Sunday, July 13, 2008

Don't be so scared, it's harder for me.
okay... so i'm obsessed with the twlight series. FUCKING SUE ME. [no seriously, please do because if i win then i might have enough money to buy edward cullen..oh wait, it's a book. god damnit..]

anyways..

we went and seen WallE today. It was really cute but not as great as i thought it would be. Walle is still my favorite robot ever though :]


it scares me how all my days are colliding into one. It scares me how i can't understand how almost 10 months have passed me so fast. it scares me to think about it. it scares me to think about him. Some crazy part of me today wondered if he was still alive. If maybe it was all just a joke. I cant understand it. I can't seem to grasp reality anymore... than again, maybe i'm just better off not living in reality.

My sister thinks i dont feel anything, but on the inside she doesn't know how messed up i really am. no one knows..

sleep.

-jenny
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Thursday, July 10, 2008

keeping me hopeless, till i wake tommorow.
random facts of the day

I finished my chapter of HSNE and its one of the longest chapters i've ever writen.

You're never too old for slip n slide.

I am afraid of calling people.

I am getting back into my odd sleeping pattern.

My heart breaks when i read books, I get to caught up in the fictional world.

I am friendless in this town. And I really wish i didn't live here anymore.

Kwik Trip Dounuts are amazing.

The Cab is an amazing band.

I'm riding a ferry boat to michigan in august.

my cousin talks about me behind my back. =/

Bonfires leave a person's hair smelling like... well bonfire.

It's easy to stalk people you don't like on myspace.

I could tell the story of my life threw an assortment of song lyrics.


I find "climax" to be a very dirty word.. no matter what context it's used in. .

Panic at the disco slash keeps a person up till 3 in the morning or later.

I really love orange juice.

:]

random panic at the disco quote of the day

Ryan: (on writing the lyrics for the band's second album) Basically every band that blows up writes about how hard it is to be famous and rich and on tour and how all that still sucks, and I decided I wasn't going to do that. The best part for me, creatively, is how many people I've met thanks to all this, and how much I've seen. I've been studying people — a homeless guy in Scotland, a blind accordion player in London — and they've inspired the lyrics I've been writing.

..and now, cassie, you know where the lyrics from mad as rabbits came from. I blind accordion player in london.

the end;;;


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Wednesday, July 9, 2008

the hero sings in this scene,
I just woke up a couple minutes ago and i have a pounding headache.. ugh.

Yesterday I didn't do much. I set up the bonfire since our old one got wrecked in the flood last month. I put together the grill we bought because brendon broke our other one.. >_> But yeah, that was a pain in the ass because the directions looked like they where written by monkeys.

Had a bonfire outside and talked to steph for awhile. Then I did a few fireworks with my sister which at that point my mom asked me to drive her up to the store because she was drunk and she needed cigarettes. -_- So, i ended up doing that and there was these guys in the store that looked like they wanted to hold up the store. It was weird and my mom was drunk and out of it and thought she could fight them. Bleh, it was stupid. When we got home i sat outside by the fire for a little longer by my self. I didn't even realize that i was crying I don't know if it was because of the smoke or because of what i was thinking about. Either way i've been a little bit out of it latley.

I just hate alcohol...

Anyways, I came back in the house and played some video games then went upstairs and cleaned my room finally and read some more of twilght and fell asleep around 1 oclook.

I keep thinking about my old friends god, i mentioned them back on my older sites but i haven't seen them since this time last year and they don't know what happaned to my dad or where we went our why my old number is disconected. They where my second family and I feel bad because i haven't talked to them in so long. -sigh- oh well..

Oh, I seen a bunch of bats last night and it was awesome. there most have been 100 of them. lol and my sister is determined to make me believe that they are going to turn into vampires and come kill us in our sleep XD I dunt care, i likes vampires. like edward cullen... XD :3

and now im going to go on a search for dounuts... mmmh.

-jenneh.


