Thursday, August 10, 2006

   karma

I think karma has it in for me. I had a great trip and everything on the cruise. We had a big welcoming party bash and all then suddenly there is this fight that I think I caused. Everything was blown out of proportion and everyone has retired back to their own spaces and no one will speak to each other. So as a counteractive to the great trip and party fate has rolled the dice for me to spend weeks miserable and crying to myself and no one to understand. Currently it's been two weeks that I haven't talked. I don't know what else to say. I guess I am just babbling to get sympathy. My soul has shrunk to this pathetic piece of crap that needs things to suffice living. I am sorry to post this mina, but I need a place to blow out. Sometimes I wish I was zapped into cyber space that way I could delete the data required for feelings. It sucks that much.I probably sound like some ditsy attention wanting premo donna. Somebody shoot me now.That's I have to say bye now before I rant on and on.Gomedasai mina. Watashi wa warui tomodachi. Sayonara.

Tavi
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Thursday, June 15, 2006

   I passed with flying colors!!!

I got a honors diploma and it was honors and corer forty and I ranked in the top 20 for my classes!!! yay yay!!! I love you all for you wishing me luck!!!ha now i'm having a lazy summer/ Currently I'm looking for a job and I'm gonna have a cruise in Alaska for my graduation present. life is good. I missed you all so much!!! I'll try as much as I can to visit often. But I can't gaurentee anything because I have become very lazy. But soon enough I'll fall out of it. Love love always!!.

Tavi
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Wednesday, May 17, 2006

   Finals are here

This will probably be my last post until June 5. Because from today my schedule is booked with events. I wish I could include you guys too but alas duty calls and demands. I wish the best for you guys in whatever may come. And wish me luck. Graduation is coming. Love love always.

Tavi
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Wednesday, May 10, 2006

   Unfortunate

Unfortunately I have no energy today...I didn't go to bed till 4 in the moring and i got up at 6...But yet I still have energy to be crabby..he he.. odd isn't it when you say you don't have energy you have it anyway.. But one thing I can tell you is this past weekend I tool down a jewelry store.. I made it go out of business with bad publicity.. We ll I guess i should feel bad but not really. My family's acount there was huge and they have the never to argue to us about a minal fee for 5.00 on ring sizing.. well I gave them hell. I guess that serves that manager to mess with my family. My father found what i did to be hilarious and sad i was heartless and make a good lawyer. That in turn made me laugh and question myself..Do I seem heartless to you guys.. I must have multiple personalities or something. ah well that is all the news today mina san.

ja ne

Tavi
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Monday, May 8, 2006

   So sorry

Konnichi wa mina san!!! I feel really bad...huh i never keep up with your guys post because I'm poor and cannot afford internet...i wish i could keep up with it for good but can't and you guys always comment on my post..i feel so ashameful for my behavior..i'll try to come around more often..huh. well nothing to report today but same old same old...

ja ne

Tavi
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Monday, May 1, 2006

   konnichi wa mina

I am feeling slightly better but none the less better...huh prom is on its way.. i have my shoes the dress and a date all seems to be going well. Nothing to much happening today since its a monday but hey hooo something is bound to happen lets just hope it is entertaining. well i hope you all have a good day.

Tavi
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Tuesday, April 25, 2006

   I am so depressed....

This will be the first in awhile when i spill out my guts how terrible i feel. Well mina you all know that i rejoined my old highschool for my senior year right well i am just drifting back on the feeling that i don't belong. it's hard to ingore that feeling today. I just feel so detached from everyone.. right now i wish i was somewhere else immediately. I feel so alone. And i recooperate in this most evil way I feel very very destructive. While in the hall I pushed someone deliberately. I feel that I always have this scowl on my face. Everytime i walk down the stairs i feel like punching the idiot in front of me and watch them fall down the stairs.... I don't know what is wrong with me any more. I am fat I have no one to talk to and i have this uncontrolable urge to hurt everyone i see. The only people i submit to is my family and i can't expalin how i feel to them. I feel like sleeping forever..then maybe my dreams can give me comfort. but not even that can cheer me up.....I wish I was something other than me sometimes. I wish i was beautiful smart talented. Can make any guy fall for my looks...but alas the only thing good about my self is that i am decently smart.........Look at me babble on feeling sorry for my self. I can't help it if no onw feels sorry for me may as well feel sorry for myself. I really wish i had someone.. but alas god is taking up my dare. I think i am being cursed right now because I once said when i was feeling strong of my self is that i can live alone and not need anyone in my life.I would defy god's will and never need anyone. Cause my mom told me god made pairs and that there was someone otu there for me but I dared god not to let me meet them..i don't know what i just said is probably my wishy washy theory of karma.. i better stop typing all this sad stuff before i get teary eyed at school and the last thing i want to do is show emotion here..well in this post i bid adieu to my firends...

Tavi

and no i don't mean to say this is my final and last post..he he so don't fret sooner or later i will feel better.
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Friday, April 21, 2006

nothing

Hi and Bye



Tavi
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Thursday, April 20, 2006

   kaeru no utta ga kikoette kuru yo

I can hear a song it is hte frog song.... yeah that is the song we sang in japanese i am singing it today for old memories sake.....and no not sake as in rice wine...ha ha i am a little loopy today..don't have any particular reason why... but i think i am seeing sprites from the conner of my eye.. i am seeing lights and when i turn and look straight it is gonee.....may haps i might catch one.. nothing much else have a good day!!!

Tavi
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Wednesday, April 19, 2006

   procrastination not good

he he i haven't done my homework for my history class so i am doing it right now as i do this post and in the classrooom itslef with my teacher at his desk...yeah i know bad..but i gotta go now in order to get it done...he he wish me luck...


Tavi
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