Monday, November 1, 2004

Ok... well sorry if my account appears depressive and it did get abit out of hand while I went completely insane a while ago. Everything is normal again and i actually have free time these days. But life seems strangely empty.

I might not post alot for a whlie, still just enjoying fading away from the world.

while I might go and bash up my brother (for certain reasons).

l8r
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Monday, October 25, 2004

So Rachel, Eileen and I went to the movies saturday to watch Wimbledon in Greensborough. It was rather good for a movie based around tennis. I went for roughly and hour 53mins, then we went back to Rachels house. After having war with her little brother over the fact that shoes CAN be put in the wash, and that they WON'T shrink (otherwise we couldn't wear shoes in the rain) *shakes head* I took Eileen home, then sunday i walked over to the pines to see what new stuff they added to it. Walked around it and only found sanity the slightest bit interesting, but they were out of linkin park cd's :(

Then I got to school today to find that Kate had passed away on saturday. That was one of the worst things of the day. Then my mum droped a glass container right next to me when i was in the kitchen (she was trying to kill me i swear) So i ended up with a whole lot of glass in my arm and my leg, not telling anyone; i pulled all i could find out.

So yeah, I'm tired, and have a sore back and need to send out a gmail invitation, so cya.
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Friday, October 22, 2004

Well tomorow I'm going to see Rachel M, found out my friend Rabia has cancer. I havn't seen Rachel in ages, like 1st term. Eileen and I are going to her house to catch up with her. I talked to her on the phone...

Sunday, I hope to walk to the pines, as it has been renovated and re-opened. With any luck I'll complete a few more levels on halo, on every difficulty. I have done nearly all difficults on all levels, except for normal.
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   Well... I supose i have been thinking about secerts. Some secerts you tell your friends and some thst you tell nobody. (and the only people that know are the people who acciedently found out or already knew...)

I have to many secerts from everyone... but only one person has ever asked about my biggest secert and I didn't tell her. I supose most of mine are keep secerts so I don't worry people.

I'm just wasting space now to make it look like I have written alot, but I havn't. It just a easy way to use up space, write a whole paragraph on nothing. There is a whole site to fill up and I'm totally bored.

We looked at the yr 11 art work and skipped maths, yay! two of my friends had a tomato fight. Crystal and I had war and Joyce some how got in it to...
bye!

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Tuesday, October 19, 2004

Strange really, one falls down and most the time they get back up. No matter how tragic everything becomes, most still make it throught the day. No matter how depressed I am, my friends can always find a smile in me, even if only for a short while. weird that in reality, we all live just to die, yet we are dying to live. The truth is we all die someday, yet some people wish there friends could live forever. But they won't, immortal or not, we all die.

A good friend of mine has got blood cancer or some from of cancer. A another person who was in one of my classes also has cancer and has been in comas and isn't expected to live long. All these other people have gotten through cancer, as we all get through life. I hope she gets through it... There is no promise in life saying when or how we die, but for now make the most of life.

Yes, for the first time I'm talking about my life, something I never discuss with people I don't know and rarely with people I do. It's proberly cause in a way it gives people a chance to Judge me.
The yr 12's finished school today as well.
The dark shadows call and there are things to do, cya l8r.
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Thursday, October 14, 2004

When dakness like a cloud descends
And banishes the light,
When day is just a memory
And all there is, is night,
When heaviness engulfs your heart,
Crushing it like a stone,
Find hope in knowing, through it all,
That you are not alone.

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Sunday, October 3, 2004

Well school tomorrow. :( i was enjoying the holidays... sort of... I can't say I like either, but the holidays go faster~ seem to take less time, so I supose there better. I never noticed that a game could have sooo many errors in it and still work untill a few days ago. *rolls eyes*

De@th Dr@ws Ne@r... Sh@dows have Aw@ken.

Lyrics for I miss you,

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)

Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (miss you miss you)

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you miss you)

(yes just bored and busy) buh byes!- don't forget to watch out for the edge of that cliff! :P
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Saturday, September 25, 2004

   So, I'm pretty much back to myself... Distroying everything... hateful, mean and still depressed... Although I have been depressed since I was 6 yrs old.

listening to planet rock - breaking the habbit (Linkin Park)

Revenge is in order and peace has been chased away. Doom shall strike and pain and suffering shall now beguin. Death now draws nearer than ever, the end comes amoug dark shadows. heaven fades from the imagionary world it once stood in.

must go torture inocent people. Bye!

(giving up saying cya slowly cause there is no guarantee I will talk to you again or ever be seen again [I could just disappear and return to the woods or stay forever in the shadows of hell])
-Tele Muahahaha
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Monday, September 13, 2004

ello ello. Haven't updated me site in a while. Been hem hem busy... sort have. Haven't bothered to finish my geo assignment which was due last friday!
Raye came ova sunday, and I actually beet her and my bro at Halo. Its egill hobob 's birthday on wensday, so happy birthday! been using darkthrone alot lately and I barely use Blue Laguna anymore. must check dark throne... cya (soz if really boring...)
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Thursday, September 2, 2004

   ok maybe not... anyway the geography test was really easy. we had the Talent quest today...
some lyrics for Linkin Park- Crawling (fav song):

Crawling in my skin...These wounds they will not heal...
Fear is how I fall...Confusing what is real...

There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface...
Consuming...confusing...
This lack of self-control I fear is never ending...
Controlling...I cant seem...

To find myself again, My walls are closing in...
[Without a sense of confidence...Im convinced that there's just too much pressure to take]
Ive felt this way before.....so INSECURE.....

Crawling in my skin...These wounds they will not heal..
Fear is how I fall...Confusing what is real...

Discomfort endlessly has pulled itself upon me...
Distracting...reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection...
Its haunting...how I cant seem...

To find myself again, My walls are closing in...
[Without a sense of confidence...Im convinced that there's just too much pressure to take]
Ive felt this way before.....so INSECURE.....

Crawling in my skin...These wounds they will not heal...
Fear is how I fall...Confusing what is real...

Crawling in my skin...These wounds they will not heal...
Fear is how I fall...Confusing... confusing what is real...

[There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface...
Consuming...confusing...]

Confusing what is real

[This lack of self-control I fear is never ending
Controlling.....]

Confusing what is real....

I really don't want to say much more...
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