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Tuesday, July 8, 2008

poptarts and sex.


woke up at 11 though and it was raining again. -_- im so sick of rain theres things i have to do outside!

im not doing anything today but staying away from MSN.

still need to finish twilight.

hm.

-jenny
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Monday, July 7, 2008

I'm awfully fond of the way you say my name...
I figured out what was bothering me latley. And it's pretty much thanks to cassie and she doesn't even know it xD and i know what i have to do to fix it now... but that's the hard part.

Mmm, Today we have to fax some stuff and then i think we're going to go to lacrosse... imma try and see if i can see krissy again. lol. I know i seem to be seing her a lot latley but she's my only friend here.

My shoulder feels a bit better.. but it's like my muscles are stiff. i never knew how much i use my right arm until now. lol.

o_O i still can't believe my birthday's in a little more then a month. that's fucking crazy man xD

I also realized yesterday that i go along with peoples lies because i dont want to let them know that i know they're lying. It's like im playing a game with most the people i talk to i know half the shit they talk about is bullshit but i still go along with it. I don't know if that makes me a nice person or just a gigantic idiot.

Meh, I need to do some reading today to get my mind off of other things.

-jenny
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Sunday, July 6, 2008

i can't believe i just said that to my mother...

i can't move my right arm. seriously. i can type and move around but my shoulder refuses to work with me. i was a pussy this morning and started crying because it hurts so bad... fuuuck. I am, indeed a fucking idiot.

I feel like i had something to post about but now i don't remember what it was. Oh, I have to be sorry for yesterday because i was REALLY moody... to the point where i posted some things on myspace that i really shouldn't have. I guess its just.. this is going to be a very hard month for me.

I really dont think it's fair that I'll never be able to see my dad again. And im really getting tired of people telling me I'll be able to see him again in "heaven" when if they really knew me they'd know that i dont meet the "qualifications" to make it into this so called "heaven" I guess... I'm just over thinking it.

I don't know what i'm doing today. mum said i can paint japanese words on my wall but with out being able to use my right arm i dont see that happening today...

-sigh- I love you guys.

-jenny
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Friday, July 4, 2008

Happy Fourth Of July!
Happy Fourth Of July Guys! ^_^ I have a theme specially for the fourth! hehe and the fireworks are pretty!

Yesterday I get to see krissy and i didn't plan too but i was glad to see her none the less and i'm also going to be seing fireworks with her tonight. It'll be fun. I'm thinking about letting my mom drink tonight and then I'll have to drive home in the dark >_< Oh well. My sunburn feels better today though! a bit.

Well, this is something no one knows yet but its been on my mind so i thought i'd post about it. My moms thinking about sticking the house up for sale and she wants to buy an RV and just live in the RV.. My mom's like me she loves to travel. But she has to understand that i still have three years of high school left and i DO want to go to college.. It'd be fine if we did it for a summer thing but i really do want to finish school. Its always been a dream of mine to have an RV and travel everywhere so it makes me happy that she'd actually do it. Ah we'll see. There are a certain few people that i wouldn't want to leave here. My mom hates it here though.. Oh well.

XD I'm planning a party for sometime when cassie's here and imma invite krissy and a few other friends. Our neighbor next door is a bitch so it'd serve her right if we threw a party with lots of fall out boy and panic at the disco blasting outside XD

Ahh, that's all. I cant believe its friday already. Time flys past me sometimes.

-jenneh
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Wednesday, July 2, 2008

breathe me in

Is there really any point in this considering no one will really read it? Haha.

I'm back. 781359 shades of red and back.

I suppose I could recap all of this for you guys not that anyone will read it :]

Friday: In drivers ed we had a presentation about organ donation. i had to resist the urge to freak out the whole class with my view on organ donating. Did our final presentation got some laughs which was good. drivers ed is finally over! Took brendon to the vet to get boarded while we where gone and then headed out. It started raining pretty bad while we where on the interstate. It was kind of surprsing how much of the land by the interstate was underwater still from the flooding. Kind of scary. Got to my grandma's house and my aunt toke us out for dinner. fish fry! Got back home and my cousins, my sister and i walked up to the park by my grandma's house and played there for a while. While we where swinging we saw a rainbow it was pretty :3 While we where walking back we seen another one above the one we seen. Got back home at around nine and watched the news. Remembered how much I do and don't miss Milwaukee.

