Sunday, July 2, 2006

Sunday

I just heard some fireworks...its 9am on a Sunday, come on your crazy people have some patients (at least wait until 10 :P). Guess since fireworks aren't something they can get all the time, they are eager to play. I didn't post yesterday...guess I'm fired, lol. Not much has been going on though. Went out with my friend Friday, did a bunch of random errands yesterday, saw my ex (guess that's sorta important, kinda). I don't think anything is any clearer, but we are still on friendly terms. I wasn't able to get in touch with him because he got stranded in New York from all the flooding with a dead phone. He called me once he was able to get free. So anyway, life goes on and here I am today. Oh yeah! Forgot to say, I got Monday off. I was ready to go to work since I didn't have anything better to do, but at the last minute the owner decided it wasn't worth opening, so we're closed. Hope everyone is enjoying this holiday weekend!

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Friday, June 30, 2006

Happy Friday!

I'm happy because its Friday. Its been a busy day today...I figured we'd be slow but I guess everyone wants to get things done before the long weekend. I spent a while reproducing a logo for someone before. I think it killed my head. White stripes across black letters, ouch. I couldn't find the font so I had to trace the letters. Done now, but my eyes feel so strained. Its about 2:40 now and I'm still without lunch. That's totally normal since I like to take really late lunches, but I'm starving today. My coworker had to go to the bank so he's picking up something for me. Hopefully he will drive fast, lol. Tonight I'm going out with a friend, but I don't know where yet. I like to make actual plans and have a place and time, but everyone else seems to want to do things on the fly, so I always have to deal with it. Anyway, not much to talk about today. Hope everyone has a happy Friday!

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Thursday, June 29, 2006

good morning everyone

Its finally not raining. Its about time! I hope its a quiet day today...then again if its quiet I'll be bored. There's always busy work, but nothing exciting. Last night I helped a friend write out thank you cards for her bridal shower. I thought it would make me sad, but surprisingly I didn't. She tried on her dress to show us all and she looked so pretty. I'm so happy for her. Come to think of it, I was a bit sad, but only because she will be moving about 1 1/2 hours away. Anyone doing anything interesting this weekend? My plans have been messed up since I would have spent the weekend at my ex's (btw, he lives a little over an hour away so I have been staying at his house almost every weekend since we graduated over a year ago). I'll probably relax at home. We'll probably end up going to my neighbor's house one day for dinner. Its been a strange summer because my sister isn't home. She's going to school for Wildlife Education and right now she's in Texas for an internship. She's working at a refuge for big cats, mostly tigers. Its a really cool experience for her, but strange for me because I will see her even less than when I was in school too. Anyway, this has been a long post so I'll stop talking now, lol. I never used to post and now I can't stop talking ^^

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Wednesday, June 28, 2006

rain rain, go away

When will this rain go away? Its been raining for the past few days. It certainly isn't helping my mood. Blah. I don't want to keep boring everyone, but its too early to be calling up my friends and I need to vent. A little more into this thing with my ex...yeah so like the night after it was over he stayed at that girls house, and then I think again last night. The only time his phone has no service is when he's there...and he's had no service and was not online this morning. We're supposed to meet up for dinner sometime and just get closure, which is really what I need, and I've been trying to get in touch for that. Anyway, the first time he kept telling me "nothing happened...we just cuddled". He must think I'm stupid. Its just so frustrating that its been what, three days? and after four years he couldn't care less. It just took me about an half hour to type this whole message cause I'm at work, lol, naughty me. I keep getting distracted, that's why its taken so long. Anyway, need to get back to work, so I hope everyone has a nice day!

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Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Third post in a row, yey!

