Friday, November 5, 2004

Yup, another average day except for one thing... I got my balls smashed today. Actually I take that back, that would still make it an average day. It just hurt a lot this time where it usually just hurts... a lot. Okay so it is just another average day. I decided that I only like 1 girl back now though, you all can be relieved I made it out of that jam alive now. At least fake it for my sake. Anyway it just so happen the one I like is the one that likes to bash my balls. She says she doesn't mean to really hurt me so much and, gullible me, I believe her. Anyway, it is all good times... I just hope my other female friend isn't too crushed by not having such a sexy beast as me like her like that. *falls out of chair laughing* Someone actually thinking I'm a sexy beast... that would be the day hell froze over. I have said too much already though. If you made this far good job you, you are totally informed on my life and can now go kill yourself for having no life. *tear* please don't do that, I love you guys... it was only a joke. If I was too mean and now you need a hug I will be glad to give you one because I am really really sorry for saying that and it is too late for me to backspace it... Please forgive me and don't do what I said. Um, Have a great day and life and please don't hurt yourself because I would feel really guilty.

Song of the Day: Bowl of Oranges by Bright Eyes
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Thursday, November 4, 2004

Sorry, i forgot a few things in my last post. First of all when I mention getting the songs... you can buy a few good CDs and get most of the songs I will list or you can be a pirate *gasp* and use kazaa, morpheus, or other downloading programs.

Also I forgot to mention today's song of the day which is... *drum roll* No Signs Of Pain by Azure Ray.
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   Average Day
Well, nothing particularly interesting happened today so I thought I would take the time to explain the whole meaning of my "Song of the Day" seeing as how I never have done that and have been posting them for a few days. What my Song of the Day is is a song, usually by a band I like, that pretty well explains how I feel on a certain day or is just one I have stuck in my head in case I don't have a good one to describe my feelings. If you really care about my life they are pretty cool insights into the details of how I feel so... download them if you care. I doubt you care that much though so you probably won't ever listen to any of them but... I would like to think somenone listens.
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Wednesday, November 3, 2004

   I'm So Frickin Retarded
Okay... I told you all about how there are a few girls I like and who like me back right? Right. So I have kinda been working on getting together with one of them and before I know it I am making out with another one of them today. I didn't really mean to it just happens like this... why me? I mean you guys probably think I am the luckiest guy in the world but I'm not, this tearing in my heart is hell and I want it to end, why can't I just be normal and hated by everyone?

Song of the Day remains: Smile Like You Mean It by The Killers
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   Originally I had planned to stop doing my journal for a while but then I realized if I quit this now I will no longer be myself. I am scared right now. A lot of things have been going wrong in my life and others and all I seem to be able to do is mess them up more. Everything is such a mess in my life right now that I long for a way to end it all. If you think I mean sucide your off a little because I thought about it and realized it wouldn't solve anything. Anyway, I hope reading my ranting on how my life if messed up and sucks hasn't made yours any worse. I hope the rest of you are having the wonderful days I always dreamed of having myself.

Song of the Day: Smile Like You Mean It by The Killers
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Tuesday, November 2, 2004

   Ah, Life has gotten a little better
So today me and some friends, embersXofXnever, Austinover, and CurseOfPhoenix were all at this robotics meeting and we started talking about random things and made a small comedy series out of it... look for the name we will be posting it under in my future posts. It is really funny stuff.

P.S. Chiodos Bros. rock If you don't know who they are you should Excellent band!
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   Yeah, Life definitely sucks
I was right about life sucking. I got to school after my orthodontist appointment and it turns out that my friend was there and i did get to talk to the person. My friends still blames themself for what happened and nothing I can say can him this person out in any way. All this crap makes my life suck almost as much as this persons. Oh yeah, i also want to say sorry to any of you out there who have lives that suck more and don't complain, you are better people than me, keep it up.

Song of the Day: No Lies, Just Love by Bright Eyes
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   Life Sucks
I had a lot of time this morning so I figured I would give ya an update on how everything was going and then post again tonight... my life sucks, i have friends on this so I can't mention names but someone killed hiself, none of you would know him... even I don't know him but it is tearing one of my friends apart and I have to be there for this friend and I can't. I have an orthodontist appointment to maybe get my braces off. My life officially sucks beyond belief. Well, not as much as the guy's or my friend's lives but it still sucks because i want to help my friend through it and I can't and it is killing me. Anyway that is all I have to say for now, hope the rest of you are having nice lives.

Song of the Moment: Whiskey Lullaby by Brad Paisley
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Monday, November 1, 2004

   Sorry
Today I feel like being kinda depressive so don't read this unless you don't care. I know my site sucks beyond belief right now but I am working on getting some pictures on it. Hopefully I will do that tomorrow. Today I am all torn between some issuses going on in my life right now... the election, school, and of course girls. What guy does not have a time where 2 girls like him and he likes them both back but likes one more and doesn't want to hurt the other? This is like the trillionth time it has happnened to me and I don't want to hurt the one cause we have been friends forever. Arg, it is so difficult. Anyway that is all for today.

-Song of the Day: "Agenda Suicide" by The Faint
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Sunday, October 31, 2004

   My neighbor is back!
My weekend ended up turning out okay after all. I went over to my neighbor's house yesterday instead of going to a club. She just came back from a foster home after a year. It was pretty cool. She should be going back to our school soon too, fun stuff.

I know none of you really care about it but me and her used to be going out and are still friends, thats why I'm excited.
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