Saturday: Went to the old house and got some materials for the garage roof since the building codes aren't passing.. bleh. Seen my uncle and my friend Mario. Went back to my grandma's house and picked her up and we went to the racine county zoo. We planned to grill out there because all the times we had been there before there had been grills but when we got there we found out that they had taken them out..We ended up taigating in the parking lot and eating cold sandwhiches. which i was starving because i realized that i hardley eat anymore.. bleh. Walked around the zoo some more until it started to storm again and we ran under a tent until it died down. My aunt almost got attacked by a tiger. lol. There was a monkey named jenny who was adorable. We also found timon! :3 I love meercats sooo much. There was little babies and they all where digging. It was adorable x3 We also ran into penguins Those penguins have been there since as long as i can remember, I used to go to the zoo a lot with my dad. We also seen pelecons, goats, lions, tigers, and bears. [oh my] It was pretty fun. After the zoo we went and had a picnic at a park that my grandma knew of. It was pretty much fun cept for the fact that the misquitos where biting like crazy because it had just rained. Got home and watched the news again. We where supposed to end up going to summerfest that night but we where all to tired to walk around anymore. No one good was playing anyways.

Sunday: On sunday we went to the Milwaukee Public Museum I hadn't been there in a while and wanted to go for some reason. Theres an imax theater inside of the museum and we ended up seeing a film called "Mysteries of the great lakes" It was about fish, surprsingly. Surgeon [sp] fish. It was kind of weird and odd.. but it was intersting for the most part. Imax theaters make me dizzy though x_x we went threw the butterfly room which is a room with millions of butterflys in it and they will practically land on your finger if you stick your hand out. It kind of freaks me out. Then we went into the bug room where they kept all the bugs... which also sort of freaked me out but i liked looking at the scorpions! Seen a lot of exhibits that where there when i was a young kid. -some things never change. they had a new dinosaur exhibit though that i hadn't seen before which made me happy. My mom and my sister and I snuck down to the cafeteria and got a pizza and ateded it. heh. I love the museums food. ran around the mueseum a little bit more and then went home for dinner. Sat and talked for a good amount of time. I toke a nap because i was pretty tired and then we went off to walmart to get some stuff for our trip to six flags the next day. Got home and I talked to steph a whole lot in text messages. x3 Went to bed at around hmm.. 1 oclook?

Monday: Monday morning i woke up at about 6:30 which was weird because i usually sleep pretty late.. like till 10 but we got up and pretty much everyone else was up and ready to get going to six flags. We left at about 8:15 and got into the park in Illinois at about 9:15 the actual park didn't open till 10 but we watched a boy sing the national anthem and a bunch of cartoon characters do some dances. It was fun. When the park opened everyone was kind of bitchy.. my sister specially because hurricane harbor wouldn't allow anyone in unless they had a proper swim suit and my mom, me or my sister had brought a "proper" swim suit. In the end my sister ended up borrowing my cousins suit and got to go swiming afterall. The first rollar coaster we went on was the viper. My love for rollar coasters resurfaced x3 My cousin kyle was terrified of the rollar coaster, it was his first time on one and it freaked him out. Hm, My cousin and my aunt went on the raging bull and i sat that one out to go on the teacups with my cousin and my mom [because my mom is deathly afraid of rollar coasters or anything that leaves the ground] Mom ended up praying on the teacups because she was so scared. -_- I laughed at her. aahhh. I think our second ride was a canoe thing that swings high up in the air.. i dont remember. but we went on that, the demon and the american eagle and then went out of the park to eat lunch. I got to finally put sun screen lotion on [and which at that point i didnt think i had burned at all] When we got back in the park we waited in line to go on a ride called the ragin cajin which we waited in line for a good hour which was the longest i had waited yet. It was pretty fun but simple. Then we went on a ride that i don't remember the name of but it was a boat ride and we got a little wet. haha. While we where waiting inline we where under a rollar coaster named dejavu. It toke off realllly reallly fast and everytime it went past us you could feel the air. I really wanted to go on that one but didn't get too. Then we went back to meet up with my mom.. which toke us like forever to find her. Then we went to go on the superman which is my all time favorite ride we waited in line for almost two hours to get on the damn thing. I hate to say it was barley worth it. After that long wait everyone was pretty grumpy and moody but we met up with my mom again and we all went on river rapids and got completley drenched with water. by then i could tell my shoulders where burned. After that we walked around the park for a bit then decided to leave since it was 8 oclook. When i got in the car i realized the extent of my sunburn. My shoulder chest and neck are so red its unbelieveable. I put sunscreen on twice but it didnt really help. Monday night I couldn't sleep at all because i couldn't get comfortable. bleh.

