Wednesday, May 25, 2005

   ..........
hey....
how's everyone...
so far i'm alright...
and yea...i kinda got to let it go...you know with the bestfriend thingy?
well it's not that I don't care...
but i have to let go enable to go on...
eventhough it kinda hurt....
and yea...
well....time will come and i'll find a bestfriend that is trustworthy and dependable..and all that kinda stuff....
and i'mm not in a hurry for a bestfriend right now....
i'm gonna chill for awhile...
and thank you all for making me feel better.....
and yea....right now i'm reading Naruto..it's hilarious....LOL
well i'm bored...
and yea i just want to inform you guys that i'll be posting anime songs everytime I can....
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Kaze no Uta; Melody of the Wind
stop
I was dreaming:
a beautiful,
eternal dream...

stop
...putting sadness
into a deep, quiet
sleep.

If you were touched
by kindness,
you must have been happy, but

Time moves on. My heart pounds. In the wind
I can hear someone's voice calling.

Rushing passionately through this body, this heart,
Life is now awakening.

stop
People are weak, aren't they?
They fight
and hate each other.


stop
But love, of all things,
can surpass
everything.

My fate
pulls me onward...
certainly towards you.

That smiling face, those tears, everything about you...
I'll turn them into just one source of courage.

And I'll never even be afraid of getting hurt.
I'll protect you. I'll show you that I will.

ah...
For the first time, I understand...
ah...
...the meaning of my birth.

You shine on this body, this heart,
As the one and only proof of my life.

That smiling face, those tears, everything about you...
I'll protect you. I'll show you that I will.
...................................there you go...
by the way...
it's from FY(fushigi yugi)

i'll go now...

bye........
_EndlessDarkness*

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Tuesday, May 24, 2005

   ......
hello everyone...
well my bestfriend and I are officially..done with our freindship...
actually...she did my work...meaning she's the one who came up to me and ended it...
well I feel kinda bad...
but...
it's for the best...
and yea....
I'm really really bored so..
I posted this song...
I thought it was a nice song that's why...
well it's from Fushigi Yugi...
I only got the lyrics though....
hope you guys like it.....
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*Futatsu no Kodou; Two Beats*

The playing of a reed flute carries on the wind
over the sea of wheat.
Last night's destiny
was to be the day that two beats meet.

Spending a long day alone,
I spread my hand before [shade?] the lamp.
Each of our hearts
is like winter that waits for spring,

Underneath the dear [nostalgic] sky
The scent of grass
The setting sun's farewell path bloomed,
like a flower.
I put a flute
to lips that don't speak.

Only time separates the distant clouds...
Let's try to fill it

The tone that plays hits the water,
tearing the love in my heart.
The two beats draw near
Disturbed thoughts

Riding a blue ship together
We share a painful wound.
Protect love from
uneasiness and fear.

Evening showers, please wash away
hate as well.
Stepping on shadows, I walked along the path
to that day.

I chased after
lanterns floating on the river.

Overfilled with a little affection,
I stand on the shore.

Underneath the dear [nostalgic] sky
The scent of grass
The setting sun's farewell path bloomed,
like a flower.
I put a flute
to lips that don't speak.

Overfilled with a little affection,
I stand on the shore.
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well there you go...
sry I just wanted to post this because I thought it was really really nice....
and it kinda deep...
well bye now...

-EndlessDarkness*
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Sunday, May 22, 2005

   .............
hello everyone...
how are you?
well sry i didn't get to update 4 like 3 days...
I had a really vusy weekend...
and I will post a new poem in a couple of days...
it's just i hav not come up with one yet.....
and yea...
i've made up my mind...and decided that i WILL now tell her....
wish me luck....
but i kinda feel bad though....
soo....
i'll go now....

bye....
-EndlessDarkness*
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Thursday, May 19, 2005

   hello....
hello everyone...
well I got a new poem....
well I hope you guys will like it...
...................................I know I'm not ready...
this pain is to heavy...
to carry each day...
as I'm walking...
to find what's waiting...
but everywhere I go...
all I try to do turns so foolish...
when darkness approaches....
I get lost....
and tears comes dropping...
from this eyes I see with...
but all I can see are sadness within me...
...................................
well there's my poem for today....
well how is everyone...
nothing special today....

