Saturday, February 14, 2009

Hey. It's me.
It's almost 8:00 in the morning. I ate an unhealthy amount of Chinese food at 3:00am. So... even if I wanted to, I'm not sleeping anytime soon.

I'm posting here tonight this morning because I've posted on this day years past. Posted once when I was crazy in moderate way... Posted again when I went... mental.

Oh yeah. I wanted to move my Halloween post away. It's a little ridiculous in the length department.

So here I am again. It's 2009 and I'm feeling like a cloudy day. There's enough light to go about my business, but not as bright as it could be.

I'd feel like posting a life update of sort quite frequently but I'd never get around to it. Typically, I have too much to say and little motivation to actually get it down. So what happened? So much and so little. Bulleted update, activate!

- Holidays were a treat. Celebrated Christmas eve at our house for the first time. Purchased, cooked and successfully devoured 35 lbs. of prime rib. With that said, food was quite plentiful. Good times with family even more so. I couldn't ask for more.

- Bought Lil Sis an electric guitar. She's been torturing herself by watching YouTube vids of people soloing to metal tracks and whatnot (Yup. The shortest and second youngest in the fam is a bit of a metalhead). So I decided to spend a bit of my Santa money and get her guit-box. Went to the music store with her and the Cuz, pretending to check something for my drums. Skipped the drum department completely and said "Pick a guitar. Merry Christmas". She picked a loooovely Mexican-made Fender Strat with a Midnight Wine finish. Coupled that up with a Roland X30 amp w/ effects and made Lil Sis very happy. The girl who made the transactions was this gorgeous angel of metal, but I digress. The guitar has been christened "Dahlia" for several reasons. One be it's a Mexican made guitar and dahlia's are flower native to the country. The other being... X Japan fucking rules. Anyway, she's adamant about practising and so all is well. I like to mess with it sometimes too.

- Lil Sis also has a Texan boyfriend now. He's cool, but he pissed me off at Korean BBQ. I held the rage in and it subsided quickly. He is currently still cool.

- Youngest Sis has braces now. She makes me laugh without even trying.

- I reunited with the band. Yes. THE band. The very same one that flooded to the brim with drama and unnecessary stupidity. THAT band minus Mr. Rhythm Guitarist (My Cuz) and Mr. Vocalist. So.. only the core 3. The main reason for the reunion is Mr. Bassist is leaving for Vancouver in August, so we're having a "last live" in July since the last time we played on stage didn't go so well and we feel the need to end on a good note. The night we decided to get back together was interesting. Along with a dozen pitchers of beer split between 4 guys and a girl, it was full of nostalgia and good times. I'll update later on with more detail as stuff happens. It should interest some of you to know that we'll be covering some songs from Beck. Journey, Face and perhaps Gymnasium are currently at top bid for our setlist. It'll be fun. I hope.

- My father got a new job at a huge hospital as the building manager. Pay is similar to his old job but the stress/responsibilities are less than half and it shows. He's a lot more relaxed (and twice as goofy) these days. Everybody (and I mean EVERYBODY) at his old job broke down in tears when they heard he was leaving. The CEO of the company admitted to my dad that the place would fall apart without him. Man.. When I heard that, now I can only dream to be half the sort of man my father is. My father is achievement. My father is success. I can't express it any better than that.

I'm missing tonnes of little stories here and there. I'll get to those some other time.. Maybe..

Of course, awesome times don't come alone. I've had my share of shitty moments. I'll jot these down quick and painless then:

- Lost my cellphone on one day. Got it back eventually, but my numbers disappeared for some reason. I've only re-added approx. 20% of the number so far. I doubt anyone of the other 80% would wanna talk to me anyway.

- Macbook Pro stopped working in the middle of a project the next day. Apple's turnaround time for a repair wasn't bad at all, but I lost my project.

- A screw off my wristwatch came loose and the whole thing fell into a slushy puddle that day after that. Now it comes loose pretty often and the fucking thing is supposed to be indestructible.

- I got excited for a job posting at a sticker company looking for illustrators with diverse styles. they were looking for people with knowledge/experience in a whole variety of different art types including anime/manga, sci-fi, fantasy, Japanese art, comic book art, and so on. They wanted 20 pieces to show diversity so I worked hard for a week straight. When I went to check on the posting, it disappeared leaving my efforts somewhat in vain. I'll still continue adding to my portfolio, but it killed me to see my opportunity just vanish like that.

- Lost my Macbook remote. It's a pain in the ass to listen to music now.

- I got completely ignored by staff at a music store. I was asking for people to help me figure which drumhead was good for a snare. A half hour waiting around and I see everyone else getting service. Even people who just walk in. Meanwhile, I'm being told to "Hold on a sec. I'll be right with you." Needless to say, I didn't buy anything that day and my drumskins are still crappy and worn. Perhaps it was bad timing and everyone who came in has previously arranged for service. If not, then if I go by my observations, nobody will take me seriously as a drummer unless I'm a tall, lanky white guy with sweeping bangs, acne and my band as an entourage who all seem to look the same as well. I felt pretty demoralized that day. It sucked to say the least...

- Lost a chunk of my big toenail. I think it might from when someone stomped on my foot at the POLYSICS live. I felt no pain then and now, but the dead piece of nail is gone leaving an awkward looking nail in it's place. It's growing back slowly, but for some reason, I felt very self-conscious about it.

- Speaking of being self-conscious, I am pretty much a shut-in these days. I no longer feel very comfortable going out anymore for any reason except work and the occasional snack run/game run. My self-esteem is really shaky these days so I often don't feel like wasting anyones time.

This brings me to today. I'm not going to get all mopey about being a a single guy on Valentine's Day (though I can't help but think about it sometimes). What does bug me is that everyone I know is busy with their special someone today. Even though being without a significant other isn't bothering me so much this year, it's just a little depressing that I don't even have a single buddy to have a beer with. Especially my band members... who claim I'm such an important part of their lives. After catching up with them, it seems that they barely spend time APART from their girls. I guess catching up with a "close" friend they haven't seen for years over a beer and keeping him company on a practically meaningless holiday isn't very important. But when the time comes for the live, they have no problem letting me back them up with a solid beat so they can soak up the limelight. Fuckin' hell. I'm contradicting my opinions on these guys all in one post. Pardon that.

Guess I'm on my own today. I guess I am complaining then. Iunno what I'm really talking about anymore. It's human nature to yearn for things you can't have right? I'll leave it at that for now.

Whatever you're doing today, it doesn't matter to me. Have a great weekend.




Toasted.

- enin -


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