Monday, October 16, 2006

"Meaningless Tree"

there sighed once a sad little tree who often would cry in his own misery he thought to himself that he had not a purpose and feeling quite lonley declared himself worthless 'till one summer day when along on a journey a young strapping boy had found it too sunny so beneath a still branch he found sound repreave and what else should happen but his shade should leave for the sad, solemn tree became overwhelmed with joy and when dancing about lost his meaning to the boy ~Me 10.16.06 ~~~~ I can't believe I actually got to writting some poetry today... None the less posting it... I thought about this poem weeks ago, and just today jotted it down.... So, with that, I've been busy... I'll still try to get around, though... I hope everyone's well... "All things in the world come into being from being. Being comes into being from non-being"~ Lao-Tzu

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Friday, October 6, 2006

Hello all...

It's rather early, but I've no school... So, I thought I'd post something... Just FYI, I've submitted some fan art... Not sure when it'll show, but any comments or rates are appriciated... Well, I'll be on and off today... Hope all are doing well...

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Monday, October 2, 2006

"Dennis Kennedy"

to a "goofy" guy who's going blind and yet still insists that his vision is fine who knew my sign just by looking at me to that friend of mine Dennis Kennedy "Because some people are just to caring and compassionat, and don't know how to deal with it..." September 30, 2006 ~me ~~~~ No one would get that 'till you met him... It just came to mind after meeting with the guy... In any case, I just wanted people to know that I'm trying to get around and all, but I have a couple things I need to do... Also, it's possible I could start my job tomorrow, meaning I may not be on Tuesdays, Thrusdays, and Saterdays... It all depends, though... Well, that's all I can say at this point... Hope everyone's doing alright... "The violets in the mountains have broken the rocks."~ Tennessee Williams

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Sunday, September 24, 2006

"The Me She Wants Me To Be"

here is me and here is the me that she wants me to be the me that she wants me to be is smart i guess ill never get to play that part ill never be the me that she wants me to be here is me and here is the me that she wants me to be the me that she wants me to be will agree with everything she has to say and maybe ill never be the me that she wants me to be here is me and here is the me that she wants me to be the me that she wants me to be doesnt exist so i guess suicide is the best i can end this i have finally become who she wants me to be ~me 9.21.06

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Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Is it a Secret, or a Lie...?

Alarm; discomfiture... The Adrinalin quickly awakens in a thundering boom from it's deep slumber... I have been faced with the question... It means nothing to anyone else, but somehow, to me, in this instant, it means all the world... My hands become slightly shakey, as do my knees... I am cold and clamy... My throught tightens and I can taste bile in the depths of my mouth, burning away at my tongue... The question is simple: "Are you Okay?" "Well, yes," I reply, masking myself," I'm fine." With that I remain latent, insular. And yet, sadly, I find I must ask myself a more intruiging question; "Is it a Secret, or a Lie?" COMENTARY: They're called "white lies" or "fibbs"... Of course, regardless of the real answer, most Secrets become lies... This I'm well aware of, but I do hate trying to describe how I feel... It's in constant motion, always changing... That's the only sufficient answer, and yet it simpley does not do for most.... I've even caught myself saying," Well, I'm bipolar; how the hell should I know...?"

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Saturday, September 9, 2006

"Hate Me"~ Blue October

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again? And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face? And will you never try to reach me? It is I that wanted space Hate me today Hate me tomorrow Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you Hate me in ways Yeah ways hard to swallow Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind Hate me today Hate me tomorrow Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you Hate me in ways Yeah ways hard to swallow Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made And like a baby boy I never was a man Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!” Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?” Hate me today Hate me tomorrow Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you Hate me in ways Yeah ways hard to swallow Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you For you

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"Hate Me" by Blue October

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again? And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face? And will you never try to reach me? It is I that wanted space Hate me today Hate me tomorrow Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you Hate me in ways Yeah ways hard to swallow Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind Hate me today Hate me tomorrow Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you Hate me in ways Yeah ways hard to swallow Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made And like a baby boy I never was a man Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!” Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?” Hate me today Hate me tomorrow Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you Hate me in ways Yeah ways hard to swallow Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you For you

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Thursday, September 7, 2006

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If I can get a few people to quite talking to me, I'll stay on... Otherwise, it'll be like they're pushing me off, either way.... *shrugs*.... Things are just breaking, there isn't much to say....

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Monday, September 4, 2006

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I more than likely won't be posting here very often.... I may even just delete the account....

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Monday, August 28, 2006

I must apologize...

Yes, you already know, I've been grounded... Of course, I'm ungrounded now, but I still have little to no time online... Due to the fact that my "mother" is only a part of the "human"... Disgusting.... Just letting people know I'm alive, for whatever that is worth... I'm getting to PMs and sites if I can....

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