Thursday, January 10, 2008

I can't seem to kick myself hard enough.
There's a reason for this too. I made a complete fool of myself in front of a certain someone. More on that in a bit.

My day was quite delightful. Like I mentioned in yestermornings post, I woke up bright and early and annoyed the crap out of everyone in the house with internet videos, loud music and dancing in their paths. I just felt really great. Oh, I had a lot of cereal and coffee too. Then some eggs and toast with orange juice. Two breakfasts! Very good stuff.

Train/bus ride to and from class went smoothly. No delays. No psychos on the tracks. No flat tires. No irritating ladies. Super perfect. Class was enjoyable. Same professor from a previous quarter is teaching us a different class this time 'round. He looks EXACTLY like Byron Mann. In case you don't know who that is, he's the actor who played Ryu in the quite unfortunate Street Fighter live action movie. As an assignment, I've got a portfolio to build with his help. Should be chock full of illustration, both conventional and digital. I JUST NEED A FUCKIN' TABLET!!!


*exhale*


I'll get it soon. I'll be okay.


Now... After getting off the bus, I made sure I had enough money in my pocket to buy a Crunch bar before even heading in the convenience store direction. I did. I had plenty. So in I went.

For the first time this year, I was greeted by Leona's sunshiny smile. I got all warm and stuff (which was nice because it was windy and chilly that day).

"Hi, Josh! Long time no see!" she said.

"Yeeah.. I've been busy.. with... stuff"

Oh. Quick note. When I use those dots like that, they stand for actual pauses between words. I hadn't even finished my sentence and I was already failing.

As she handed change to a customer buying lottery tickets, she asked "So how are you today?"

"Fantastic." I replied while waiting for the lady to move out of the way so I could pick up a Crunch bar from the front of the counter.

The woman moved and continued organizing her lottery stuff. I grabbed my Crunch bar and attempted to continue the chit-chat.

"So, how were your holidays?"

"They were great--" she said before being semi-cutoff by another customer in the back. "How about yours? Lots of food?"


All I could reply was "Yeeah..." in the most awkward tone possible. I was too busy trying to stop myself from saying "I had a lot to drink too!". That would've been dumb. Thankfully, it didn't come out.

Unfortunately for me, for the next while, NOTHING came out. "Oh, that's nice" she replied, "By the way, thank you so much for the card. It was very sweet of you."

I was probably stunned from the thank you. I couldn't reply properly. I think I might've said "No problem" but it probably came out as a whisper. I just fuckin' stood there.

It seemed like an eternity. I didn't know what to say next. The lady was still there watching me as well. I was trapped in an awkward silence while Leona continued smiling, waiting for me to say something.

After the most obvious *gulp*, I finally killed the small talk with a very shaky "I'm... I'm gonna go... now..."

At that point Leona wished me a goodnight and goodbye, while the lady kinda snorted... The type of snort that says "Boy, you're way too nervous". She could tell. I know she could tell. She just shook her head and smiled.

I turned quickly and wished her the same and as soon as I turned back to the door, I smacked my face on the glass. Not a subtle smack either. I made a huge THONK! noise and my headphones rattled and slid over my face. I did not want to turn around again. I could already tell they were both about to laugh... Well. If they noticed at least. Which they did.. I'm sure.

I rushed out and walked home, shaking my head along the way and trying to pinch myself awake. I said to myself "Well.. I won't be going back there for another month or so." I'm kidding. I was just trying to laugh a bit of the embarrassment out. But still...

Why me!?



Oh well... Despite the humiliation, she DID like the card I gave her (after suffering the gaze of her stone-faced mother, of course) so that's a bonus. I just need to work on not being a complete retard in her presence. And perhaps gain enough exp. point to level up so I can visit without buying some for the sake of getting to talk with her. Someday....



In the meantime, I'm gonna finish assignments and learn Korean with the help of random lessons found online and Korean pop and rap (Thank you, bananafish for sharing the rap tracks). Well, okay. The rap doesn't help because they're so fuckin' fast. But it's really awesome to listen to. Very catchy and twice as dancey. Perhaps in an alternate universe, I'm dancing with Leona at a house party to these tracks.


I don't have class today. Other than spacing out, I'll probably just relax. Listen to some tunes, jam on the drumkit, dance around the empty house after some wine. Should be nice.



I hope your day goes swell. Tell me a good story if you've got one. And remember to floss.






Toasted,


- enin -



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