Tuesday, September 28, 2004

   mayb i can go c her
hopefully i can get some money 2 go c amanda at the end of october she thinks that i don't care about her ne more even when i tell her i do. but thing is i still do care about her alot i miss her :'( hopefully i can go but if not then hopefully she can come out here
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one more should do it
1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. What was your first impression?
5. Do you still think that way about me now?
6. What do you think my weakness is?
7. Do you think I'll get married? If so, to whom and when?
8. What makes me happy?
9. What makes me sad?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
14. Do you think I could kill someone?
15. Describe me in one word.
16. Do you think our ...friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
17. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
18. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
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y does life suck so much?
i can't 4get what happened last night and its botherin me mayb i should drink my problems away but i don't kno.
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   i've lost it all
tonight has been a bad night i thought that all would b fine but i guess not i finally got 2 talk 2 her but i was 2 late she made up her mind and it was over just like that
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Monday, September 27, 2004

   what is wrong with me
What is wrong with me?
I am going insane waiting
For the one I care about
What should i do so I continue
Waiting for her or should I give
Up and suffer from the pain
Of failure to work things out
If i continue to wait then I
Can gaurentee that I will become
weak and try to make the icy
cold blood flow down my body and
laugh while I'm dying but if
I do survive then I will be put
In a mental instatution for
insanity but why should that
Bother me for the only hope I
Have right now is to see my baby
And hold her untill I die.
Such a high price for my baby but
It is reasonalbe enough for
the pain I have gone through
So far is a pain of torture
Which should feel good but it
Does not it feels like I have
Twenty swords in my heart being
Twisted as I live on
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Friday, September 24, 2004

   what is gonna happen??
Demons tormenting my soul
Should I stay or should I go?
If I go then I will be thrown into
The dark fires of hell but if I
Stay then I will still be in the dark
The girl in my life is not always
There does she even care about me
About us about what is to be?
My heart says go one way but my
Mind says go the other what is
A person to do in this world of pain
And misery? Should they rely on their
Feelings? when all feelings do is pull
The mind soul and body down the
Human race is pulled down way to much
By feelings so why is it that I should
Have feelings when I don’t show them?
I think it’s ironic to have feelings and
Not show them at all
-drgoonsummoner
plz comment on this poem i just wrote again it is about my relatioship just like the last one
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will i ever talk 2 her again??
my day was fine except 4 the fact that i never got 2 talk 2 my gf now i'm startin 2 wonder if we will ever talk again. :'( i miss her and i want 2 talk 2 her again but the question is when and where will we talk again.
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Wednesday, September 22, 2004

   my life as of rite now (revised)
Darkness surrounds my soul
black the color of my heart
as my blood turns to ice I lose
all sense of love and slip into
a dark abyss should I be with
someone or should I remain
alone for all of eternity in this
dark state of mind? Ice running down my arm like a
river death is upon me waiting
for my soul to just give it up or
to hold onto it as long as I can is what plauges me. Sacrifice is
what is needed and my sould was chosen but I won't give in
without a fight even though my blood is flowin down my
arms like a raging river into the ocean.
-drgoonsummoner-
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   my life as of rite now
Darkness surrounds my soul
black the color of my heart
as my blood turns to ice I lose
all sense of love and slips into
a dark abyss should I be with
someone or should I remain
alone for all of eternity in this
dark state of mind? Ice running down my arm like a
river death is upon me waiting
for my soul to just give it up or
to hold onto it as long as I can is what plauges me. Sacrifice is
what is needed and my sould was chosen but I won't give in
without a fight even though my blood is flowin down my
arms like a raging river into the ocean.
-drgoonsummoner-
plz place ur opinion on this little poem i created at 10:00 p.m.
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Tuesday, September 21, 2004

   y me????????????????????
i hate my life rite now i want 2 do somethin and still b w/ my gf but she doesn't want 2 wait 4 me and i think she want 2 end this relationship but i don't want it 2 end. but it just might end 2night i don't kno though so my freinds who still like me might b happy cin how my relationship w/ my gf is goin down the drain again. mayb our freind was rite mayb this wasn't meant 2 b.
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