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• Droth meaning White wolf night stalker

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Wednesday, April 27, 2005

   I have a feeling...of being...Suicidal...again...
i have a feeling that i NEED to kill-myself...but...i dont want to...i dont wanna leave all the people i know and love...i just have recent thoughts on how i would...and try the out in reality...i have a cliff near my house...it's about...50-100 feet...i was thinking i could drop from it...but...other then that...im freaking out...the Police came to my house lastnight...they took my brother home...but...there going to serch the whole house for what?...i dont know...but...im just freaking out becuz i have a stash of razor blades in my room...that they might find...(they were going to serch the house today) i took all of my razors to school...::sighs::...and in science...i sit in the back row...by myself...and i took one of my razors out and started to cut...i didnt do it much...but...it blead like hell...and when i got on the bus...my wrist bands were sokeing with blood...::sighs once more::im sorry everyone...i dont know whats wrong with me...my friend Ethan saw me at the bus seat beside him...i was crying...so...hard...he came right beside me and just held me till i got off the bus...


i feel so...stupid...for doing such things to me...im worring about my brother...so much...he might be going to jail...::bangs head on desk mutiple times:: im also worring about Ben...(VampuiricWerewolf) he tells me he feels empty inside...and...it just hurts me just to sit here and not help him out...i care for him alot...and...i just want him to feel happy...i wish there was something i can do for him...i cant stand just to sit here...sorry this is so long...and that i haven't been posting...it's been a really hard week...mentaly...and physicly...please...forgive me...for my suicidal thoughts...for everything...
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