Saturday, October 1, 2005

   I hope you are ok...
Hey ppl. I cant really stay long. I gotta go to sleep. I'm at soul's but no one knows that I am here but ya'll. I'm like 6 months prg. now. soul has been taking very good care of me when i see her. i wish i could undo her past and make her be able to trust guys...i want her to have a nice bf but she says that no one likes her. that she will be always alone.. i think that is a lie...well i gotta go now. i need to sleep...i shall post when i can...see you later..and oh...if anyone knows soul in person...please try to hook her up with someone nice..who wont beat her...well bye...
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Thursday, September 1, 2005

   forgive me for getting you into this...
hey ppl? cant stay long gotta try and get ahold of soul. I know she is in pain and i cant do nothing about it. she wont let me take her place. she wants me to have the twins not lose them. I feel so guilty or whatever. I dont want this to happen to such a nice girl. I dont want her to die i dont want her to get hurt. I dont want her to meet him always. please forgive me soul for making you go. I wish it was me in your place. please forgive me. my stomach is getting bigger now soul. I wish you could see me. I will send you a pic of them when they are born..thats if you live...please dont die on me...I love you to much...I need to go now...bye...soul talk to me!
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Wednesday, August 24, 2005

   soul baby? where are ya? i worried
soul baby? where are ya? i aint seen you on in a while. why ya delete yas site and just re make it? is somethin wrong? ya know ya can always tlk to me. i sorry that i yelled at you. i no mean to. i just found out and i took it out on ya. well soul please tlk to me again. i dont wanna lose such a good friend. ya helped me with everythin. please will ya tlk to me again? pm me or somethin soul. i miss ya soul baby. i wont tell shugo about the site or whatever. just please tlk to me again. i need to tlk to ya...ok that sounds all les but i aint and either is soul we are just close cause of what we went tho ppl. dont like it then go fuck yourself's...anyway. soul tlk to me later. pm me or somethin..i gotta go. pm me soul. please.
E.L.B.
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Monday, August 22, 2005

Pain is such a great thing that you can never stop it coming, it keeps coming back in differnet ways. There is no way you can stop the pain. there is no way I can stop the pain of my heart breaking into 2 pieces all because he couldnt be with me cause of his stupid religion. he says that he isnt supposed to fall in love. and he did with me, he got in trouble for that so now he has to leave me now. how can i live without him? he was like my life line. I used to be all messed up. now i'm not. Well now I know that i shall go back to being the way i was. being depressed, a druggie, a slave. not a fighter. I have lost all the fight in me. People say i am depressed cause i want attention when the truth is that i dont. there are people out there who act depressed who want attention that they cant live without attention. how can people just do that and make everyone hate the people who are really hurting inside? who cant cry even when they need to? who cant cry when they are hurt? I cant cry cause i have forgotten how to cry. I lost my able to cry free since I was 11. People who act depressed should go to hell and stay there!
E.L.B.
-OH anyone who knows shugo.hack...dont fucking tell him about this site. you do, I will delete this site make a new one and make sure no one adds me. and then go kill your sorry like fucking ass! later!

E.L.B.
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