Monday, February 14, 2005

   Happy Valentine's Day
Oy. Oy is all I have to say, save this:

"To be, or not to be, that is the question :---
Whether 't is nobler in mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,
And by opposing end them?---To die,---to sleep,
No more :---and, by a sleep, to say we end
The heart-ache, and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to,---'t is a consummation
Devoutly to be wished. To die,---to sleep :---
To sleep! perchance to dream :--- ay, there's the rub;
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come,
When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
Must give us pause."

There, a little Shakespeare for ya'. If you don't know what play it's from you ought to be ashamed.

Oy. What a day.
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Saturday, January 1, 2005

New Year's Poems, Part I
I decided to post up here what I feel about everybody, now that the year is up. Yes, I wrote all of these. Yes, some of these are the songs I posted earlier, because I wrote those. In any case, not everyone has a poem about them up here. But every one of the poems put here is about someone I know, and you probably know too. In some cases, poems apply to more than one person, some people have more than one poem for them, and one's about me. Actually, there's all about me, because each one is more like what I feel towards the person; my relationship with them. But one's just about me. And there's a nasty little catch. I'm not telling you who's poem is who's. Maybe, come next New Year's I'll tell. In any case, enjoy them.


Wish It Away
Slipping into a coffeehouse
To wish everything away
Won't think of anyobdy else
Go there to forget the day

And I'm gonna wish away the world
With caffiene and a see-through dream
Wish it all away
'Cause I'm only me
Gonna wish away the world

Is it ok if I'm not someone
Just for a little while?
Is it alright if I pretend
That it's just me right now?

And I'm gonna wish away the world
So there's just me and what I'm thinking
Can't you see I'm only dreaming?
'Cause right now I'm just me
Gonna wish away the world
Wish away the world
Wish it all away


Beautiful
She's so beautiful
She wouldn't believe it if I told her
So I never will

She's so hypocritical
She says she can't be broken
Until she breaks
When you leave her
Then she asks me why

She's so ethereal
She's says that she's no angel
But when she falls apart
She stops and thinks about it
Then decides that she deserves more

I'm so careful around her
Like if she's pushed too hard she'll shatter
She says she's not that fragile
But I say her hide her scars

I don't know how to approach
She's so beautiful


Sweet
Today was such an empty day
What kind of day did you think it would be?
I looked you into the eyes and lied
I'll say I never loved you
I'll say I never tried
Quiet my darling
It's only a sweet lie

Taking sorrow from conversations
Clues you leave me day by day
But you can't give me a reason
To somehow find a way
To speak all of those precious words
I dearly want to say


Instead I say what isn't true
Because you don't want me to try
You have to ask for me to love you
If we are to get by
Quiet my darling
It's only a sweet lie

Can't you see through all of this
You've only known me long enough
A friend is dear
And a friend is true
But a friend is not what I think of you
I'm tired of always slipping by
I cannot convince myself
That it's only a sweet lie


Mutual Masochism
What are ya' gonna do
With that crooked laugh
I know you don't mean
More than half that crap

If I gave you everyting
I can take it away
So you better be careful
About everything you say

I am beauty
I am desire
If you don't want to hurt me
Better feed the fire

If you wanted me
Why didn't you take me?
Was it everything you said
Or was there something more?

Whatever you needed
Guess I couldn't give
Doesn't matter if you're bleeding
The ego still wants more

Don't wanna hurt me
Don't wanna hurt you
Said I was sorry
But you forgot about that too
This mutual masochism
Is killing you

If you don't wanna hurt me
Better feed the fire
Yeah, you better feed the fire


Fragile
I've been to the edge and back
I know what it's like to fall
Don't tell me all the lies you lack
Let's try and find a way somehow

Guess it has to be like this
I'm so pale now
So fragile
Why do we have to tear it down?

I'm feeling everything inside you
I'd let myself drown if I weren't so weak
Can't promise to stay beside you darling
Fading away with each word we speak
Thought that we could make it through this
But there's always someone else
In the end it's only me I miss

Why do we have o tear it down?
I'm so pale now
So fragile
I'm dying whenever you're around


Ok, that's actually all the poems I'm putting in this part. I still need to write the rest. Part II will come soon.
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Monday, December 27, 2004

   MEH.
Happy Almost New Year's...

