Monday, February 4, 2008

   Last semester was a PAIN...let's get it ALL out...

So...I haven't made an update since September. Ehehehehe, oops. ^^; That should tell you how busy I was with my FOUR English courses last semester. But in all honesty, nothing much has been going on with me anyways, just living the life of a typical college student. Not really that much else to me than school and home. And I'd rather not bore you all (who still pay attention to this page) with that. There's been some things going on with my family involving my dad. Suffice to say, after five years of being divorced from my mom, the guy's STILL an ass. What's worse is that I actually started to believe that he had changed. Tch, I'll never make that mistake again, that's for sure. A girl can only take so much before she's just gives up trying to hope that her father will become someone she always thought him to be. So that's it. I mean, I'll be civil with him because he IS still my father. But...I'm done. Yesterday I got something in the mail. They were announcement packet order forms for graduation. They sent a sample announcement with it too. It was then that I realize that I'm so close to taking that final step into the real world. And I am freakin' out. It's a long time between now and December when I expect to graduate, but still...time these days seems to fly by so quickly. You don't realize these things until life literally just starts staring at you in the face. I need to start getting my act together now. And on that note, we move on to a subject that has been bothering me for the past month or so. Don't get me wrong, I'm a little more upbeat about the whole relationships (or lack there of) deal than I was two weeks ago. I mean, the loneliness that I felt will always be there. I don't think that sort of thing really goes away completely because really, everyone just wants to be loved and find someone who will care for them. It makes the world less scary to face knowing that there's someone there to support you through the ups and downs. But...I'm gonna hold on to the belief that there is someone out there for everyone and just let it happen when it will happen. If these guys that I've been friends with all this time can't seem to open their eyes and see the great person that I am, the potential that I have...then they're just not worth my time. So to them and the hope that they would simply get real and see me, I just say goodbye. I'll always be their friend and help them in any way that I can, but I'm done hoping for something more from them. Now, on to what's been going on this semester... The school scene itself seems to be working well for me this semester. There's a lot of reading as there always is, but I'm finding my way around pretty good. My professors are, for the most part, easy going, though my Intro to Poetry teacher is a bit...off. There's really no other way to describe him, and I suppose it's not necessarily a bad thing. He just creeps me out on some occasion. But his free use of sarcasm makes up for it. And speaking of being off, my professor for Modern and Contemporary Irish Literature is crazy. I'm serious. Every class period, he acts like a kid on a sugar high, running and bouncing around the classroom like he does. One of these days he's going to pull a muscle. And the irony of it is that he's actually British. A Brit teaching Irish Literature. Interesting indeed. I'm really loving my Concepts of the Ancient Hero course, though, and was kind of sad that the class was canceled last Thursday (which in and of itself tells you how much I like that class). At the moment we're reading The Iliad and plan on watching the movie Troy after we're done. Next we'll be looking at a novel about the Spartans and watching the movie 300 when we're done. So you can imagine the sort of fun a nerdy bookworm/ancient cultures geek like me is having in this class. I don't think the other classes are really worth mentioning; they're just general courses that don't really mean all that much to me (although I am enjoying discussing Astronomy in my Science class). So that's the 411 on me, and an actual update on the matters in my life as of right now. PS. Anyone going to Naka-kon this weekend...I might be there (MIGHT being the operative word). Wow, possibly my first anime con experience. :O! I'm somewhat excited. I love Ren & Hao. What about you?

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