Sunday, December 23, 2007

That's what I get for enjoying myself...
...ohhh woe is me.

I knew this would happen. But why now?!

As far as my experiences go, whenever I'm a a good mood, it tends to fade away after awhile. Well, it's not all that bad. It's just that a few things haven't gone my way for the past little bit and it's kinda bumming me out.

I'll start with the one that worried the shit out of me.

My mom was in the hospital last Thursday. I had thought it had something to do with diabetes (which she was recently diagnosed with) but fortunately, she's physically fine. I don't know the details, but my dad said it might have to do with stress. I feel like a big chunk of it is my fault because I can be terribly useless around the house. Not anymore though. I don't care what it is that could be stressing my mom, I just know I'm not letting her visit the hospital for the same reason ever again.

Now because of this sudden incident, Christmas is no longer going to be held at our house. the parties for each side of the family will be held somewhere else. Of course this takes a whole load of my mom's shoulders (and everyone else in the house) but that doesn't mean we'll stop readying the hose for visitors. Even though our families aren't coming over, I still want to organize the crap out of stuff (including the room in the basement where I'm suppose to have my drums).

Mumsie is doing fine right now though an back to her usual self. Joking about how dad is loco and telling my youngest sis to mind her posture (no slouching). So no huge worries.


And now for a couple of other things that kinda took my mood a number of levels down.


I bought a new Wacom tablet on Friday because my old one (the one given to me by former boss/computer arts teacher, aka the free one) konked out and stopped working. So I got me a nice Intuos 3 for some decent coin. When I got home to try it out, the pen wasn't working as smoothly as it should. The tablet sometimes doesn't detect the pen so I have to wait for it to do so or use the mouse. That completely ruins the purpose of the fucking tablet. It's supposed to make things easier, not more complicated. I've contacted support about the issue so hopefully, that problem will get resolved soon. In the meantime, I'm stuck with this brand new, moody tablet piece of shit.


Since the tablet is being a dick, I can't work on the fanart I've been wanting to do for awhile. And I reeeally wanted to finish these ones up. I'm just too pissed off about all these little sitches that I just feel so uninspired to do anything now. And fuck, I was on such a roll too...

On the same night I bought the stupid-ass tablet I bought the last minute cards I needed. One of them was for the ladies at the Vietnamese sandwich shop but they were closed when I passed by and I don't know when I'll be able to go there again to drop it off. I doubt it'll be anytime before Christmas so I guess there's goes a perfectly good card.

As you probably already know, the other card was for Leona. I didn't get a chance to (attempt to) write something in Korean so that cute idea went straight out the window. Actually, I think what I wrote in English is illegible too. I was trying to write on the train ride home (giving me time to pass by her store). Unfortunately, a mix of nerves, 3rd grade penmanship, and movements on the track made what I wrote look... well, retarded. As much as I didn't want to give it to her, I had to. I've gone this far, right?

When I finally made it to the store, I felt as if someone had punched me in the lungs from the inside out. Instead of Leona's welcoming smile and greeting, I saw her serious-faced mother at the cashier. I wanted to just turn right around but this was pretty much my only opportunity to get the card to her because I have way too much to do for the next few days. After grabbing my milkshake of failure, I paid for it, and asked where Leona was. With a face as straight as 2 x 4, her mother answered "She's not here. Why?" I asked her to hand her the card when she had a chance and left promptly. It was as if I were too late or something. As if Leona somehow already had an arranged marriage or something crazy like that (which honestly wouldn't surprise me considering how bleedin' cute she is). After leaving the store, I turned around and waited for the door to slowly shut so I could belt out the loudest "FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!" I've done in awhile. I could swear, even though she didn't say anything, her mother was trying to tell me "Don't bother, kid." She had one of those "what exactly are you trying to do" kind of looks. Y'know. The kind of stare that pierces your very soul with a thousand spears of displeasure.

Auugh... It killed me. Killed me so much, I didn't even drink the milkshake. I felt unworthy of it's fattening goodness. I had a bag full of regular 2% milk instead (thankfully not lactose intolerant here, though it still made my tummy make funny noises.) My card was so lame too. I don't think my efforts went anywhere this time. I give up. For serious this time. I'm not going to that store ever again. I can get my convenient goods elsewhere... Or just make someone else get 'em.

How depressing...






Spare me your pity though. As disheartening as my days seem right now, I know they'll pick up. I mean, Christmas is almost here and that means good times with the fam and lots of delicious eats. I think a good meal oughtta bring up the HP, eh?


Anyway, sorry for the miserable post. I'll have something a tad more cheery on the 'eve. Promise.





Toasted.


- enin -








P.S. I don't say cheers anymore. Too many people say it both digitally and in day-to-day speech which is kind of annoying. I'll stick to the word that makes it as if you've all raised your glasses to me. Which you should be doing.

P.P.S. LEEEOOONAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!! *exhales*





...I'm okay. I'm okay....
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