Thursday, March 8, 2007

   ...Pants...

Time: 4.38 in the pm Mood: Unloved/rejected/broken Listening To: Unable To Stay, Unwilling To Leave - Titanic Soundtrack Hmm... So, I finally broke down today. Everything finally got to me, and I er, well... Yes, all right. I cried. Which is the first time I've cried at college. Not the first time I've cried because of it. Well... Gareth keeps going on about his boyfriend, and usually I don't mind these things, but being in the state I was in today, well... Yeh. It's unfair because he is the weirdest freak I know. And that's saying something. Seriously, when people like him get a boyfrieng/girlfriend, it makes me wonder why I just can't. Call me whingey, but when you've been single and free and lonely as long as I have, well, it starts to take it's toll on you. To cap it all off, I had an Environmental Science test today that I'd completely forgotten about. I tried to revise (after storming out of the common room after having a complete and utter strop - my first for quite a while I think, a proper one anyway) from our revision sheets when sat outside. But then Dave walked past with a couple of his mates. And what he said made everything going on in my head ten times worse. He said something like, "Look, there's the girl who can't resist me". And one of his mates kinda laughed. Usually, something like that wouldn't bother me, I'd just joke along. Because that's usually the sort of person I am. Usually. But I just told Dave to shut up, and went back trying to revise. Then Laura and Hazel came out and said that they were worried because I hadn't gone back into the common room like I normally would've done after having a tiz. I gave up trying to revise, and yes, I have failed that test. I know that because I didn't answer half of the questions. Luckily, if we don't give in the Psychology work in at the end of tomorrow's lesson, we can make sure it's in by the end of the day. Which means me and Laura have a fair few frees to get it finished. Shit. I forgot to pick my folder up from my locker after E.S. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!! That means I can't work on it tonight. OH SHIT!! WHAT A FUCKING RETARD I AM!! That means I'll be trying to draw the fanarts. I say trying, because, do remember I am a bit... Broken. Well... When Dave next comes online, I'm gonna tell him that I'm doing my absolute best to get over him, and that if he only thinks of me as a friend, then fine, because suddenly I don't care anymore. I've lost the will to care. Wow. 21 comments yesterday. Thankyou everyone ^^ You're the best. Hmmm, also 210 guestbook singings and 1183 visits ^^. You really do all rock ^^. Well, I guess I'd better be off to comment everyone from yesterday. Wait, I don't post then go comment, I comment then post 0_o. Oh well... Makes a change ^^. Questions 1) Ever been completely heartbroken? 2) If you had one chance to prove to your crush/whoever you like, that you and they should be together, what would you do/say? 3) If your best friend told you that they were a robot, what would you do/say? Wow, that last one is very random. I really am off to comment now lol. And then watch episode 9 of Elfen Lied, possibly... ¢¡§ú Emmah xxxx P.S. Oh my Gods. I've been nominated for a contest 0_o *needs to find out more...*

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