Its late, I need to get on the road to work soon. Hmmm, but I still wanna post before I leave. I'm kinda upset at this point of time...my ex (wow that sounds so weird to say) is already seeing someone new. Like I mean within seconds of our breakup this started. I said I knew it was coming to an end, but regardless, after four years, you think he could wait 24 hours. Makes me feel sorta unimportant, ya-know? He assures me nothing was between the two of them before we had broken up and I believe him, but still, it pisses me off that he would keep me around until he's sure something will take place with her and then let me go. Makes me feel great to know I was a security blanket. Anyway, time to move on to other events... My best friend is trying to move out and around here that's a lot of money. She doesn't want to settle in a small apartment, so she's gunna pay. She's really looking for a small house or condo. Someone told her about some cheap development that was really nice so last night we went to check it out. We got there to have to travel up this huge hill full of pot holes (that must be impossible to travel on in the snow) to get to this falling apart trailer park. Guess she's going to be spending a little more money. We'll see. Ahhhh, its so late, I gotta get going, can't even reread my post, hope there are no mistakes!!!! Hope everyone has a nice day!

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Monday, June 26, 2006

Sleepy

Can't sleep. My brain feels fuzzy now, lol, I was trying to sleep and it wasn't happening, so I got up to try to distract my mind and now my head feels all out of it. Seeing that its almost 2am here on the east coast, that makes it Monday...blah, gotta be leaving for work in 5 1/2 hours. There are less cars in the morning since schools are out, but the traffic is still a pain. There was road work all of last week and everyone had to stop to rubberneck. If someone were to put a stuffed penguin on the side of the road, it would be backed up for miles.... It would be funny to put up a sign that said "only idiots rubberneck" or something. People would slow down and look hard to read it and look away all quickly when they saw what it said, step on the gas, and try to pretend they weren't looking in the first place. Would be quite interesting. Hmmm, wish I had something more interesting to talk about than rubbernecking...but I want to try to keep this post on a lighter note. Bah - need sleep!!!

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Sunday, June 25, 2006

So what's up everyone? It's been a while since I've posted. I don't know how many people will really read this and no one knows me too well, but I really felt the need to just write to make myself feel better. If you read, great, if not, its all good. Guess just writing will make me feel at ease. In any case, as of today I became single. It’s a big hit, seeing that we were only two weeks shy of our four year anniversary. We started dating when I was 19, I’m now 23… He’s not a bad person, but I wouldn’t necessarily call the relationship healthy. I’ve felt for so long that I’ve lost myself in order to make him happy and keep him around. I’ve had to down play things like my love of anime and not talk about it, I’ve almost felt like I’ve been hiding certain things I like for fear that I would loose what I had. I started to become blind to what was happening and I began to close out some of my closest friends feeling that he would be unhappy if I focused on them rather than him. I always felt like I had to be there for him – like I couldn’t do anything but wait and be there for whenever he was looking… Wow, this is so hard to sum up so it makes sense, but, for example, he didn’t like the music I listened to, he felt it was too depressing, so rather than say “well if you don’t like it, tough, its who I am” I was weak and tried to force myself into other things. I’ve seen it all falling apart for a while, but I was in denial. I didn’t want to admit that it was coming to an end…that our interests were too different…but its come to that point… Right now I’m feeling ok, I’ll probably have my moments, but that’s life. I’ll be thankful 5 years from now when I find someone who I can completely be myself in front of and be totally accepted. I went out today and treated myself to the remaining Furuba volumes I didn’t own (which was 6-9) and the new A.F.I. CD, so yeah, I’m already doing what I want to… In closing (and on a lighter note) I’ll leave you with a picture of Robin, Chopper, and Zoro staring at an imprint of Sanji on the wall…

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Sunday, April 16, 2006

Eggs and stuff

Happy Easter Everyone! I haven't posted since Christmas so I thought I'd say hi (I swear I'm not only posting for holidays!). I've been slowly starting to visit sites again, we'll see how long I can keep up going to sites this time. I haven't been able to kick the One Piece obsession yet, lol, like I'm trying, so I'll give you yet another OP picture... I have been watching Fruits Basket like crazy recently though. I watched the whole series throughout the week and then started from the beginning again yesterday, so here... So anyway, hope everyone has a happy Easter.

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Sunday, December 25, 2005

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas, but if you don't celebrate Christmas, than Happy Holidays! I hope everyone's holiday season is going well.

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Friday, December 9, 2005

snow day

this is what its like to be in NJ today... although, its safe to assume most people aren't running around with out shirts on

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