Friday, February 8, 2008

Forget
So lost,
Understood,
No one to confide in,
Everything is lost.
Good bye to you all,
Good night to the world,
The me you know is gone,
Another reborn.
Trust was lost,
Secrets kept,
So now you lost me.
Everyday,
My face will be shown,
But not my own.
Not the old one you all cared for but disowned.
What did you say...
What did you do....
Don't ask these questions.
Just forget,
Go on.
I'll linger amongst the crowd,
But you need to forget.
The me you know is gone,
Another reborn.
Trust was lost,
Secrets kept,
I'm sorry to say,
I won't see you again.
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   64 Beatches :3
1. How long have you been breathing?
16 years, Two months, and so odd amount of days.

2. Are you single?
Yes....

3. Hav you cried today at all?
No. Happy I am :3

4. What is the last alcoholic beverage you drank?
None.

5. Do you want to be in a relationship?
Actually, yes.

6. Do you actually believe in perfection?
Not really...

7. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?
Rainy :3

8. Have you been to New York ?
Nope, never been out of Florida. =P

9. What do you think about before you go to bed?
Depends

10. Take any medication?
Nope. Dun need it- and if I did, I wouldn't take it =P

11. Last time you did laundry?
Two days ago.

13. Do you fight with your parents all the time?
Parent. Never actually.

14. Just went out with a girl/guy because you were desperate and they asked you out?
I wasn't desperate, but I never had a BF, so I said. Four Months of Hell..

15. Last voice mail you received?
I don't have voicemail -.-"

16. Who was the last person to lay in bed with you?
No one....

17. Where did you sleep last night?
In my bed. Whoot-! I slept-!

18. Do you want kids?
Sure, why not-?

19. Do you have any expensive jewelry?
Not really, it's just important.

20. Where is your phone?
Seven inches from my hands.

21. How many close friends do you have?
Three

22. What is your brother's name?
Jeremy and Noah

23. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
Yes. I currently have three.

24. Favorite sit down restaurant?
Chili's I guess.

25. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
Yes, at least, that's what I think. though that reason is hardly ever visible to me.

26. Do you wear glasses or contacts?
Neither.

27. Do you have your wisdom teeth?
Yuppers.

28. When is your next road trip?
Never had one in the first place T_T"

29. What are you listening to?
Hide and Seek by: Imogen Heap; On a Death Note AMV

31. Who is the 5th person you got a missed call from on your cell phone?
I never miss mah calls =P

32. Would rain actually stop you from going somewhere or ruin your plans?
No way :3 it would start them.

33. Do you get nervous with public speaking?
Not anymore.

34. Ever been in a wedding?
Nope

35. MySpace or Facebook?
MyYearbook-! :3 It's fun.

36. Who sits next to you in work or school?
Chris Stafford in Biology
Jessica, Amber, and Marcus in English
Drafting...people...?
Shane and Page in World History Honors.

38. Last time you saw your parents?
last night..no wait...saw my dad this morning

29. What woke you up this morning?
My alarm clock.

30. If you took a drug test, would you pass it?
Yeppers

31. Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
Hope so.

32. Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
Hugged people.

33. Who was the last person you rode in a car with?
My aunt.

34. What was your first thought this morning?
When he gunna call-?

35. Can long distance relationships work?
Depends on the people.

36. Who is your number one on myspace?
Keith S.

37. Where do you wish you were right now?
Anywhere but here =P

38. Would you rather talk on the phone or chat in IM?
IM or in person.

39. Do you listen to music everyday?
Usually.

40. What was the last thing you ate?
Cookie....?

41. Are you a fast typer?
You could say so.

42. What are you doing tonight?
Whatever comes my way.

43. Is anything bothering you?
Not really.

44. Do you miss someone?
Yup...

45.What do you want to do right now?
Doesn't matter.

46. Are you listening to music right now?
Yup.

48. Are you talking to anyone while doing this?
Nope.

49. When were you the saddest in your life?
Eigth Grade and the beginning of nineth and tenth....

50. Have you ever loved someone and were too scared to tell them?
Yes...currently am right now.

51. Are you a jealous person?
I have moments, not often though/

52. What are you allergic to?
Nothing

53. Whose car were you in last?
My Aunt's.

54. How many hours of sleep do you need a night?
Five...? Four. Yes, four.

55. When was the last time you slept on the floor?
A while ago.

58. Has anyone told you a secret this week?
Yup. You not get them from me :3

59. Have you told someone else that secret?
Nope =P

60. How many siblings do you have?
Three-Five

61. When was your last road trip?
Never

62. Who is in the house with you?
Dust particles.

63. What are you thinking about right now?
...>//>...lol....

64. Now who was your last text from?
L
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Tuesday, February 5, 2008

Good Bye ((Song))
Just venting....


