Saturday, May 14, 2005

   Another post entitled Blargh...
Well, folks, how's life been around here? I've had the absolute worst week imaginable. First off, I'm sick, and I can barely move. I think I caught something from one of my friends. I'm completely behind in all of my classes, I've completely screwed everything up at school. LAst night I went to go see Hitchiker's Guide to the Galaxy, which was one of the two things in this week that has been good. Still, since my brother brought along his stupid, college friends, and I'm a lowly freshman, they made the whole thing a whole lot less enjoyable. The other good thing was, of course, a band concert, the only real thing keeping me going. Afterward, most of us went down to a resturant and chilled for a few hours, and that was also pretty good. *Sighs* were that everything could be going as well as that.

You see...my life's sort of been turned upside down...In case you hadn't noticed by my self-degredating humor and my constant state of 'Blargh'-ness, I'm an incredibly shy person. It's not that I'm a total geek or anything, I mean, I've got some semblance of a life, but when you're like me, liking a really cute, really popular girl at school, when you aren't exactly sure about her, is really, really awkward. She's in ther band, the only oboe player in the band, and we've been in a lot of the same classes since the beginning of the year, Theatre, both the bands, and we've been in the school play's too, so I've been seeing her a lot. Now, before I continue, I have been talking to her, and we're pretty good friends, so this isn't some sort of creepy, one-sided thing. You see, we're a LOT alike, we both like band, we both like acting, we both want to work at the movie theatre here (and both of our older brothers work there, too.). But, there's a catch (there's always a catch, isn't there?) She's incredibly beautiful, very smart, very talented, and her parents drive her to always get better at what she does. I, on the other hand, play an instrument I never practice, and I usually rely on luck to get through everything.

Now, this is the part where I'd normally bring up some sort of lost oppurtunity that I had, but, really, nothing's happened, despite the fact that I'm absolutely crazy about her. I'm going to be straight with you, she's kind of a shameless flirt. We've been pretty good friends for a while, as I've said, but she always seems suspicious of me, like I'm going to ask her out, but I never do. First off, like I also said earlier, I'm incredibly shy, and second, my parents won't let me date until I'm older. I still stumble over my words when I'm talking to her, and I'm always really nervous, you know? Well, I'm not sure what to do, so...that's really all I've got to say.

Well, returning to something a bit less depressing, I've got something big that I'm working on right now, in terms of drawing, but I've been sworn to secresy, so I can't talk about it with my friends, let alone put it online. So, sorry if I don't put any drawings on here for a long time. Well, theotaku, that's my life today. C ya later.
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