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Friday, September 3, 2004
Sorry guys...
Sorry I havent posted in a couple days... I've been around, just I've forgotten to post.. I just had a whole one written up, but then I deleted it accidentally (grrrrr...) and now I am starting over. So, anyways, today I had a doctors appointment and then I made lunch and then cleaned and then made dinner.. Then, I cleaned more.. and talked to Akito. What an interesting conversation it was, too.. There is a weird thing going on within our friend-group right now, which I feel like I should be able to do something about, but cant.. and Akito thinks it's up to him, when really it's not up to either of us.. I wish I could just go POOF and everything would be better.. but, as we were talking, he had to go and we didnt get to finish the conversation.. That was a bit frustrating, but what kinda broke me down is (okay, this may sound really cheesy and immature, and perhaphs it is, but it's how I felt, sooo... oh well ^_^) the way he answered me when I was saying goodbye.. Me- "Goodnight! I love you!" Him- "I know."
Now is that a bad response or what?? Am I being unreasonable or is it something that you guys think is weird too?? Usually, he says he loves me too, but well.... maybe he was just mad at me or frustrated with me or something??? I wish I knew how his mind worked sometimes... Any of you guys have any thoughts on this??
My life is weird right now.. I need to figure out me.. I feel all confused inside and it's hard to figure out other people and their problems when you dont even know yourself and your own problems... Anyways, I wound up crying on my bedroom floor and wishing that I could just call him back and tell him how I really felt.. and then (wow, great timing ^_^) my friend called and we talked.. I am feeling so much better now, but I need some sleep.. So, goodnight everyone!! Sleep well! I'll post again tomorrow if I have the chance...
Hikaru
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