Saturday, September 10, 2005

   sorry
i know its taken me a while to update, sorry 'bout that. Anyways, nothing really new here. nothing you need to know at least ;P jk lol. *yawn* umm...crap..ive got nothing else to say...great..i wonder how i can waste the space left in this message...blah blah blah blah blah...okay thats boring..so..how has everyone been??
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Tuesday, August 30, 2005

   Don't really have a title...
To be in love is to be torn,
to be lost in a world of wonder.
That's where i've been
for quite a while now...

To be in love is to cry endlessly,
sadened by the lonliness.
Lying in bed watching the sky through your window,
letting the silent tears fall.

It is to wait forever for your love,
to never lose hope, never falter.
Watching the crowds go by,
looking for your special someone.

It is the mixture of pain and relief,
when they whisper your name.
Aching for them to just hold you tight,
sighing deeply when they finally do.

To be in love is to savor every snowflake,
you see melt in their hand.
Burning just like your heart,
until nothing remains but a warm breath on your cheek.

To be in love is to have wonderous daydreams,
especially when others tasks are at hand.
Staring off, thinking of how much you love them,
never doubting how much they love you.

It is to shiver when they pass you,
to grin irresistibly when thay walk beside you.
Never wanting to let go when they hold your hand,
Trying to stop time for your love's sake.

it is to curse the clock,
that turns faster when they approach.
Wanting to run away with them,
to where time no longer matters.

To be in love is to be crushed,
when they leave your side.
To never have the heart to smile,
and to lose the will to live.

To be crushed is to lose everything,
heart, happiness, strength & life.
To wither away until all thats left,
is an empty shell of who you used to be.

It is to live lonely & die lonely,
to live forever hopeless.
To be weakened by life's most hated emotion.
But see, I'm none of these.

I have my love & my life.
I have my heart & my happiness.
I have my strength & my will.


I won't be crushed &
I won't die lonely!
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Thursday, August 25, 2005

   Remodeling
well, i've added a few things, so..what do you think? its not perfect, i know, but I'm satisfied for now. :)
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Tuesday, August 23, 2005

   uhhh...
ignore the past before this one...something messed up..
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   Remeber this adorable kitty?

adopt your own virtual pet!

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Saturday, August 20, 2005

   I'm freshmeat! ...uhh..i mean freshman!
Well, I've started my freshman year of highschool! I'm really surprised, it's much easier and much more fun than I thought it would be. The seniors are really nice and I have a TON of friends! :) I have a really good feeling about this year, and besides guy troubles, I've had a good start.
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Tuesday, August 9, 2005

   POLL!!!
What color is my underwear?

A. Black
B. Purple with Orange Polka-dots
C. Lime Green
D. White
E. Electric Blue
F. Pink! [yeeaaa...suurrreee..]

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Sunday, July 31, 2005

   Let me sleep
Sometimes i wonder why I'm still here,
I wonder why i bother to wake up anymore.

To sleep forever, it'd ease my pain,
and relieve others, such a burden i've become...

Somedays i wish i could lose myself in dreams.
Dreams never to end, for me to never wake up.

To leave everything behind, lose my identity,
Become someone else for everyone's sakes.

I feel like its getting harder to breathe, to think,
It seems almost like im living a lie, hiding...

I find myself struggling to stay awake, to believe,
Losing to wants and hopes of a new life, a new me...

Sitting in my room, lost in thought, wasting time away,
Silently speaking to an empty head, a full heart.

I ponder through the many things i wish, i want,
Though none seem achieveable, but one...

I just want to lay my head down, sleep peacefully,
And never wake up, and though i cherish that thought...

The love of others, the love of one I'd never wish to hurt,
but even for him, sometimes i dont want to fight it anymore...

I find myself losing to the darkness,
breaths are becoming so shallow...

My head hurts, my heart bleeds...
If only i could just sleep...

~Kitty~

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Saturday, July 30, 2005

More of my random inspiration...
So you wanna change your life,
wanna make everything right...
well...don't we all...

Fighting for our individuality,
praying for refuge,
looking down a forked path...

wondering which way to go,
driving on the wrong side,
living on the edge of reality...

Which path do you take?
Where do you seek safety?
When will you find reality?

every path leads somewhere,
everyone is safe in themselves,
everyone knows reality is never too far away...

~Kitty~
>^.^<

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Saturday, July 23, 2005

Attention!
Please, while visiting this site i want you to know that im happy you took the time to see my humble site. Thank you so much. To make me feel even better would you please just leave a 'you're welcome' comment? ...Thank you so much...
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