Wednesday, September 15, 2004

   titleless, yet again
Life was fun today! I had a good time with everything... my friends are the best! my two closest girl-friends made my day so wonderful! They ARE wonderful! Do you guys have friends like that?? Friends that will make you smile when you need it and even when you dont, that are always there, and care about you more than most anything else?? I love it.. my boyfriend is like that too.. he's my best friend not just my boyfriend, which makes life so much better and easier.. of course if I never see him, it doesnt exactly help, but it'll be alright.. anyways, I have marching band practice tonight and I still have to eat dinner.. Later! Hope you all had a lovely, happy day ^_^

Hikaru
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Monday, September 13, 2004

life.... *sigh*
I had a good day, I guess... it was fun and all, but I really wish it was still summer.. That I could be with only those I choose to be and be doing only what I want to do.. But I dont get it! I used to love school and I always really wanted to go back.. but this year, I didnt want to come back at all.. I would rather continue on with my very-busy summer life than have the 10 pounds of homework I have tonight.. on top of that, I saw akito for about 15 minutes total today.. it sucks!! I wish we had more classes together.. every other day, we have math and lunch.. but thats it! *sigh* anyways, I have really been trying recently to work on finding myself.. I feel like I'm lost in some sort of VERY complex maze and the only thing I want to do is be out! But, it'll be alright.. Maybe THATS why I didnt want to go back though! Maybe it's because I finally figured out what I DID want to be doing.. But anyways, off to that 10 pounds of homework and practicing my instruments (which will make me feel better, I'm sure ^_^) Enjoy your evening!

Hikaru
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Thursday, September 9, 2004

   lovely day despite the rain...
Today was our first day of school, but it was raining all day.. All my teachers are awesome though and I have classes with most of my friends.. Sadly, Akito and I only have lunch and math together and both are every other day.. but Jessie and I have bio and gym and lunch and math and.. I think thats it. My french teacher is awesome! I am really looking forward to having her all year.. but, now, I have homework (yes I did get homework on the first day.. gotta love it though, dont ya??) so I hope you're all having a lovely evening and that you enjoyed your day!

*hugs*
Hikaru
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Monday, September 6, 2004

   ....
I'm not feeling so hot this evening... today, all day, was awesome, but now, my stomach hurts... so, I'm gonna go lay down and read my newtype... hope you all had a nice day!
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Saturday, September 4, 2004

   tired, but oh so happy ^_^
We were shopping for almost all of the day.. it was like 8 straight hours of shopping (mostly for me and my little sis, so it was lots of fun ^_^)... My mom wasnt stressed about it like she usually is, so that made it all the more fun.. we didnt get back until 9:30, so it was too late to call jessie (who I think is coming over tomorrow night! yay!!) and mom said I couldnt call akito.. she said that he has to learn to call me more because too often it's me calling him.. I guess I agree, but I'd much rather have called him and been able to talk to him than wait around for a phone call I know wont come... maybe it'll teach him a lesson, or maybe he'll just not ever call... thats the joys of dating though, right??

Anyways, hope you all sleep well tonight ^_^ and that you enjoyed your day today!

*hugs*
Hikaru
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Friday, September 3, 2004

   Sorry guys...
Sorry I havent posted in a couple days... I've been around, just I've forgotten to post.. I just had a whole one written up, but then I deleted it accidentally (grrrrr...) and now I am starting over. So, anyways, today I had a doctors appointment and then I made lunch and then cleaned and then made dinner.. Then, I cleaned more.. and talked to Akito. What an interesting conversation it was, too.. There is a weird thing going on within our friend-group right now, which I feel like I should be able to do something about, but cant.. and Akito thinks it's up to him, when really it's not up to either of us.. I wish I could just go POOF and everything would be better.. but, as we were talking, he had to go and we didnt get to finish the conversation.. That was a bit frustrating, but what kinda broke me down is (okay, this may sound really cheesy and immature, and perhaphs it is, but it's how I felt, sooo... oh well ^_^) the way he answered me when I was saying goodbye.. Me- "Goodnight! I love you!" Him- "I know."

Now is that a bad response or what?? Am I being unreasonable or is it something that you guys think is weird too?? Usually, he says he loves me too, but well.... maybe he was just mad at me or frustrated with me or something??? I wish I knew how his mind worked sometimes... Any of you guys have any thoughts on this??

