Wednesday, December 24, 2008

December 24, 2008
Happy Christmas Eve~

So it's christmas break. Yay. I spent all of today at Jordan's house practically. I watched her and Logan play Halo and almost fell asleep because Halo has that affect on me... Then her and I watched the Fullmetal Alchemist movie. It was good, but confusing considering I haven't seen the whole series. Still made me cry. lol.

I don't know if i'm doing anything this vacation.... I know i'm going down to see my grandma for christmas this weekend.. and then i'm trying to have a new years eve party but i don't think i'll be able to get anyone to come... I want Jordan to come...

YAY PICTURE SPAM.


my friend joe because cassie has been begging me to put up a picture of him.


Jordan and her brother Logan. :D


:3


He's so adorable :3333


lolz, she made the wentz face.

I r done spamming.

I....never thought i'd be taking advice from my ex-girlfriend.

HAHA.

-jenneh.
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Friday, December 19, 2008

December 19, 2008
Happy Birthday to Cassie! :D :D :D :D :D
oh, yeah. it's also Jordan's birthday today.

So, I pretty much love the fuck out of snow days. I also seem to love the word fuck. Three Day weekends rock. But then I'm sure it'll just make Monday and Tuesday seem longer. But after that I'm on christmas break! And of course that means christmas. I still haven't got anything. I want a webcam....

So wendsday night I did end up going to Dinner with Jordan and her grandma was asking me a bunch of questions about my family and stuff. There also was many questions about guys, and it made me laugh on the inside. I feel bad though, because I hardley ate... because I have this thing where I can't eat around people. It's weird. I did manage to eat some fish though. After dinner we went back to Jordans house and her and I played guitar hero upstairs for awhile... Then she had to leave because her little brother Logan had a christmas concert... I felt bad because I couldn't go watch it with them. Logan is the cutest little kid I've ever seen.

So yeah... todays her birthday party and I really don't plan to stay long. Mostly because its weird being around her family... I didn't get her anything either, but I do plan too before monday.. Even though she insists that I don't. :P

I got my progress report in the mail today. I'm getting three C's now instead of one.
Math
Pysics
and Choir.
....i don't know how you can fail Choir but I'm almost there. It's not because of my singing though... It has something to do with homework and I never seem to show up for my individual lessons... heh...oops.

I watch FnMtv today. Fall Out Boy performed and Dirty was there. it was pretty much amazingggg. but Donotwant Miley Cyrus calling Fall Out Boy "her boys" no, no. My boys :D

I will probably end up cleaning my room today... even though it's clean... That or I'll end up re-organizing again. WHICH. I think is hillarious because everytime I do it and Jordan comes in my room she gets pissed off. X'DDD ahaha.

I made these wicked awesome better then choclate rice krispie things this morning... they're pretty good. I used Rice Chex :3

I have a lame life. Tonight just may suck hardxcore. Gotta smile though. Don't give up, don't give in. Someday she'll learn to love my sins.

:D I feel poetic today.

I need to write something again... i'm rambling...

bye!

-jenny


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Wednesday, December 17, 2008

december 17, 2008
It's Krissy's birthday today. :] Even though I've spammed it every where else....Happy birthday Krisseh. ILY.


On another note. I can't wait for Christmas break. I mean, it's only like... fricken' 12 days. But it's still something. So I just have the rest of this week, monday and tuesday next week and then I'm off till..... the fifth? Yeah. I think so. I can't believe it's almost 2009. It seems like it was just new years.. So many things have changed in the past year.. We've went threw a whole year without my dad... and I think.. I'm okay, at the least.

I'm surprised I don't have homework tonight. But I suppose that's good considering I'm going to dinner with Jordan tonight. I shouldn't say that. Because that makes it sound like a date. Then her birthday party is on friday night... and I guess we're getting a huge storm thursday night into friday so there might not even be school. Which would be pretty amazing.... three day weekends for teh win like wut? :D

I haven't got a headache all week yet. That's kind of... Odd for me. Must be doing something different.

I don't know what I'm doing for christmas.. but I really wish I was spending christmas with Cassie. I really wish she was here with me... I miss her like crazy. I'd make her re-sign up for Highschool with me so we could totally pwn the noobs at my school, and talk fall out boy all the time considering everyone at my school sucks and doesn't like fall out boy. Losers.

I played a one on one game of basketball today with this girl amy.
I lost. 14-38
ha-ha.

