think i found a winner with this one..."Emperor: The Gates of Rome" by Conn Iggulden...tis about the early childhood of one Julius Caesar and his old friend Brutus...who wouldn't want to read about that?... finishng a 452 paged book in two days?...it can be done with a book as good as this one...and well worth the my time...still doesn't give me the skill to write battle scenes though...i guss i just don't have the knack for it...but i guess that's alright...i'll leave the fighting to the imagination of the readers... *winky* ... and talk about torture methods...some of this stuff made me cringe with sickness as i imagined it happening in front of me...tis one downside to haveing a big imagination like i do...you can picture almost anything happening whether it be good or bad...but i wouldn't have it NE other way... ^-^ now if only i could get my hands on the next book in the series...might have to make a stop at Barnes & Nobles sometime soon...would NE one care to take me?... You scored as Posion. Your death will be by poison, probably because you are a glutton and are around so many people that it would be easy to get away with it. Natural Causes 67% Suicide 67% Posion 67% Gunshot 53% Bomb 53% Disappear 53% Drowning 40% Accident 40% Eaten 40% Stabbed 33% Suffocated 33% Disease 20% Cut Throat 13% How Will You Die?? created with QuizFarm.com hm...poison huh?...SOMEONE'S OUT TO GET ME!!!...hehe, nah!...who would want to kill me?...it's better than being eatten that's for sure...but in truth it's a three-way tie...so i guess it's a 33% chance for natural death, poison, and suicide...personally i'm rooting for natural death... ^-^ ... PS. nothing like a good book to get me back to my strange ways... *winky* ... *hugs reader* ... I love Ren & Hao. What about you?

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Wednesday, June 1, 2005

   *sighs contently*

well i feel a little better today...thanks for all the nice words and encouragement about my friend's situation...it's hard feeling helpless while someone you care about spirals down into the darkness that they created for themselves...sometimes being best friends just isn't enough... *sighs* ... i should stop before i make myself even more depressed...the rain is already doing well to dampen my spirits...normally i like the rain...but my poor car is at the automobile hospital and so can't enjoy nature's bath...so i'm a bit saddened by that...silly reason but who wants to see their car in a shop?...certainly not me... so i did something i haven't done for a while...i cracked open a book and read for leisure...what do you think?...half a book in a matter of a few hours away from the TV and computer...150 pages give or take a chapter or so...i was thoroughly surprised...it's a good book though...keeps me interested...also helps me with the storyline of a story i'm working on (yes another one)...it's nice to find inspiration isn't it?... PS. *hugs readers* i'm such a hug whore... *winky* I love Ren & Hao. What about you?

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Tuesday, May 31, 2005

   just some idle thought...

what do you do when you find something out about your best friend...and there's nothing you can do to help?...what do you do when she cries endless tears and you can't be there to dry them?...what do you say when she's having suicidal thoughts...and despite every reason for her to stay she still wants to leave this world?... it's been a long Memorial Weekend...good things have happened...and not so good things have happened...unfortunately the not so good things out weight the good things...and i got back into the habit of thinking too much as i laid in bed nite...and i had a hard time falling asleep...then there's the early morning wake up that comes with this bad habit... to carry the weight of the world on my shoulders...just like Atlas the Titan in Greek Myths that was charged to carry the world on his shoulders...it's a hard life when you worry about everyone else over your self... so the question is...why would i choose such a life?...who knows?...but all i know is that my friend needs me...and there's nothing that i can do to help her...and if i can't help her...then what good am i?... *looks up and re-reads post* ...wow...heavy idle thought...i need to stop thinking so much...um...moving on i guess... but first...on a side note...my ranking is finally 333...Tao Ren would be very proud...may i stay there for a little while...NE ways moving on... Big Bro came back from Cali yesterday...and i think mom's mad at him now cuz of the way he acted towards her when he came home...he misses Cali...and who wouldn't?... there's nothing good here...just a whole bunch of pplz who can't seem to mind their own business...pplz who feel that they have to tell us every little thing "daddy dearest" does with his new wife and family...when will they get it thru their thick heads that we don't give a damn about him...when will they leave us alone and let us forget about him...cuz he's already forgotten about us... PS. *sighs* like i said...it's been a long weekend... *pouts* ...i could use a hug... I love Ren & Hao. What about you?

