Wednesday, October 19, 2005

  

Hey there! Today at skool thus again suxed!!!! Mr. Powers stinx. Oh but me & Hiei made another joke! lol well I went up to him randomly and said: "Hey, Hiei, what would you say if I told you I wasn't real and only a figment of your imagineation?" and then he said:"Dude! that's awesome! so that makes you my imaginary friend then, right!?" Me: Sure does!" Hiei:"Awesome!" and then he started to go up to ppl saying: "Hey did you meet my imaginary friend Ed yet???" lol it was funny! And then me & my 'special' (yes I'm slow in math don't laugh) math teacher were talking about Adult Swim cause she randomly said something from Saturday night live & she asked if I watched it, and I said no, but I do watch adult swim! and then she's like:" seriously!? That's awesome! Finally I have a student that watches it! Yes!" and I'm like what's your fav comedy? And she said: "space ghost & family guy." awesomeness!!! lol n_n Turns out she loves fma too!! w00t!!! lol well ttyl ttfn! (Oh & here's Inu yasha fan fic chapter 21!!):

Chapter: 21, Sesshoumaru's Heart:
I had no clue what I was thinking- trying to kill Sesshoumaru & all. I think I must've gone mad with anger because he was dead. It scared me to think of what the future had. I wouldn't get to hold Hatsumi in my arms again, as if I was her mother. I wouldn't be able to kiss Sora off as he went off to work anymore. I wouldn't bee able to do any of that motherly stuff I did when our family was together! Why did this happen!?
I tripped over a stump & fell flat on my face with streams of crystal tears falling from my red, red eyes. I was broken. My heart had been broken. And I couldn't be put back together. I was like a rag doll without eyes, or without any limbs - useless & broken. That's what I was now.
And if I ever had to face Naraku again, he'd be sure to kill me in an instant. Same goes for Inu Yasha & Sesshoumaru. That's all I had comming for me was death. Dammit! Why couldn't I have taken a better path!? Why did I have to fall in love!? Why did I have to have freedom so badly!? Why am I here!? Why do I still strive on this worthless planet without a soul purpose!? Why...?
As I cried on & on I heard footsteps come nearer & nearer to where I lay. I snesed that the person wasn't human, for I sensed a demonic aura, somewhat similar to mine. The foot steps came closer & closer until they stopped in front of me.
And who was it to my surprise? None other than the man I needed to kill- Sesshoumaru.
"Why do you lay on the ground & weep? Is it because your heart has turned soft & wishes for the human to remain alive?" Sesshoumaru asked, kneeling down so we could both see eye to eye.
I didn't say anything. I just glared at him with rage, anger, and hurt in my eyes. How could he do this?
"What the matter? Mad are we? To bad. He had it comming." Sesshoumaru snickered.
"You bastard! Why!? Why all of the sudden do you come & take Hatsumi away from us!?" I belowed out.
"Why? Because she is mine & mine alone. I think I have right to want the child of my love back, don't you?"
"But why!? Why did you leave her out there alone!? Why didn't you come back & save her from years without a father?"
"Because that was Sara's wish. You don't know how much I wanted to raise that angel of mine. How sweet she is now, I'd have made her two times just as sweet. I'd have been an excellent father in my opinion, but that's not what Sara wanted!"
"Why did you love that human?"
"After growing under the arm of your father, you start to want to be him. When my father left my mother for Isaioi -Inu Yasha's human mother- I thought my mother wasn't good enough. And so In followed my father & sought out a human to love. And that's when I found sara. But then she died after giving birth to Ai. And shortly after, father died because of Inu Yasha's birth. That's when I knew that humans only weigh you down. You can never love one. Because a human was the end of my father."
"But why do you like Rin?"
"Because she reminded me of Ai. How could I resist? But I can never fully love her. That'll just shatter me. But the time we have together I cherish more than day itself."
"How sweet."
"No. It's not sweet. It's foolish. You see how weak I really am? I can never let anyone know that. Especially Naraku."
"But why do you tell me then? You know I'm a woman born of Naraku's flesh."
"Because you're free."
That's when he hit me. Sure I might not be able to love another human again, but demon is a whole nother story. I do have love. For both Sesshoumaru & Sora. How strange?
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