Saturday, May 2, 2009

[[I need you to need me
I never really wanted to let this all come to this, but it happaned and I know that in a way I really did want this. I can't change it, I can't make things dissapear.

I don't really want to..

I just don't want to be the one who hurts you in the end..

I'm so fucked up, seriously.

Yeah, I'm out of here.

-jenny
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Thursday, April 30, 2009

[[i miss your smile.]]
Your immaturity makes me laugh.


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I've been to busy to post about anything and I don't really give a fuck about posting here anymore but I suppose i will continue too, lol.
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Thursday, April 23, 2009

[[she was right to take off before she was consumed.]]
wow. fuck you.
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Monday, April 20, 2009

[[cuz' when i look in her eyes i just see the sky.]]
This is me blowing off my math homework, and being so paranoid about my drivers test tomorrow.
and i just want to go home and... well you know.

Hahah. So I really need things to go right tomorrow. I really need them too, I don't exactly know why but they need too.

ill let you guys know what happens.

For now i better go do my shitload of math homework.

Later people who don't read this cept' cassie.

-jenny


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Saturday, April 18, 2009

[[I want to make you as lonely as me.]]
Time seems to go to fast sometimes, I feel like this entire week has went past in the time span of two days. I feel like I don't sleep or eat anymore and when I do it's just enough to get me by and sometimes I hate that. I still don't understand why I'm so damn happy, yet I'm such an emotional wreck but I just can't give my self the time to stop and think about it. Really though, I'm happy. I'm happier then I think I've ever been in my life and that kind of scares me because I really don't know what to do with my self.

"No one can fix me, trying to fix me is like trying to put back together something that broke into a million odd shaped pieces."

"I can."

maybe, just maybe she's the only one who can.

Look at me getting distracted all over again. Anyways, school is okay. I'm actually doing pretty well I think I understand the stuff that we're doing in math so i'll be able to get my math grade up i might even be on the A honor roll by the end of the year. We're rollarbladding in gym class. Weird I know, we where doing archery for a short amount of time, I want to do it again. I have this secret way to get a perfect score.. I took a history test friday and I think i maybe got a 100% on it or got 1 wrong, either way I believe i'll get the extra credit and then it'll still be an A or A+.

I'm slightly freaking out about my drivers test on Tuesday. Slightly is probably an understatment. I'm really freaking out. I can do it though, I just have to believe that I can. I'm going driving today in the town I'm taking it in because I've only drove there once... Dammit. I can do it.

I didn't tell anyone at school that i'm taking it. I don't need the criticism. Besides then I can brag about it.. hahaha.

I can feel summer in the air. It's exciting. Maybe it's just the weather thats making me feel this way. Maybe I'm just a winter depression person. I just really hate winter these days. I used to love it.

I'm rambling. I'm going to stop now, do you like the new layout thingy? The playlist is kind of random but I love all these songs. ^_^

Love you guys.

-Jenny
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Thursday, April 9, 2009

[[you are my sweetest downfall, I loved you first.]]
I didn't go to school today.
Yeahhh,
I just won't tell you guys why hahah.

I'm learning to play the song "Samson" By Regina Spektor on the piano.
I'd be stuck up if I said I was kinda proud of my self, but I am.

Someone offered to teach me Guitar Tabs. I'mma take her up on that offer of course. haha.

I think imma put this song on my site.

ifelldownthestairs._.

-jenny
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Wednesday, April 8, 2009

[[and that cellular will be the death of us i swear.]]
Tick tock.
tick tock.
peter cottontail.
:o
NeverShoutNever! owns my soul at the moment.

My drivers test is April 21st.....

NERVOS NERVOUS NERVOUS NERVOUS.
why can't i be the kind of person who has self confidence? meeehhhhh.

'im running my mouth
just like i got her
but i surely don't.'

i miss peter cottontail hahahaha.

-jenny
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Tuesday, April 7, 2009

[walk away, it's easier if you don't stay.]
If I could tell you I would,
But I can’t and I won’t even though I probably should.
If I could I’d say the things that are always running through my head.
I can’t leave it alone, no I can’t.
It’s far too different then anything I’ve ever felt before.
Its okay, it really is.
So maybe it’s not,
No not considering the fine line of rules
That I’m so willing to cross.
This means nothing, absolutely nothing.
Besides everything.
Oh god, besides everything.
“When I see a pretty face, I can’t help but make it smile.”
What? What gives me the right?
I worry too much, that’s all it is. I worry too much.

I feel trapped, I feel broken, and I feel like I’m being used. I feel like this really doesn’t mean anything to anyone else but me. I feel like I’m becoming too attached to someone who will eventually fade away.

I’ve never been this happy before.

What’s wrong with me?

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Saturday, April 4, 2009

[[maybe it's all for the best]]
Yeahhh, to all my friends whom i have added on MSN,
i'm really sorry if you sign on and have a bunch of spam from my address.
my friends hijacked my laptop which was signed onto msn and totally spammed practically everyone on my friends list.
Yeah, so big apologies there.
They where just typing down everything that was being said at the time..

My friends are fucking weird sometimes.

Again, sorry.

It's bed time now, i think i'm going to pass out while everyone else i know get's wasted.

haha.

-jenny
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Tuesday, March 31, 2009

And if love is really forever, i'm a winner at a losing game.
time:11:57am
mood:okay/confused.
music:Over The Years; NeverShoutNever!/Love Me Dead;Ludo

So I am officially more confused that I have ever been and don't really know what the fuck I'm doing. It always comes back down to the fact that I am so easily distracted. It shouldn't be that way.

Cuz' in my head i'm right there too.

Maybe I'll just write that one thing today.. or i'll fall asleep again because mom woke me up. Or maybe i'll find something to eat because i'm like starving ._.

Meh, I'm still a stupid fuck. I just don't know why.
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