My life is weird right now.. I need to figure out me.. I feel all confused inside and it's hard to figure out other people and their problems when you dont even know yourself and your own problems... Anyways, I wound up crying on my bedroom floor and wishing that I could just call him back and tell him how I really felt.. and then (wow, great timing ^_^) my friend called and we talked.. I am feeling so much better now, but I need some sleep.. So, goodnight everyone!! Sleep well! I'll post again tomorrow if I have the chance...

Hikaru
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Wednesday, September 1, 2004

   so tired....
I am exhausted right now.. i didnt exactly get a lot of sleep last night...

So, yesterday, my parents left at about 1 pm to go to a concert in another city.. We had arranged for my friend Jessie to come over, so she got here at about 2:30.. We hung around here for a little while and then we went up to Akito's soccer game. Actually, we went into the school first to find our lockers and some of our classes. THEN we went to his game.. They lost REALLY BAD! It was like 8-0.. but hey, thats alright b/c it was only their first game and the other team was really good! Akito was only in for a few minutes towards the end of the game, but it was awesome to watch him! He's really energetic about it.. oh and my friend dan hurt his foot... He got taken out of the game.. I hope he'll be alright!! And after the game, we went down to my house (Akito, Jessie, and I) and of course, Akito couldnt come in because my parents werent home, but Jessie and I ate dinner.. then, we walked back up to the varsity game and apparently Akito and his friend/team mate had been looking for us.. I thought he had to stay for the whole game, but I guess not! Soooo.. then his mom took us over to Jessie's house and Jessie and I then called her boyfriend Andrew... that was a really fun conversation! We laughed a lot.. then, Jessie and I just stayed up talking until 1:30 at which time we were too exhausted to do anything but sleep... She helped me so much though! We figured out a good schedule for practicing our instruments and she helped me with a couple of issues I had.. It's so wonderful to have as great a friend as she is to talk to! Too bad we had to get up at 6:30 this morning though! Anyways, that probably wasnt very interesting since you guys dont know any of them, but oh well.. Hope you have a GREAT day ^_^
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Sunday, August 29, 2004

   interesting day...
It's been an interesting day so far.. not interesting like I've DONE anything interesting, just interesting in the matter of weird-ish.. My cousin, sister, and I stayed up until about 2:30 doing fun girl-ish stuff ^_^ then, of course, she had to leave at about 8:30 this morning.. then, my mom and sis and I sat around and talked for like 3 HOURS.. just random things, mostly about my sister.. she's 10 and she has all these little problems.. I sat there and basically tried my best not to laugh at how simple her life is, yet how complex she makes it.. she never has to do any work, she gets pretty much whatever she wants, and all she really has to worry about is that her friend gave her a weird look yesterday.. I sit there and think, "Wow.. I wonder how hard it'll be for her when she starts having BIGGER problems... If she cries now, what's she gonna do then???" Yeah.. I dont have much sympathy for a person who sat there (this was last night) and WATCHED me do all my chores and HERS! Okay, I'm done being mad at her.. I am actually in an extremely good mood right now ^_^ maybe I'll call akito in a little while.. maybe I'll even ask mom if he could come over or something... anyways, I'll talk to ya all later.. Hope you're having a wonderful, happy, exciting day ^_^

Hikaru
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Friday, August 27, 2004

   la la la la laaaaaaaaaa
My cousin is here for a couple of days, so please excuse my not being on.. I babysat yesterday and then went to my friend's party and then talked to akito for awhile... ummmm.. i think that may be it.. not really much else to say ^_^ Have a great day!

Hikaru
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Wednesday, August 25, 2004

   YAAY!
I just woke up (it's 8:30 here ^_^) and I am already very excited!! I think I've mentioned before that I just moved to the school I'm at last summer.. Anyways, we are going to the city that is close to my old school today and my friend from that school is going to meet me!! I CANT WAIT TO SEE HER!!!! It's been at least 5 months and she's one of my best friends. So, after I have a sax lesson, I am going to meet her at the mall and we're just gonna wander around.. it's going to be LOTS of fun ^_^

In other news, Akito came over yesterday. It was fun, but we spent a little too much time with my sister for my taste... I kinda needed it to be just the two of us for awhile... I would have said something, but I knew he would just feel bad if we left her all alone... it's hard to decide if it's worth doing something you really dont want to do in order to make other people happy or not... I think I do that too much. I took a quiz the other day and it said I was "too nice" and well, I think it may be true! But making other people happy is just what I do... It's one of my favorite things TO do! What do you guys think??

Also, I wrote a song last night.. it was fun ^_^ I want to write music on my sax or something for it..

And, thats the latest on my life... Hope you all enjoy your day! I'll come by sites when I get back from seeing Haleigh if I have a chance ^_^ Later!
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