Sunday, July 4, 2004

   THIS IS ABOUT NOTHING! LITERALLY!
have you ever tried to contemplate nothing? i mean... what is nothing? how can someone come up with a word they don't even know the meaning to? i mean--you can't know nothing. you have to know something. you can't know everything. you have to know everything to know nothing and you have to know nothing to know everything. just like you have to know love to know hate and you have to know hate to know love. like you have to know the truth to know something's a lie.

but how can something come from nothing? NOTHING IS NOTHING. it's not a n y t h i n g. it's not space, it's not gasses, it's not masses, it's not energy or time. NOTHING IS NOTHING. it's not even colour or a cell or an atom. there's nothing in nothing.

and if nothing is nothing... how can something come from nothing? can something come from nothing? can nothing swirl around to make something? nothing's nothing, so how can it swirl? but if...

0=n(nothing) and 1(or any number)=s(something)

and...

0/0=1

then...

n/n=s

because #/itself=1, and 1=s....


SO IS IT AN EQUATION? do you put nothing in nothing to give you something? or is this beyond our math skills? beyond any human abilities? how can you put nothing in nothing anyway? is it like putting something in something except we can't contemplate it?

BUT energy is not created or destroyed.... was this true since the begining of time? (when's the begining of time anyway?) or was this true since we had something. if it has always been true then nothing has never existed... therefore nothing would be an illusion (therefore everything would also been an illusion). an illusion humans can't contemplate. an illusion humans created that they do not even know. we've never had nothing. we've never had everything. all we've had is something. so that's all we know.

you might be saying "well... Ed/Estella says everything comes in pairs like forces, love and hate, nothing and everything, happiness and sadness.... BUT THEN... HOW COME WE CAN HAVE SOMETHING BUT NOT HAVE HAD NOTHING AND EXPERIENCE IT?"

well.... we've had things and we've not had things. it's somewhat like nothing and everything except something we can understand. something more... simple. and generalized? i know what it's like to have a computer. and i know what it's like to not have a computer. because i've had and i've not had a computer. when i've never had a computer i didn't know what it was like to have a computer because... i've never had one before!

people say physical objects are worthless... but you gain experience. not the best kind, but experience nontheless!

experience.... heh.... we don't know not having experiences.... so we don't know what it feels like to get an experience..? we know the emotions involved with the experience but not how it feels to actually gain an experience. we do, in a way, know how it feels to be less smart than we are now, because we have been less smart than we are now! though... with some people i tend to wonder....

WOW. i ramble. hee, hee.

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Saturday, July 3, 2004

   how smart are you?
Your IQ score is 126

This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others.

Your Intellectual Type is Precision Processor. This means you're exceptionally good at discovering quick solutions to problems, especially ones that involve math or logic. You're also resourceful and able to think on your feet. And that's just some of what we know about you from your test results.

Creative and Analytical

You're a visionary in many people's eyes — able to think outside of the box to come up with your own solutions. You're creative not necessarily in the artistic sense, but because you can expand your mind to do things differently from others.

It might take a while for colleagues to recognize and reward for your entrepreneurial spirit and abilities. That could be because they envy you, or because they find your ideas slightly rebellious — willing to go against the current.

All in all, you make it hard for people to pigeon hole you. That is why you, more than others, need a job that allows you to play to your strengths, break out of the mold, and truly excel.

http://web.tickle.com/

is this a bad IQ for someone who's 16?? i donno how smart i'm supposed to be! >.<;
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Wednesday, June 30, 2004

   art
SUBMITTED
Magic Bean Guy (Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time)

PENDING
Sailor Mercury (Sailor Moon)
FOR
Ashiteru1984

FUTURE
Sailor Saturn (Sailor Moon)
FOR
RavenSama
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Monday, June 28, 2004

   so cyute!

adopt your own virtual pet!

adopt your own virtual pet!

adopt your own virtual pet!

adopt your own virtual pet!

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Friday, June 25, 2004

   i married Dom TWICE!!!!!!!!

Certificate of Marriage This is to certify that estella and Dominic Monaghan Were united in Marriage on the 25th day of June 2004

MYFC

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   SQUEEEEEEEE!!!!!
oooohh!!!! i'm sooooo excited!!!! my Ed picture has the highest Cowboy Bebop rating right now!!!! thank you!!!!!! that makes me sooooo happy!!!! ^_____^ ? ? ? ? ?!!!!!!

i'm soo happy!!! here's the full Ed picture (not shrunken down)!!:


click on it.

i have two more pictures to add but i can't submit any right now. *cries* did i do something wrong? did i try to submit too many? or is it turned off for everyone? *cries more*

the sky is wicked pretty and red tonight! or this morning.... it's almost 1am!

thank you, thank you, thank you!!!!!!!!! ? ? ?!!!!!!!
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Thursday, June 24, 2004

   take me quizzes, matey
http://quizilla.com/users/estellaXmonaghan/quizzes/
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Wednesday, June 23, 2004

   it's 3am i must be lonely..
http://www.livejournal.com/users/xxestellaxx/
http://www.geocities.com/listentoed/
http://yumekuni.shim.net
http://seramuun.shim.net
http://www.geocities.com/capturedagain
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