lost....
i feel like i lost everything. i feel like im fighting with two of my best friends and no ones lefts to help me. i think i fucked up big time. ya know, u would think a punch to the face would knock some sence into my but it didnt!! i guess i'll never learn. here r some questions for ya.
1. do u think im a good friend? (BE HONEST!!)
2. Have u ever had to sit back and watch your life go to hell?
3. If u were trapped with me in a room and the only we to save yourself was to kill me, would u? (BE HONEST!!)
better....
hi! i guess things r getting a little bit better. ive still got this flu like cold though. i almost had to stay home from school again today but i didnt. i didnt want to have tonz of make up work. anyway i dont know if i'll be on much today. i kinda wanna rest, ya know? ttyl. Comments (7) |
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Tuesday, March 20, 2007
home sick
hey everyone. i'd just like to say thanks for anwsering my questions yesterday. it made me feel a lot better to know what u guys thought. and just so u guys know, question 4 is not something i would do! anyway, right now im home sick, cause when i woke up to go to school i felt like i was dieing. but after spleeing for a couple more hours i feel a lot better. but i still have to go to the wake tonight. :P u know what kinda made me mad. my parents r all worried about how all this death is effecting my brother! can u believe that!!? he didnt even go to the like last 6 funerals. he only went to Carl's funeral. i'm the one who went to all of them but they're not worried about me at all!! *sigh* sorry bout that. ttyl. Comments (4) |
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Monday, March 19, 2007
coughing my lungs out!
*sigh* hi everyone. i feel like shit. this cold is killing me. i swear its turning into something worse. to top it all off i have to go to yet ANOTHER funeral tomorrow. theres way too many people dieing. anyway here r some questions i want u to anwser. please be honest.
1. How would u discribe me in 5 words?
2. Do u think of me as strong? (mentally)
3. Do u think i have the nerve to take someones life?
4. Do u think i have the nerve to take my own life?
5. Do u ever worry or think about me? Comments (10) |
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Sunday, March 18, 2007
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hi. i think im doing ok today. im coughing my lungs out but other than that, i think im alright. im listening to evanescence non-stop though. its probally cause i got a lot on my mind again. i'll anwser all my pms when i can. im sorry for being lazy. i have like 23 pms. ttyl.
still a little bit hallow
hi. im only on to leave a post. i'll anwser everyones pms tommorrow. i guess im doing better. the fight is heating up. but anyway, i went to another dance on friday with kasai, tenshi, kat, rohan, and ichigo. it was fun but it could have been better. i almost died. i burised my spin. i'll live anyway. kasai ended up sleeping over. it was a lot of fun. we were being real idiots. lol i'll talk to ya'll tomorrow. bye. Comments (3) |
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Thursday, March 15, 2007
hallow agian!
im pissed off and depressed!!! im pissed off at myself for being a souless, heartless bitch. im pissed off at these stupid people jerking around me and my friends!!! this whole fucking thing would just go away if they just left us alone!!! im depressed because of the recent death. i ended going to the funeral. i took it really hard but i didnt cry. im too souless. ive gone through all of this way too many times. ive gotten used to hidding everything behind a fake smile so i guess i'll just have to keep doing that. ttyl. Comments (4) |
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Wednesday, March 14, 2007
*sigh*
i'll be going to a funeral today, so i wont be on much. ttyl.
finaly happy!!
HI!!! im finaly happy and theres no reason for it. my life still sucks. someone somewhat close to me died (he was only 18), im in a ton of fights, and people hate me for no reason and im lossing friends because of that! LMFAO!! its so weird! i guess i just have a lot of energy. and im laughing at myself for taking so many hits from life and walk away smiling. i dont get it. oh well. ttyl. Comments (2) |
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Friday, March 9, 2007
pissed!!
ok im really pissed off at this stupid uncle fucker!!!! I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE JERK AROUND MY FRIENDS!!!! i was in a good mood till i came home with all this waiting for me. *punches wall* GOD DAMN IT!!!! Y DO PEOPLE HAVE TO BE SO STUPID!!!! i hoped i helped kasai. im doing my best. i told u, u wouldnt be able to keep me out of this. Comments (5) |
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lost.... 
better.... 
coughing my lungs out! 
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still a little bit hallow 
hallow agian! 
finaly happy!!