save me!
things r not going well for me. i have a problem that i cant fix on my own and my friends cant fix it either because they have the same problem. but i do need help! but the only way i can get help is if my parents find out and if they do find out they'll kill me. i just need advice or something....anything!! i just cant do this anymore. its driving me crazy! pm me if u have a solution. ttyl. Comments (5) |
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im still here!!
hey ya'll! sorry about the huge time gaps between my posts. i did not leave the O, i dont know whos saying that but its not true. im just finding it hard to go on the O lately, because of school and my job, im busy 7 days a week. its a real pain but at at least this friday and saturday i wont have to go to school or work because IM GOING TO SIX FLAGS!! WOOOOOOOO!! lol sorry i just had to shout that. thats pretty much all thats going on with me right now. latter! Comments (7) |
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Wednesday, May 23, 2007
concert!
hey ppls! im leaving tonight to go to my chorus concert. *wiggles* im getting a special letter for being in chorus 4 years in a row. -_- ive been in chorus for longer than that but they dont count those years. oh well, i still excited. wish us luck. ttyl! Comments (5) |
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Tuesday, May 15, 2007
gift giving!
holy shit i havent been on in ages! how is everyone. things have been looking up since my last post. today is Kats b-day (kakashi209). HAPPY BIRTHDAY KITTY! :) it'll be Kasai's b-day soon too. i know what im getting her but i dont know if i can get enough money. i usually starve myself at lunch time to save up money but she wont let me do that. *sigh* i'll find a way somehow. anyway, i have a really awsome drawing idea that im gunna put in Kasai's drawing book. o_e i just hope it comes out good. so im gunna go start on it now. ttyl. Comments (3) |
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Tuesday, May 8, 2007
Whats wrong with me!?
Mood: Agoney
Song: Going Under- Evanescence
KEEP IN MIND THIS IS A VENTING POST AND PLEASE DONT TAKE IT TO HEART!
Why the hell am i so damn useless!!!? I cant seem to help anyone, anymore! I just feel unwanted and unneeded. It hurts so much to watch my friend's suffer and not be able to do anything! It cant decribe how bad it feels. im a broken-hearted wolf. i wish someone could heal all of their pain so that i can heal too. cause i no i cant do it no matter what. my friends moods determine how i feel, and most of the time that feeling is pain. My day will start off great.....and then i'll get to school....and i see Kasai, Tenshi, Kat, and Leo.....i see their pain and then i just feel my insides shatter......then i start to feel myself falling.....and i dont stop falling! i keep falling untill they're happy again. im not blameing my pain on them though, i know thats what it sounds like but thats not what im trying to say. all that stuff i just said is how i feel. nothing more! i'll never leave my friends cause they're all i have. i guess i just feel pushed away because i cant help. i let them down, because im too weak to help them. so all the stuff im feeling is all my fault and i know that. *sigh* thanks for listening everyone. ttyl! Comments (1) |
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Wednesday, May 2, 2007
What would u say?
hey everyone! i'm really board so im gunna ask a ton of random questions! Please anwser them!! They all start with "what would u say" lol ^^
1. What would u say if i did drugs?
2. What would u say if i got drunk?
3. What would u say if i shoplifted?
4. What would u say if i had sex?
5. What would u say if i killed someone?
6. What would u say if i got abused?
7. What would u say if i got raped?
8. What would u say if i had cancer?
9. What would u say if i got hurt and was never the same again?
hurt
today sucked. i found out that my ex-boyfriend murdered a 12 year old boy. *sigh* i know its not my fault, but cant help feeling like the biggest losser ever. i knew he was an ass right from the begining, AND I DATED THAT SON OF A BITCH ANYWAY!! he was the first person to ever ask me out, so i couldnt help but say yes. He ended up abuseing me (physicly) anyway. i was in 5th grade when that happened. idk....i guess i just need some time alone now. ttyl. Comments (4) |
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Saturday, April 28, 2007
WIRED!!
hey peoples! wow, last night i was so wired on suger it wasnt even funny. i got an hour of sleep! thats what i get for drinking too much tea. lol anyway, im kinda depressed today. im such an emo dork. i feel like drinking alcohol, coffee, and tea untill i pass out. i totally would if my parents werent home. *sigh* oh well. tomorrow im leaving to go vist my grandmother, so i'll be gone all day. sadly thats all thats all thats going on in pathetic life. ttyl! Comments (4) |
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY SPACY!! 
save me! 
song for the moment! 
concert! 
gift giving! 
What would u say? 
WIRED!!