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Fuck emotions,
Fuck this feeling,
That returns to me everyday,
Always sinking,
Never thinking,
What if there was another way-?
Then it comes to my mind,
It's time to cross that red line,
And throw away all my past regrets,
Have to start a new time,
Trash all these useless rhymes,
My whole life now reasides without dread-!

Back off-! Fuck off-!
My feelings are my own now,
Back off-! Fuck you-!
This time I will not fall!
You say you're my friends,
But you don't even care,
You don't trust me now,
So I'm leaving you here...!

Why is it that one thing you say rules my life-?!
Why do I always give in-?!
This time your talk will not alter my ways-!
This time, you won't get back in-!
Not in my life-!
Not in my mind-!
This time, my emotions, are my own-!
Only two have remained,
Only those two will stay,
Don't dare think that you can return-!
Stay out of my life-!
Have to start a new time,
Trash all these useless rhymes,
My whole life now reasides without dread-!

Back off-! Fuck off-!
My feelings are my own now,
Back off-! Fuck you-!
This time I will not fall!
You say you're my friends,
But you don't even care,
You don't trust me now,
So I'm leaving you here...!
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Sunday, February 3, 2008

My personality
I was bored...?

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Monday, January 28, 2008

   Thanks for making me dissapear....
Don't you see me-?

Can't you hear me-?

Do you even notice,

When I'm there by your side?

I've turned invisible,

My wish came true,

I go unnnoticed,

By everyone of you.

I don't exist,

Just go about your lives,

I'm gone from this world,

Your memories,

Your life.

Poem (c) Danni Lestat
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   Another....
Falling through the desolate realms,

Of my mind,

Of my soul,

Screams of agony all around,

In the dark,

In my heart,

Never ceasing,

Never fading,

Always sinking,

Always straining,

Can I stand this any longer...?

Will myself hold up much further...?

Plundering through the times of hate,

Times of loss,

Times set straight,

Now I know what resides here,

A stranger- another self,

With an answer for me to hear...

"You'll never be alone in this world,

I will stay here,

And you will learn,

I'll never leave,

I won't accept 'it',

You'll live with my terror,

And you can't stop it..."

Poem (c) Danni Lestat
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Friday, January 25, 2008

   Alone
Walking down the hallways,

Empty, all alone...

Lost amongst the shadows,

The posters have been blown,

Walls are blank,

Floors are clear,

No one but me,

Exists here,

Dreary feelings of depression,

Of my loss,

Of regression,

Temper and anger building inside,

My loneliness,

All tossed aside,

Allowing hate to grow and grow,

One day I'll break,

Because of you,

From leaving me all alone.


Poem (c) Danni Lestat
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Thursday, January 17, 2008

   Never
Pressure...

Building...

Up....

Inside me...



Growing....

Burning....

My entire body....



Forcing ...

All...

The feelings...

Out...

Shredding....

My soul....

Tossing it....

About...



Explosion occurs...

Inside of me...

Overwhelming...

My entity....



Will it end?

Will it go?

Is it here,

to stay,

Please say no....



I can not stand,

What I do,

When it comes,

When it happens,

When it's done....



Blood on my hands,

In my mouth,

On my face,

The blade in my palm,

The destruction done once again,

Once I wake,

Hopefuly never again....
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Wednesday, January 9, 2008

   Killer of Terror
I can no longer stand the fear,

The pain,

The neverending nightmare,

The fear,

Of waking,

Just please let me wake-

I can't endure the dream,

The torture,

When will your destructivness,

Malevolence end-!?



Dwelling inside me,

I'm still alive,

No way to be free,

A darkened creature,

Tearing my soul,

Drinking my terror with glee.



Chilling my bones to a rotting state,

You're sick,

Devouring my being,

No way,

You can't,

Kepp this up forever-

I can't endure my body,

Ruined,

All cut up by your hate,

When will your destructivness,

Malevolence end-!?



Dwelling inside me,

I'm still alive,

No way to be free,

A darkened creature,

Tearing my soul,

Drinking my terror with glee.



Somehow you'll be defeated,

The victor,

Me, slicing you away,

You won't,

Die quick,

Because of what you did to me-

I will enjoy your torture,

The losses,

Of all of your dark dreams-

Next time will be your death bed,

With the pain you put me in...-



Dwelling inside me-

I'm still alive-

No way to be free-

A darkened creature-

Tearing my soul-

Drinking my terror with glee-

Will die-!
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Tuesday, January 8, 2008

   Hidden Layers of the Soul
I want to tell you,

I have to say it,

It's building in me,

I just can't take it.

Everything that you do,

All the things that you say,

I take it all in,

Not a thing tossed away.

I see your surface,

You've opened up some,

but I need to see the other side,

The deeper you under layer one.

What do you know?

How do you think?

Who are you really?

Please, won't you speak?

Just a sentance- maybe two,

About that hidden layer inside of you.
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