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Tuesday, April 25, 2006

   I am so depressed....
This will be the first in awhile when i spill out my guts how terrible i feel. Well mina you all know that i rejoined my old highschool for my senior year right well i am just drifting back on the feeling that i don't belong. it's hard to ingore that feeling today. I just feel so detached from everyone.. right now i wish i was somewhere else immediately. I feel so alone. And i recooperate in this most evil way I feel very very destructive. While in the hall I pushed someone deliberately. I feel that I always have this scowl on my face. Everytime i walk down the stairs i feel like punching the idiot in front of me and watch them fall down the stairs.... I don't know what is wrong with me any more. I am fat I have no one to talk to and i have this uncontrolable urge to hurt everyone i see. The only people i submit to is my family and i can't expalin how i feel to them. I feel like sleeping forever..then maybe my dreams can give me comfort. but not even that can cheer me up.....I wish I was something other than me sometimes. I wish i was beautiful smart talented. Can make any guy fall for my looks...but alas the only thing good about my self is that i am decently smart.........Look at me babble on feeling sorry for my self. I can't help it if no onw feels sorry for me may as well feel sorry for myself. I really wish i had someone.. but alas god is taking up my dare. I think i am being cursed right now because I once said when i was feeling strong of my self is that i can live alone and not need anyone in my life.I would defy god's will and never need anyone. Cause my mom told me god made pairs and that there was someone otu there for me but I dared god not to let me meet them..i don't know what i just said is probably my wishy washy theory of karma.. i better stop typing all this sad stuff before i get teary eyed at school and the last thing i want to do is show emotion here..well in this post i bid adieu to my firends...

Tavi

and no i don't mean to say this is my final and last post..he he so don't fret sooner or later i will feel better.
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