Tuesday, September 28, 2004

i am burning the letters of days gone by
i seriously need to just let go but its hard when there is no time to make anew i need a good long vacation so i can meet some people ....when is necro con...???
bleh need a good friend to go talk to i need to get these words off of my chest i need to expirince a reaction actual feeling within this human body

"sometimes i wish that we could be so much closer"
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Saturday, September 11, 2004

ring ring leave a message at the tone
you never awnser your phone
i'm tired of sitting home alone with nothing left for me to say

me lonely
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lets forget this all and move on
work sux to much food and hmmmmm it is just disgusting why do people even eat onion ringfs seriously and ours are like unsanitary anyways ivan is comming wooo boy another hurricane i am sooo thrilled (seroiusly its starting to piss me off) so life hmmmmm i do not have one it is school, work, sleep well i wouldn't call it sleep for i am restless i cannot sleep it doesn't feel right like i just get this feeling while lying their like it is wrong and it makes me sad sooooooooo i am still lonely (oh what a surprise right) yeah it starts to eat away at my soul till nothings left i seriously need to feel loved i do not feel it at all how life is going and whats worse is at work i am like always thinking about her (you know who you are) and when i get off work and walk home under the stars i stop and gaze upon them like your beauty and wish you were in my arms right now....sigh but yeah yeah i feel that way (seriously i haven't seen her in forever cuz of my lack of being at school lately) well that is some of what i have now i might post more later sigh

"i'm sorry please forgive me, belive me if you would"
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Thursday, September 2, 2004

   i can't go on cuz the strength i had is gone
snuck online again :: ninja ::
agh seriously i have felt sick for a long time my stomach keeps hurting and i get the taste of blood in my mouth sometimes (but you guys are the only ones who know) yeah i have held my diet of one small meal a day pretty well cuz i got no one trying to put food in my mouth. sigh i just can't be hungry anymore nope i just do not want to eat well umm i don't know really with no one here i am alone how sad bleh hmmmm well i found out that me being tired is like me drunk i just say whats on my mind hmm well i hope its good cuz i am tired now so it'll be an intersesting day i hope still gotta get to school kev totaled his car but on the up side he said i could smash up his semi-hallow guitar *eyes light up* i was waiting for him to say that now i have to get courtney to record it or someone so i have video of it and pics i'll be sure to post them
hmmm my mood : sleepy so i guess i'm sorta happy ..? bleh tho i gotta throw up

"can't take any more, is tis all we are?"

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Monday, August 30, 2004

   one morning, one back pain, two cuts
sigh being grounded from the internet really sucks i mean yeah i can sneak on like i am now but the rest of my day is so f'ing boreing *sigh* *tear* well when your parents call you a dissapiontment and yell at you for really nothing then i guess it gives you lots to think about like i really sux when the people who have to love me don't *sigh* but i have this cross guitar pick and i found it and it had a big peice missing so it wasawsomly hooked and worked great for cutting up my arm but after a couple swipes i stoppped and thought and i really needed someone to talk to someone who loved me someone to hold me and tell me its ok *sigh* yet i have no one there to do that i have sammy she is a little help cuz she is there but she was hanging out at the mall so i didn't want to ruin her fun ... damn no one liveing in a walking distance from my house that loves me(there is sammy but she can only do so much...being sammy)

sorry to bore anyone who read that it happend on friday but i am just typing it now

"the jesus pick made for cutting the one time it seemed like god was paying any attention to me at all but it wasn't love he had for me no it was pity"
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Friday, August 27, 2004

yay a compliment but its kinda wrong
Your a very very good RP'er!!

Congraulations, your one of the best role-players
I've ever seen! Your work is almost completely
original, your character is having either a
very good time or is stuck (as per usual) in a
situation that is just perfect! Man I wish I
could right stories like you... I'd be famous
but you've probably heard this all before... or
you should if you haven't...


What kind of RP'er are you?
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   omg i found it
omg i found an avatar that is just too funny hahahahahaha nemo my anti-drug hahahahaha i dunno maybe i am high but i can't stop laughing
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O.O!!!!
this came out a little to real....
it says i may be gay cuz i love haku..wait my haku is a girl .. sorta..O.O!!! creepy


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its friday and i'm in love
yay its friday that means i have no school yay its so great anyways i dunno i slept pretty well last night my mind was settle and that is a good feeling and tonight i'm prolly gonna spend the night at sams which mean well be oof doing something fun gotta remember to bring my camera so i can take funny pics me+sam=something good ^^ oh well i am gonna try reading this poemy thing off of my palm and make a last line so i can pm it well i'll prolly update again later in my boredom c' ya
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Thursday, August 26, 2004

i am but molded clay
sorry i feel all better seeing haku (pookie) today gave me a 180 turn around i feel so good actually feel great
sorry sometimes you need to cry and i am a drama queen so bleh
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