My grades are sucky right now. I've been slacking off on my homework a lot, and being home a lot isn't helping either. I just probably failed a personal finance test today. Annnd, a English quiz the other day.... We're reading the book 'To Kill A Mocking Bird.' I'm actually really getting into it now. But I don't like how they switch conflicts all the time. Maybe I just don't understand the book yet.
We started Geometry in Math. I hate math.
We're talking about Christopher Columbus in History.
He was from Italy, Not spain. But italy and peru are stuck up countries so Spain was like, 'yah, i'll fund your trip if you give me the riches'
smart country that spain was.

I never realized that there was a certain thing called the popular loser kid.
yeah, that's me.

Cardio Room tomorrow. :D

This has been me rambling, I gotta go take a shower now. lolz. Later~

-jenny
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Tuesday, December 16, 2008

i'm going to start making normal posts from now on.
i promise.
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Monday, December 15, 2008

cold hearted promises.
Last night was pretty much amazing.

but it's kind of sad because I know none of it can be taken out of context.

and it'll come kick me in the ass sooner or later.

but still, at least she said it.

and at least that made me smile.

:]
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Sunday, December 14, 2008

and i asked him if throwing it back into the sea would bring our love back?
She's falling head-over-heels in love with the fact that she has complete control of me.

I never knew that being in love was this hard.

I know i'm sick and that I need to go to the doctor but I can't.. If I want to stay out of an asylum, I can't. I'll be fine.

I told her not to worry, not that I believe that she would.

Did I ever mention I hate dreaming? Just a false promise of a reality I'll never have.

The (shipped) gold standard could quite possibly be the soundtrack to my life.

If I could only just stay asleep, always. Then at least in the dreams where she actually loves me I could have a fraction of happiness.

What breaks my heart is the fact that she agrees with me when I tell her I have a horrible way of showing her that I love her.

You should probably just stop reading, because all I am is a handfull of dissapointments and a bunch of broken promises and words I can never take back.

I'm sorry you love me.
I'm sorry that we didn't stand a chance.
I'm sorry that I really think living is a waste of time.

Is it so wrong of me to wish that I where the one that died instead of my father? How come he gets to be at rest?

She wants HIM, not ME.

and all i've ever wanted was for her to be happy.

well that is, until I met her.

Now I'm just.. fucked.

-jenny
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Friday, December 12, 2008

I must confess i'm in love with my own sins.
Somethings just aren't worth worrying over anymore.

I'm sick. Again.

I slept for a majority of the day yesterday from the moment i got home from school barely alive to when my mom got home.

I really should go to the doctor... but we all know how i feel about doctors.

I'm listening to Folie A Deux on myspace. It makes me feel a little better i guess.

I thought my desktop computer was broken last night because it wouldn't turn on at all. But when i got up this morning and was going to try and fix it, it was working again.

Disloyal Order Of Water Buffalos is a good song. Some of their new songs are starting to remind me of The Cab.

I'm going to walmart today. because i guess mom insists on getting me a winter coat.

I might go see twilight again with Jordan tomorrow.
Which reminds me. I got invited to her birthday party next friday.
hmm, joy.

My mom says I'm bitter.
Like she's one to talk.
lolz.

Twilight is loev~ and I DONT CARE if you don't think so.

I don't know what I want for christmas damnit.

I don't even care about christmas anymore... it just seems really dull to me now.

I lost the memory card for my camera. Or more like the cats knocked it off my desk and took it somewhere... damn cats.

I think I may just be giving Micheal the wrong idea, without even trying too.

I just don't have the heart, or the room in my mind to give him a chance.
I'm a horrible person.

I need to get over her. honestly. but I know that'll never happen.

Later~

-jenny
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Tuesday, December 9, 2008

living hard is barely living.
Snow days make me happy

Letters from my grandma make me sad. :[ I miss her but i just wish that she could really accept me.

Oh well. I guess it doesn't matter as long as she doesn't know. She can just go on believing that i'm a good kid and that i'm getting into her so called heaven..

ugh. that wasn't meant to sound mean.

I don't know what i'm talking about anymore.

But yeah, yay snow day.

-jenny
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Monday, December 8, 2008

omg omg omg omg twilight. :'''''''D
ORGASMMMMMMMM.

lolz, i hate my self. :'D
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Sunday, December 7, 2008

1,2,3
cassie your avatar scares the shit out of me. b-den is not made to have a reindeer nose.

brrrrrr. it's cold. lol @ the commercial fro animal crossings.

fathead HAHA. commercials make me lol all the time.

last night me and megan watched oliver and company together. ahaha. it was like a date. lmao

because we are that epic.

yay for christmas movies.

weekends always go to fast.

dnw christmas concert tommorow.

-sigh- oh well.

-jenny
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