Monday, April 4, 2005

   !!!RANT WARNING!!!
Mien Gott im Himmel. No, I'm not becoming a frequent poster again, but I feel the urge to well... rant.

Oh yes, it's one of these again, yeah, you know the ones. Those rants that I do late at night when I should be sleeping. Those rants where my mind and mood both swing faster than Tarzan on steriods, and for those of you who don't know, that's really freakin' fast. But, unbeknownst to you, these rants that merely seem haphazard are actually well thought out and edited pieces of literature. I swear. Anyways.

Hey, my knuckles just popped twenty or so times in a row. (So tempted to pull a Largo and tell you all to watch me set my pants on fire, but I'd rather not.)

Ya' know, I'm not one to believe in horoscopes. But this one seems kinda fitting for me right now:

"Valid during many months: You should be very careful under this influence. First, your physical vitality will not be as great as it could be. You may become weakened by a variety of ailments, if you are not careful. Avoid exposure to illness, and if possible don't use any type of drugs, prescription or otherwise. Be sure to eat the proper foods and stay away from dietary regimens that involve giving up a particular kind of food for philosophical reasons. Unfortunately your body does not live on philosophy! Iron deficiency or similar debilitating conditions are a great danger at this time.

In your relationships, make absolutely certain that you present yourself to others as clearly and as straightforwardly as you can. Do not leave people in any doubt about your intentions or your position on any matter. If others have any reason to misunderstand you, they will, and they are likely to work against you because misunderstanding easily turns to fear or mistrust. For the same reason, avoid any involvement in underhanded or devious schemes, for they probably will work to your detriment. Work only with people whom you can trust and communicate with, so that if there are any accidental misunderstandings, you and they can straighten them out without becoming suspicious of each other. Give anyone who enters your life now plenty of time to prove that he or she is honest before you place a great deal of trust in that person.

The problem at this time is that defeats in connection with others can be unusually debilitating. Feelings of discouragement and futility are a great danger and can make you want to give up, thus creating even worse results. If you are not careful, you may come out of this period feeling very badly about yourself.

If you follow these precautions, this influence can show you a very spiritual dimension to life. You can become aware of a deeper meaning in life than you have ever been aware of before. The problem is that the road to this understanding is full of snares and delusions that you must carefully find your way through. "

Does all of that not sound like me? Seriously, it's weird. I've been so tired lately, and not really all that healthy. Sure, I never sleep much, but for the last few days, it's been even worse. And my mom says I'll sleep BETTER if I exersize. Sure thing. Not. I can't get comfortable, or I'm too busy thinking, or imagining (Dude, being a jedi would be cool.), or just closing my eyes and counting as high as I can, or listening to music. No matter what, my brain refuses to turn off. I'm starting to think the suggestion I was given of beating my head against something hard until I pass out isn't such a bad idea. Yeah, I could just take some sleeping pills, but stuff that makes you drowsy has never worked on me, and it's not nearly as entertaining as the alternative. Admit it, it isn't. Hasn't everyone at one point harbored a secret urge to see someone knock themselves out just to get some sleep? I know I haven't. No, really, I haven't.

Hey, lookit that! Chocolate in my easter basket. Mmm... Heh. My older cousin was the easter bunny at k-mart. He must hate his job. Jus' thought everyone needed to know that.

My head really, REALLY hurts. But, I don't think I should go rooting through the medicine cabinet in the dark. Wait. My family doesn't have a medicine cabinet. Actually, I don't think my dad even keeps anything besides headache medication around. You know why? Because he never gets sick. You know what else? I'm not at my dad's house right now. If I were, I'd be watching a movie and eating popcorn, instead of ranting on the otaku while my little sister sleeps on the couch in the living room, therefore depraving me of the opportunity to watch "Saving Private Ryan", which I'm kinda required to watch for school.

Back to that horrorscope for a moment (yes, I meant to type "horrorscope"), I think I do have an iron deficieny. My mom has been saying I have one, and it would explain why I crave burgers and steak all the time and why I'm so tired. It all makes sense now! Cool, I have a reason to go and eat a bunch of meat. Yum. Meat...

I'd go back to what I was talking about, but what's the point. Who's reading all of this anyways?

Oh, I think I found my new current theme song, as it changes every few weeks or so. Here it is:

"I saw an angel in blue jeans today
and felt as she melted all my bitterness away

You always tried so hard to hide your wings behind your coat
so let it be and let them free
so you can hover low above the ground

You look so tired, you've got moonbeams in your eyes
and if I believed I know you'd be the first to fly

You always tried so hard to hide your wings behind your coat
so let it be and let them free
so you can hover low above the ground

I'll find
sunshine
sometime soon

How can I miss anything about you
when I don't even know what your name is?
I feel like I know you as well as I know the sun
so please tell me where is my sunshine now"

Am I boring you? Thought so. So I finish with a few simple statement, and then I shall conclude.

1) Fullmetal Alchemist kicks ass.

2) Don't worry about me. I'll be fine come morning.

3) P|-|34|2!

Which brings me back to my original point: Don't give me any drugs.

Guten nacht. ^ ^
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