confused
i dont understand how i feel....it seems like everytime i try to say whats on my mind i get fucking screamed at. i dont understand what makes me so different from everyone else. everyone complains about their problems when they have them and they put them in their posts. nobody yells at them. y me? i dont get it. all i do is help people and be a good friend and never get anything for it. but when someone else dose the same thing they get prised for it. what makes me so different. i wish soneone could help me understand that. it hurts to be rejected. (kasai, takamah, kitsune, kat, and haley. your not included in this post. this has nothing to do with u. your all great friends.)
to kasai
im sorry for what i said. im not strong like u. peoples words hurt me sometimes. i just dont like feeling rejected cause ive felt it most of my life. i know your here for me. it just fucking hurts not to not have. but i'll live. i'll pick myself up and carry on like i always. im sorry if i hurt u all. i didnt mean it.
still pissed off!
hey everyone. sorry if i scared u yesterday. i let my hallow side take control of me. sence im still violently pissed, its probally going to happen again. im not saying any names but that bitch better be dead or i'll have to kill her myself. i'll never forgive her for what she said to me. EVER!!!! this is wolf war 3!! ttyl. Comments (5) |
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Tuesday, March 6, 2007
IM A HALLOW NOW!!!!
ive never been so angey in my life!!!!!!! IM A WOLF!!!! I WILL NOT BE TREATED LIKE IM NOTHING!!!!!! (help me....i let this thing take over me. im in so much pain! i feel like im dieing. please help me!) I CANT BELIVEVE THIS!!!! IM NOT SURE WHAT IM GOING TO DO NEXT BUT IT WONT BE PRETY!! IVE GONE FULL HALLOW NOW!! THIS IS WAR!!!!! Comments (7) |
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im sorry
aw man i fucked up bad yesterday! i managed to do everything wrong!!! so im sorry to the people that i hurt. im was just trying to make things right but i guess i went about it all wrong. i probally wont be on much today because.....well.....*sigh* i dont know. i guess i dont have a reason. but its not like im going to sit around all day and wallow in my guilt. no im going to be trying to make things right again. for the people who r reading this post, please do me a favor. dont give me any sympathy, i dont deserve it. i only want your forgiveness. ttyl. Comments (7) |
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Friday, March 2, 2007
back......
hey everybody. i should be on for a little while today. i finaly finished watching the whole fma series and the moive so now i have nothing left to do. *sigh* as for my mood well u can clearly see ive been better. im only depressed because i miss my friends (everyone), one friend is mad at me, and i have a lot on my mind again. oh well i'll get over it. i'll try to anwser my pms today. talk to ya'll then. bye
my quote "cage my free soul and burn my tainted heart in a wild fire" Comments (5) |
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Thursday, March 1, 2007
eh-heh
hey everyone. im still in the middle of watching fma so im only on the computer to leave this post....eh-heh sorry. other then me sitting on my butt all day theres nothing much else going on. well, except my dog being sick....but i think he'll be ok. so anyway i hope ya'll r doin ok and i'll talk to ya when i can. ttyl.
my saying for today is "attach your sin to my soul and i promise i'll always carry it for u"
(yes i wrote that on my own) Comments (4) |
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Wednesday, February 28, 2007
bye for today
hey everyone. sorry about me getting off yesterday without saying goodbye. Roy called so i had to get off and my dad wouldnt let me back on. so i'll anwser all your messages when i can but it may not be today. i think im going to take a break from the computer. i'll probally sit in my room and draw and re-watch the entire fma series. *sigh* at this point it sounds really good to me. as for my mood, im still happy/depressed. be thankful im at least half happy. lol i'll talk to everyone latter. see ya! Comments (5) |
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Tuesday, February 27, 2007
sooooooooooo........ya
hey pplz! im doing alright again today....not as good as yesterday but still ok. *sigh* i guess u can say that im depressed and happy at the same time. like i dont have a heart. weird huh? anyway...cc just left my house so im going to be on for a while now....ttyl. Comments (5) |
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confused 
still pissed off! 
IM A HALLOW NOW!!!! 
my quiz 
im sorry 
back...... 
eh-heh