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Monday, May 30, 2005

   just that kind of mood...

i posted the last part of my story yesterday...so if you haven't read it please click the link up there and check it out...enjoy cuz there's no more...i hope that i did justice to the Shaman King anime that it was based on... to those of you who have read it...it's been a great run...thank you for reading what i had to write...it makes me happy to know that i could write something that you guys could appreciate...again thank you for reading... and i would welcome any and every comment you have about the story...i'll take both good and bad comments...how can i improve if i don't know what to improve on?...so please i'll take NE comment you can give me... so yesterday was nice...watched my mom's asian soap opera videos with her practically all day...Oniichan came and went here and there...he was getting into it too...go figure...i guess we'll finish it today...thank goodness for english subtitles...otherwise i wouldn't understand a damn thing they're saying... still need to vacuum my car out...too busy watching videos...oops!...my bad...maybe i can do that today...though i'm not sure how i'll manage that... oh, by the way...to all my fellow Viets out there (holla at me!)...i found our anthem courtesy of our own Viet rapper (we got a rapper?) Chuckie Akenz...tis called You Want Beef? and i think it's awesome...so click the link...download the song...and tell me what you think...Viet Pryde baby... PS. my tummy is being mean... *pouts* ...it's been picking on me since i woke up... I love Ren & Hao. What about you?

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Sunday, May 29, 2005

the end...for real this time...

well there's only one last part of the story left...and here would be the link that would take you there...i hope that you have enjoyed reading my story as much as i enjoyed writing it and posting it for all of you...this was my baby...and it's sad to see it end...but it had to sometime... i know a good many of you are mad at me for doing what i did in the story...but it did say in the beginning that this was the reason why Hao hated humans...now don't you think he has a good reason to not like humans and to want a Shaman only world?... NE ways another story is in the editing process...so once i'm done i might start posting that one too...it's based on Lord of the Rings...and i'm pretty sure i lost half of my reading audience by saying that...not that many pplz like it here for some reason...but we'll see what happens... i got to clean my car yesterday...man the inside was such a mess...still need to vacuum it out...i should wash it too...all the birdies decided that it would be a good idea to use my car as a bathroom...i love the trees around my house...but i will not hesitate to chop some of them down if it means that my car stays clean... meanwhile...my neck is in excrutiating pain...massage NE one?...please?...no?...then i guess i'll have to do it myself... PS. *massages neck* ...ouch!... *pouts* I love Ren & Hao. What about you?

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Saturday, May 28, 2005

   gah...

story link up there if you haven't read the last update... man i am beat...yesterday was long...so apparently mom was invited to a BBQ at her old job with her old friends...that was nice...just a lotta pplz telling me "you look so much like your mom" and asking "so what college you going to?" as well as "what's you're major?"...for some reason that's the first thing all adults ask us at this age...and i'm getting tired of it... but yeah me & mom did do a little shopping afterwards...not that much though...all i got outta it was another copy of a book i had let someone borrow but never got back...which reminds me...someone still owes me a book...and i liked that one too... *pouts* ... NE ways after a stop at the Viet Cafe for some dinner...the two of us headed home to do some cleaning...exterminating pests is a chemically dangerous business...had to vacuum the entire house including every nook and crevice i could find...talk about Spring Cleaning Boot Camp...by the time i was done i could hardly stand...and i still had to take a shower... now i'm sore all over...not to mention me gots a dizzy-headache...ever had one of those before?...it's not fun is it?...yeah gotta do some more cleaning today...hopefully all the hard stuff was finished yesterday cuz i don't know how much longer i can last like that... PS. me want go sleep... *pouts* ...nite nite... *uses you as pillow* ...ZZZzzzZZZzzzZZZ... I love Ren & Hao. What about you?

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