Thursday, October 28, 2004

Missed Opportunity
Guess what. I was so very close to saying hi to her today. We were about to pass each other and I took a breath to say it. The whole world was silent.
*heartbeat*
*heartbeat*
*heartbeat*
...nothing...
We simply passed each other. She went her way, I went mine...

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Wednesday, October 27, 2004

Subconscious Kareoke
It's a green tea kinda day. I'm on my second pot of the evening. I just got home from a walk in the park. Gusts of wind blew my long coat and the leaves around me, giving that hero (or villain) effect. It looked pretty cool. You gotta love the autumn wind.

I caught myself singing the ending theme of Love hina (Kimi Sae Ireba) out loud while I sketched on a park bench. I also had my headphones on so I was pretty much free of distraction. An old Chinese couple on a bench close to mine started applauding when I finished. I jokingly took a bow with hopes that they weren't mocking me. I normally hum tunes but I just love the music on my minidisc too much to simply hum them. I've got about 60 j-pop tunes that are either happy and perky or slow and romantic-ish on my MD at the moment, so don't be surprised if you see me smiling while bobbing my head side to side with my eyes closed.

I've been daydreaming about talking to that girl alot today. I can see us happily chatting away but I don't know what we're saying. *sigh* I sometimes feel the urge to do something completely ridiculous to get her attention. Heh... It's possible..

Stupid clouds! I can't see the stars! Oh. There they are...

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Tuesday, October 26, 2004

Emotional Tea
After reading through a certain others post for the day, I've realized that the emotions I feel and moods I go through affect what I drink. Here's what I'm talking about:

Hot Green Tea - Mellow, *sigh*, lovey-doveyness.
Cold Sweetened Green Tea - Giggly, energetic
Iced Tea - Angry, hyper
Oolong Tea - Concentration
Bubble Tea - Social, happy
Water - Thirsty
Earl Grey Tea - Distinguished, elegant
Chamomile Tea - Relaxed
Other Tea - Adventurous, out of stock of above teas.

Hah. Writing this gave me a good laugh. It's true though.

I saw that girl again and she looked cuter than ever. She reminds of a faerie or pixie or something like that. *loud sigh* I could think about her all day. I've tried saying Hi a few... well, more than a few times and I wasn't able to do so. As soon as she looks at me with her beautiful brown eyes, I freeze. *sigh again* Wow...

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Monday, October 25, 2004

Halloween Day
Yeah, I know it's not Halloween yet. But the school I'm teaching at had their dress up day today. For the heck of it, I dressed up as a Harlequin Psycho. Think of a hybrid between The Crow, a magician and a steel-toothed clown. Some kids had trouble looking at me while others couldn't stop staring. It was quite fun. I'll pup up a pic later.

I finally got my top hat (I used it for the costume). It was $8.00. I got it from a funky retro store with loads of weird clothing. Score!

Since it got pretty silent in here, I back in my *sigh* mood. I've been pretty mellow considering that fact that I'm often surrounded by frustration and chaos. My tea today is extra hot for some reason. The steam is so fascinating to watch. I'd like to toast this girl who wears a scarf and looks incredibly cute. *sigh* She's got pretty hair too...

...what more can I say?

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Saturday, October 23, 2004

Autumn in the Fall
I woke up pretty early today. It took me awhile to get out of bed though. It was chilly and my bed was oh so warm.

My plans to buy manga, an inking pen and a top hat were foiled today. Two friends and I were supposed to head downtown for our purchases. Unfortunately, one was not allowed to leave until 6pm and the other was supposed to be home by 7pm. There was really no point in going out anymore. I was never in a rush to buy my things anyway. Instead, we stayed at my friends house and chatted about complete nonsense while enjoying tea and chicken teriyaki. It was quite the evening.

Incase you're wondering why I want a top hat, it because my friends and I play the board game Risk every now and then. We have this thing where we wear ridiculous hats and listen to domination music as we play. We really get into our games. How does one describe that powerful feeling you get when successfully taking over countries with your little colored men, horses and cannons? Exhilarating. Yes, that's it. Exhilarating.

Even though it's cold outside, the setting sun and colored leaves rustling on the ground give you a false sense of warmth. This trickery of nature is perfect weather for whistling the melody of your favourite song.

I applaud todays distractions. Green tea is oh so calming.


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Friday, October 22, 2004

Waltz With Me In The Mist
I'd like to go ballroom dancing one day. It just seems so.. what's the word? Splendid. Simply splendid.

I threw in a couple of original anime pieces I drew a couple of weeks ago. Go ahead and check them out.

One more cup of green tea...

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14 Hour Nap Repeat
6:47 am - I did it again. I "napped" for a full 14 hours. This time I was in bed from 4 pm to 6 am. I missed out on dinner again but I feel so incredibly good.

It's quiet this morning. This peace is so calming. I was thinking about dreams again. I've noticed that I always see myself in third person when I dream. I wish I could act as my own conscience and make my dream self do as I wish. It's not an easy task making decisions in dreams. Have you ever waken up right at the peak of an important moment? Some people try to go back to sleep and continue it but it only works sometimes. But then the dream become manually driven, rather than automatically by your imagination. I choose to let dreams end as they do. The unanswered questions remain as they are until another dream comes along.

*exhales* I need more tea...

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Wednesday, October 20, 2004

If...
I'm in a dreamer mood again. I imagined what it would be like holding hands. My hands get really sweaty sometimes so it kinda scares me to think that theres a girl out there who'll be holding onto them. I think I should apologize in advance.

I also had this quick daydream of a mystery girl and myself walking in the snow. On a sidewalk late at night. Every snowflake illuminated by the long row of dim street lamps. In the silence of the late night we can only hear snowflakes hit our coats and snow press beneath our feet. Where are we going? We don't know and we don't care. We're together and that's all that matters...

*poof* I'm awake again. See? Only in dreams.

You probably have had a daydream like that before. Go ahead. Close your eyes and have one right now.

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   14 Hour
I fell asleep yesterday at 5:00 pm. Woke up the next day at 7:00 am. I missed dinner but I felt so revived. My friends must have thought I was dead. Sleepiness to the extreme! Probably a sign of melancholy...

Anyway, I watched the Final Fantasy: Advent Children second offical dubbed trailer and pirated trailer from some Tokyo event for the 567 billionth time. Leaves me speechless everytime I see it. I'm also getting addicted to DNAngel. Man what a great story. It sucks when good guys are only considered friends with cute girls. I f*ckin hate when that happens. Ahh, but the determination still goes strong.

*sigh* Only in Dreams...

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Monday, October 18, 2004

Early Morning Chill
My room lanterns mock me with their deceptive, warm, red glow. I'm freezing!

How should I describe what I'm feeling right now? Basically, I'm feeling *sigh*. You know that feeling? Where you just sit and listen to music while wishing things? Yeah. It's a dreamers thing..

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