Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Fed Up With Life...

I'm going to have to find myself a new job. And move area. I'm fed up with where I live, where I work, the people I see... I just hate it all, now. My job - I was supposed to be Team Leader, and now I'm not, because they're sending another Team Leader to our shop to do the job. For the next two weeks though, I'm supposed to be doing all this training and running shifts, so I can see what it's like. Right, so that why none of the staff (other than my Mother and Bosswoman Andrea) are taking me seriously. I've been on... Three shifts so far. I've ran NONE of them. Because apparently, when someone else comes in (Rich, Matt or Andrea), then they're automatically running the shift. But, this morning, Andrea was only in to do all the price changes and everything, and teach me stuff. When Rich came in at 9, he immediately went to Andrea and asked what needed doing. She said "I don't know, you'd better ask Emma, as she's running the shift today". Oh, so according to Andrea (who is currently store manager until we get a new boss), I was running the shift, was I? So explain to me why Rich told me I WASN'T running the shift, but he was. Explain to me why that, when Matt came in and me and my Mum complained to him, he said Rich was right and that Rich WAS running the shift, even though Andrea told everyone it was ME running the shift?! It's pissed me off so much. I don't see the point of these two weeks, because I'm not actually going to be a Team Leader afterwards... And what's the point of putting me on shifts if I'm not even going to be running them, because two of the higher managers are convinced they run the shifts even when I'm on? OK, so when a higher manager does come in, it's them who automatically runs the shift, but Andrea specifically said that I needed to run the shift so I know what it's like. What's the point of saying that, if neither Rich or Matt actually let me run the shift?! Tomorrow... I get to run the shop for THREE hours on my own! Woo? I'll go into the shop for 2pm (and stay until 11pm), and Matt will be in until 8pm. Meaning I won't be running the shift until then, when he goes home. I'm so fed up with it, that on Saturday, I'm going to talk to Andrea, and tell her that I'll do these two weeks (well, it'll just be a week from Saturday), and then I want to go back to my normal shifts, and that we can forget the step-up shit, and the Team Leader shit, because I just don't want it anymore. As for the area I live in... It's full to the brim with drug addicts, drunks, old people, chavs, and depressed people (me being a depressed person myself...). I hate it here. I'm going to find a new job as soon as I can, get my full driving license as soon as I can - and then I'm out of here. I'm gone. I'm starting to think that I really am depressed. A couple of months ago, I was feeling so low, that I burst into tears at work for no reason. Mum wanted to take me to the doctors, but I refused. I'm not ahppy with anything, and everything it just making me depressed. That's why I need to get away from my shitty job, and the area I live in. I need to escape. I need to find a job I'll actually like and enjoy. Like working with animals, or writing stories, or something like that. Something I actually WANT to do. I only joined my current job, because I was sat at home doing nothing, and I needed the money. That's all I'm doing this job for right now. And to top my spectacularly crap day off... Bam has just pissed and shit on my bed. Thank you very fucking much, disapproving rabbit of mine. On a good note, we have two new pets. Two giant snails! They're only babies, so they're tiny, but when they grow up, ooooh don't they get big XD Anyway... Toodles.

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