Saturday, August 4, 2007

again ppl ignor my posts......here im gonna type somemore for u to ignor



we finally moved into our new house......my room is so awsome....maybe someday soon ill remember to take pix of the walls and put them on here......but the base color is red and we put a glaze paint(gold) over top with a rag roll)pm to find out wat that is). my room is a disaster though and i was in a "cleaning mood" today which my mother hasd been wating for forever...but then she got me out of my "cleaning mood". and she also told me my bestest friend who i havemnt seen all summer couldnt come over till my room was clean. i hate my mom. and today, i almost bit my lip off trying not to scream and cry at the same time. eddie changed the station on the radio when i was listening to something id never heard but was interested in. i cahnge the station during songs too but most of the time, granted not all the time bnut most the time, i ask if someone is listening to the song before i change the station. and he never does. and most the time when he changes it its during a good song or one ive never heard but am really listening too.....GOD I HATE EDDIE!!!!!! i wanna scream but im babysitting and i might scared them so.....*screams at the top of my lungs though it does nothing to clm me* god i hate him god i hate him and i cant say it enough....i just wish hed disappear or go back to jail. but i wouldnt wish that on the other ppl there or the ppl who work there. plus my mo complains about him all the time but never gets rid of him. i even said that the other day. she was complaining and i mumbled under my breath and she asked "wat" and i said "nothing" and she said "tell me now" and i said u complain all the time about him but u dont ge rid of him" and then u kno wat she said to me, she said "well i complain about u too but i dont get rid of u. i made a joke of it as not to show my really hurt feelings(she seems to hurt me alot anymore) by saying "u cant get rid of mye im ur blood im ur daughter ur stuck with me" i hate my mom and eddie so much...i cant wait till im 18...im gonna go to a college in california. the furthest plafce in the us from here.....then she'll wish ashe never said all those things to me because before i leave for college im gonna tell her how i feel and everything she ever made me feel. how when i was made she'd would like instanly try to get me to give her a hug or how when i was actually haveing fun eith her shed ruin it in a second. well my wrist hurts and for the momnet i have nothin else to say so.....bye i guess....until again i need to vent
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