Wednesday, July 21, 2004

i am alone i'm sorry
it is sad really sad i want to feel love and i want to feel joy but as of right now all i have is emptyness and loneliness
my friend eric left today to tenesse so now i hate that state sam and i failed to kidnap him and now he is gone and i'm crying not exactly for that but it dosen't help either
i miss love
i miss having a purpose
i miss life
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Thursday, July 15, 2004

   personal injury
wow lets see what have i done the last few days well to hurt myself ummmmmm cut up my arm cut my fingers stuck my finger and a pin in an electric soket so that burned my arm and burned my leg with a lighter hmmmmmm i could put some nail clippers in the electric socket that would be big ...... awsome hmmmmm oh i could try to pirce my skin with needles oh i can try to fly off of my roof awsome that could hurt if you have any ideas please do reply
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Monday, July 12, 2004

i am the rain
it rained on me it followed me the rain is a part of me i am the rain KAGE-BUSHIN NO JITSU!!!!
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Saturday, July 10, 2004

   so tired need a good glomping
such an over useed word that glomp is gotta find a diifernt gesture a better one........ metrocon ...was hot too many people and not enogh air well i got some good pictures and met some people and gotta be with haku alot of the day so it was a really good day....*sigh* i love you haku
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Thursday, July 8, 2004

ummmm i have nothing
i have so much to say right now.............oh wait no i don't
today and yesturday both really boring nothing done (which is bad metro is sat. crap now i gotta do lots of stuff
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Tuesday, July 6, 2004

mooooo sic
yeah in a good mood in a very music mood i got alot of songs written and stuff i'd post them here but scince this is hardly ever read it would be a wate og time *sigh*
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Monday, July 5, 2004

in a rush and i can't do it alone
yeas metro is saturday and that mean alot of rusk to finish my zabuza costume but i need haku to sew it for me cuz i can't sew and i'm poor damn this is gonna suck where can i get money i need money
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Sunday, July 4, 2004

   i execpt
its alrighti execpt any judgement that pass on me i prolly deserve it and i'll leave i'll be fine i can find my way to miami there i can prolly live with out bothering anyone

i just want someone to be here someone i can see everyday and feel the love i know i suck like that
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   no i'm a bad emo boy i hate being so needy
alrighty i was at a b-day party yesturday and yeah it sucked but i made a new friend ........but also yeturday i was like flirting alot (don't hit me) yeah she was interesting and she gave me attention (which is much needed) and that is why *sob sob* i'm sorry i didn't mean to be all like that .......(i hope my gf won't be mad...... i know charlie is it was his gf afterall) he..he don't hit me!!!!
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Saturday, July 3, 2004

   not that it gets read but i'll write it anyways
so last night i was all not ....good i mean i do tis all the time(the i hate myself thing) i mean i don't see what people see in me sure i'm nice(nice guys finish last) and i like helping people when they are down but as a regular person there really isn't much its eaither really happy or incredibly depressed and in depression i tend to cut myself i don't know why, i'm to much of a coward to kill myself but i guess its so i can feel thing things good or bad i just need to feel life is a tragity when your a bi-polar emoboy damn now i'm like not liked and and and crap i don't wanna do something stupid to hurt anyone but sometimes they hurt me even if they don't know it
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