From Las Vegas, Nevada. The other city of lights. Hope the bishis aren't tearing up my room this time, like last time I was in Vegas...
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Friday, December 17, 2004

Sucky School Dance Policies
Ok, tonight there was a dance at my old school. Now, all the students there like me
(or don't mind me), and all the teachers like me. Now why was I not allowed to go? Because it's a closed campus dance. Here's my suggestion for it- Don't have it as a free-for-all. You don't want it so just anybody can come. But make it so students can invite someone they want to come. There can be rules, like the guest has to come with the student and sign in, even wear some sort of pass/tag/other means of identification. Maybe even have them pay a small fee for it (the guest, that is). That makes sense to me. Grr... But no. Don't listen to the teenager's suggestions. She switched schools, so she's inconsequential. Grr. >_<'
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Tuesday, December 14, 2004

   Don't Carry 'Round That Pain
Eio: I'm so pissed off. I don't know, there's just something about seeing the guy who abandoned you walking hand-in-hand with her, right in front of me that makes me not feel the greatest about myself. Sure, I can like other guys now. I do kind of like one guy now. But I don't want to. I didn't want that. Whenever I see Jeff, or Isabel, it irks me so much, because I can't tell what they're thinking. I can't tell if they're sorry, or if they're happier now that they left me alone. Maybe I'm being selfish, but whenever I see them together, I have to turn my head or walk away. Is it too much to ask for things to go right?! I hate this so much.

Fye: I'm sorry Eio...

Eio: Don't pity me.
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Monday, December 13, 2004

   Weird.
I don't know if you guys have heard, but there's a man who murdered his pregnent wife just a few days before she would have had their baby. He's been found guilty, which is good. But I believe he's either already gotten the death sentence, or is likely too. What he did was horrible and gruesome, detestable even, but somehow I can't convince myself that executing him is right. Maybe I'm just weird. I dunno. I don't think he should have killed his wife (masses scream, "Well, DUH!!!"), but I'm not so sure he should be killed either. My mind can't seem to justify the taking of a life. Sigh...
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Sunday, December 12, 2004

Oh joy n' shit.
Eio: GAH!!!! I hate being a teenager! I hate spontaneous random crushes! Especially when they really are random... Anyways. And no Kitty (or anyone else), I'm not telling you who it is. >_<'

Kyo: *snicker*

Eio: Shut up! *beats on Kyo*
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Thursday, December 9, 2004

   Writingisms
Woot. Song lyrics.

Fall Apart
He picked up pretty quick
He was feeling alright
'Least everybody thought so
'Til that one cold night
(Then he fell apart)

From the roof he screamed
"I won't be alright"
From down below
All she could do was cry
And say
"Come on, come on down"

She knew she was cool
She was too hot for a star
But no one saw it coming
'Til she went too far
(Then it fell apart)

From the roof she screamed
"I won't be alright"
From down below
All he could do was cry
And say
"Come on, come on down"

You turned all their heads
You left no competition
Suppose you felt ok
'Til no one would listen
(Don't you fall apart)

On the roof you plea
"If I go will you die?"
From down here I scream
"No, I won't be alright"
If you care for me
Why don't you
Come on down
Come on, come on down


Mutual Masochism
What are ya' gonna do
With that crooked laugh
I know you don't mean
More than half that crap

If I gave you everything
I can take it away
So you better careful
About everything you say

(chorus)
I am beauty
I am desire
If you don't want to hurt me
Better feed the fire

If you wanted me
Why didn't you take me?
Was it everything you said
Or was there something more?

Whatever you needed
Guess I couldn't give
Doesn't matter if you're bleeding
The ego still wants more

(chorus x3)

Don't wanna hurt me
Don't wanna hurt you
Said I was sorry
But you forgot about that too
This mutual masochism
Is killing you

If you don't wanna hurt me
Better feed the fire
Better feed the fire


Another Day
When I see you standing there
The world around me disappears
But then the picture can't come clean
Before I can look away
She enters into the scene

(chorus)
I can't handle this
I've been losing it in every way
You think that I'll get over it
Maybe another day

And just like the time before
I find that I'm reliving
This stupid jealousy one more
Always in my mind
Right in your arms she seems to be there
So whenever she's around
I find a reason not to be here

(chorus)

You know that I
Will never handle this
Breaking more every day
And I, I only wish
Things hadn't been this way

(chorus x2)

No, I won't get over it
Not another day
Never another day
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Wednesday, December 8, 2004

Picture!
Lookit!


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Mercury in Retrograde
Mercury in retrograde means that a lot of stupid stuff goes wrong. I've been having rather bad luck. How many people skin their knee on a carpet when they're kneeling down SOFTLY? And I fall off a wall, and get a paper cut from a notebook. And get sick to my stomach, as well as get a cold, did I mention one of the people I care most about almost DIED? Ya' know, and then there the fact that the whole Jeff/Isabel thing still eating up at me. I'll probably fail tomorrow's biology test too. Screw the world.
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