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myOtaku.com: Exiled Empress


Sunday, December 5, 2004

   ...continued from the last post....
" I've had it with you coming late from the street! When are you just going to admit to me you're going around with other women?" my mother yelled.

Those words...I couldn't believe what I was hearing.

"It's none of your business!! You have no right to question me. I do what I want to do and no woman is going to tell me what I can and what I cannot do!!" my father answered back.
"Then you are going around with other women! How dare you come back to this house!" my mother yelled back.

Then I heard a slap...my heart just froze.

"Don't you ever dare try to impede me from coming to this house! This is MY house! Understand?! If you don't like it, pack your bags and get out! You're useless to this family. You don't provide anything to this house but idleness. YOU should be the one to get out!" he angrily said.

I was shocked...I had always seen my father as my hero...Now what should a child do if their hero becomes the villain? I couldn't believe what was happening. I heard my mother crying. I wanted to go to her, but I was too afraid of coming out of the room. I was afraid of encountering my father. I was afraid of seeing him like a monster. I wasn't sure how I'd see him. I was afraid of that man, who was nothing like the father I knew. My mother had been defeated by this monster. She cried there on the floor while he went to the bedroom and locked himself in there.
It had all happened too fast, but the words were forever engraved in my heart. My dad had always been my role model. The man of the house who always provided for the family. And now, to me, he became an object to fear. He had hit my mother I was not going to forgive him for that. He had no idea of how hard she had it when I was in the hospital. All the worries she went through because at times I was close of not making it. She was a strong woman. And if she never provided, in terms of money, it was because he never allowed her.
" Why do you want to work? To flirt with your boss? That's all women do when they work. They always flirt around with their skirts, showing their legs. No, forget about it. You should take care of the children. Of your own home," he once said.

Now that I had become more aware of things, how things really were between my parents and my family in general, I realized the real answer to the sudden question: why did we leave Osaka in the first place?

As I pondered things, recalling events with similar arguments like these, I suspected my father being a womanizer. It was a feeling I had. But tonight, it had all been confirmed. My mother had said it, and he didn't deny it. They had always argued, but it had never escalated to abuse. My world had been rocked....my trust was lost...I was confused....I didn't know what to believe in anymore...What was there to do?
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