But I need to ask you guys something...
well...I want to tell my bestfriend that I'm not ready for a bestfriend yet...(but I kinda don't want to tell her that she had been hurting me...emotionally)
and that...well it's not that it's her fault or anything or is it?...
but I'm scared of telling her all the stuff that I'm going to tell her...
because I might hurt her...
and I don't want that to happend...
I don't wanna hurt anyone
but the thing is it's hard to brathe when she's around...and her doing all that sort of stuff that she's doing to me.....
and it's much more harder that I don't have much space when I'm with her...
It just doesn't feel right anymore...
I don't know what to do?

goodbye...
-EndlessDarkness*


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Wednesday, May 18, 2005

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well hello everyone...
I got a poem and it's not much but yea...
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*Untitled*
you ignored me like I wasn't there......
You acted like you never cared....
I'm all alone...
once again...
in this world with noyone there...
with pain I carry all around...
just feels like I'm about to drown...
with no hope...
with noyone to cope...
you destroyed my world..
tried to say that this was nothing...
but I'm just dying...
because of all your lying...
again...
filled with emptiness...
when I thought I reached happiness...
...................................
well that's my poem for today....
and today...
my day wasn't very great...
my bestfriend....
acted worst than yesterday....
I don't think I can handle it anymore....
I had enough didn't I?
this whole thing is driving me crazy...also it's making me too depressed....
there's too much to say...
and not enough time....
well I had enough for today....

goodbye....

-EndlessDarkness*
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Monday, May 16, 2005

   hello everyone....
sorry I have not prepared a poem today...
but as soon as I make one i'll post it right away....
well how's everyone...
I am really bored right now....
and....
again at school....
my best friend just freakin' piss me off....
she's been kinda ignoring me like I wasn't there...
and she just leaves me and goes with my ex best friend and just pretend I wasn't there....
Our friendship is faiding...
once again I've made a big mistake...
a mistake I kept making over and over again...
I wish we just stayed friends not bestfriends...
i'm filled with jealousy and hate...
yea...I know I told you guys before that i'm the one who's not ready for a best friend...
well I think neither is she...
why is she even doing this?
it's not that I want to end it because of what I feel...
I want to end it because of what she's doing to me...
and I don't think that she even cares if we end our friendship...
She's made me look stupider than I already am...
she walks in front of me like I wasn't even there....
It hurts a lot....
I know this is not much to end a friendship but it does really hurt a lot...
i've been betrayed by my former,former best friend and she did a lot to me that trully hurted...
and....
I don't want that to happend again...
all I can think of is why the heck is she doing that....
I had enough...
she's just like the others......
she never cared....
I cared a lot for her...
I did a lot for her...
is this a way to repay me?
after all I've done for her....

well I should go now....

-EndlessDarkness*


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Saturday, May 14, 2005

   hello everyone....
well luckily....
I got to pull off two poems....it's not very good at all but....
I just wanted to post it.....
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*Untitled*
I thought you'll be there
to catch me when I fall
I thought you'll be there
to help me through it all
I thought you'll be there
to help me bloom like a rose
I thought you'll be there
to tell me to hold on
I thought you'll be there when I'm toubled and alone
But
all that was a lie
our friendship had died
everything faded
and
got torn apart
(did I post this before)

well here's the second one....

*Untitled*
different from others
scared of another
to face the world
of all those troubles
try to escape this dispicable fate
everything that made me hate
...................................
well there you go....
sorry I didn't post it sooner...
I just didn't have enough time....
well hope you like it.....

sayonara
ja ne
-EndlessDarkness*
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Friday, May 13, 2005

   why hello everyone.....
well I hope you like my new background....
by the way...
if you don't know who the girl is....well she's from this anime show CHOBITS........
and yea....
I got the music too....


and yea....
today at school...
well it was kinda boring as always........
and....
well on my way home...
I was walking with my friends...
and one of my friend has this big cardboard he was carrying....
and this jerk that was walking by as...
and then
took it...
for some stupid reasons.....
and my two friends ran after the guy...LOL
they were running after him for two blocks and a half....
and they made me carry their backpacks...
which was really heavy....
it feels like you were carrying a big boulder or something....
well back to the chasing...
so as I was saying....
they were running after the guy then finally got the board...LOl
my other friend I think got pissed of or something.......
well watever...
then we bought sodas and stuff....
all of us were sweating cuzz it was SO hot..........
and we were all tired....
well that's practically all....
and yea i'll be posting new poems real soon.......
i'm gonna go now....

goodbye...
ja ne....

-EndlessDarkness*
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Thursday, May 12, 2005

   May, 11 05
hello guys....
well i don't really have a new poem....
but I found a poem that I wrote when I was in 4th grade....(it's pretty funny)
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Dear bright shinning star,
come be with me
to hear my prayers
and wishes you'll grant me
That one day i'll be smart to know
That you're always here
just guiding me
helping me
throughout the day
when I stumble and cry
and
troubles I keep
but I know that one day
you will grant my
sacred wish...
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i know it sounds kinda funny....
but what the heck...
I wrote it a long time ago....
hope you like it though.....

goodbye
ja ne

-EndlessDarkness*
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Tuesday, May 10, 2005

   May 10, 05
hello people...
it is now 12:19.....
and I cannot sleep....
and sorry still no poem....
you guys don't mind right?
I am so tired.....
but yea.......
*sigh*
also I am so bored....
*sigh*
WATEVER...
I'm gonna go now....

goodgye....
ja ne...

-EndlessDarkness*
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