Sunday, May 7, 2006

   If you like to RP got here
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Thursday, February 23, 2006

I've thinking again..
How many times have we thought about what we've done in the past?...why do we do it constantly...i cry here tonight thinking back in the past, the past...could be good, bad, depressing, cold...and...alot more that i need not to list...It hurts us when we think about it...so why do we do it?...habit?...or...just...miss the feeling you were happy once, and it got ripped apart by what happend...at the time, you thought you were happy untill reality barged it's way in...for all of you whom had a good past, but is long forgotten, this is also for you...my definition upon the word past is...hard to label with a word, a past to me is a long drawn out wish to be forgotten event in your life...it is only an opinion...i actually speak out my opinions towards the world if you dont like it...go fuck yourself and have fun...anyways back to the topic..i talk from experiance...theres things in my life...that i want to rid of my memory forever...but...a quote-a good quote for that matter is..."what doesn't kill us...makes us stronger"...it speaks truth among millions of people...but you must realize none of them are the same, i write this out tonight...thinking...how much we put our past in front of our future...it stunts out capability to..."think outside the box"...meaning...if you forget about the past, your troubles will be over...it's easier said then done...people often get posessed of bang there heads against the wall, hopeing to forget all about it...or...get drunk off there asses...but it only makes it worse...trust me...i never told my lover this but...i slammed my head against my bedroom wall...untill i bled...my past haunts me to no end, it torments me...it...torments you...pasts torments everyone...we just deny it many times and put a fake smile on that no ones knows about...saying "im fine" when your actually not...people wanna help you out they say...but they truly cant, there not rule of your mind or your body...your going to have to kill it yourself...pasts makes us cry uncontrolibly i know, trust me...if you think about it, past is basicly torture itself...it wont stop...till your heart does...Please comment on this...and think about it...just....think about it...give me your thouhts, your opinions anything...please....thank you...
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Sunday, February 12, 2006

   I woke up and found myself writing this.......enjoy
Once you love someone
you can never forget them
you cant forget how many times you sin
or how much fun in the sun
so many secrets are kept from the other
it doesn't matter anymore, i know he loves another
but out there he comes to mind
of what he creates around me, a bind
it's hard to forget the ones you lost
no matter the cost
you'll always be lost
no one will be honest
it's hard when you find out the hard way
about things,that make you obey all thier whims and woes
it's hard how many you've hurt, and thier souls
it's hard when you finally got back to the start
sometimes you cant stand the fact your away
and still your mind goes astray
like wings they dont frey
and now you day dream...you wanna stay
your senses tells you to go
your heart tells you to stay
but if you really know
Love is what you obey
you walk that lonely road to no where
hands in your pocket forgeting about what happend in the past
into complete nothing
you stare, as if was to last
you cant create another perfect life
taking a stab, a chance with the knife
your being the one you hate
you think back to all the times...you were too late
your tears burn your eyes
again you think back to all the lies
hands weaken
your mind goes back in the past,your body grows numb
as if it's sleeping
how many times have you wanted to die
just to go back once, erasing all those lies
you want to touch their soft skin
as the air gets so thin
you suffocate on your own thoughts
not breathing
oh, how many times your mind and imagination fought
your soul death is stealing
you shun away from your own life
While death drags you back to suffer by his scythe
flying like a kite
goes your spite
but once you leave this place
your last thoughts go to space
and you want to stay
where you always wanted to lay
you want to dream
it seems
like you want to hold tight
keep him in sight
you want to cry
not to lie
but all you do is sigh
and get on with your life
sorry you couldn't come
i couldn't hide you from
my monster self
that i felt
you could never see
but it was only set free
i love you
that wont go away
i love only a few
thats you
i smile and escape
My mind is stranggled by your words
and yet my neck touches that tight cord
but it was too low
you didnt want me to go
again i love you.
i love you
i love you
i love you
...............................so...adieu....




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Saturday, January 28, 2006

   Broken
Broken...what does it really mean...

are you broken?...
were you broken?...
Have you been broken?...
do...you feel broken?...

What does it really mean...do you always have to sacrifice blood...tears that burn your eyes?...

Think about it...just...think about it...

to me...broken seems...or i guess is...that you've a lost a part of you...that...you cant really get back...either it's your heart...your mind...or the minds eye itself...agian...to me it seems like something inside you is missing...or...is just not there anymore...and can not be recoverd...or it takes...so much time for it to mend back again...so much time...you...just dont have enough of it...you die quickly...if you just wait for it to..."reunite" with you...the part that is...missing...


Time...heh...what is time?...

is it something that tortures your very soul down to the core?...or is it something...that you love to have...time...is...just a death trap waiting to happen...it kills you inside...like questions of "How long" or "when?"...i'll finish this...when the fued of my imagination, and minds reality...end............
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Saturday, November 19, 2005

...
hey,

i've been gone for so long...im sorry...been having trouble in school,relationships...everythings a mess...i will start posting for more so...be happy for once!
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