Tuesday: I was bitchy tuesday morning because i didnt get much sleep and i was in a lotttt of pain.. bleh. I got some solarcaine stuff and that helped a little. On the trip home i was sort of sleeping. You know that kind of sleep where you're not totally awake but you can hear whats going on around you still? yeah, thats what i was in. got home. picked up the dog. got a phone call from cassie who i've missed so bad!! went on the computer decided not to post yesterday. talked to megan who missed me unlike no other. XD

toooodaaaay: I finally just got up at 6 oclook this morning and caked my self in aloe vera and watched music videos until 8 oclook then got online and talked to my aunt and uncle who i havent talked to in months. started typing up this long ass post at about 9:45 and it's about 10:30 right now and im finally done and now talking to teh krisseh. Life is good. [besides the shoulders in the firey pits of hell part]

and i am out of here.

LongestfuckingpostEVER

P.S I had originally posted pictures but photobucket is a homo and stretches my site out...bleh.
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Friday, June 27, 2008

So Long Myotaku
My vacation begins today which means i won't be online at all until tuesday afternoon.. That kinda makes me sad.

I'm kind of worried about cassie because i haven't heard from her...

but other then that i dont have much else to say but i'll probably be 5 shades darker when i get back... which will still be white considering how damn pale i am. ugh --'

Talk to you guys later! ^-^

¢¾jenneh
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Tuesday, June 24, 2008

iPod game
IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
So, here's how it works:
1) Open your music library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2) Put it on shuffle
3) Press play
4) For every question, type the song that's playing
5) When you go to a new question, press the next button
6) DO NOT LIE and try to pretend everything is normal

Opening credits:


Waking up:
Whoa-Paramore

First day of school:
The end-My Chemical Romance [well..thats optimisitc]

Falling in love:
It Had To Be You-Motion City Soundtrack [you have no idea how typical that is...]

Fight song:
Let It Die-Three Days Grace

Breaking up:
Born Like This-Three Days Grace [...okay...]

Year 10 formal:
My Heart-Paramore [what?]

Life:
Wish you where here with me-Enrique Iglesias [that sort of fits...but not really.]

Mental breakdown:
Points of Authority-Linkin Park

Driving:
Homesick At Spacecamp-Fall Out Boy [i take it i drove to spacecamp?]

Flashback:
Even if it Kills me-Motion City Soundtrack

Getting back together:
That's what you get-Paramore [wait...how does that fit at all?]

Losing your virginity:
Just Like You-Three Days Grace [I guess if i was having sex with a girl she'd be just like me....'thank you for that cassie']

18th birthday:
Evil Angel-Breaking Benjamin [.....]

Car accident:
Emergency-Paramore [haha]


Hospital bed:
We'll be here (when you're gone)-the goo goo dolls [wow thats hopeful]

21st birthday:
Northern Downpour-Panic at the disco [thats only slightly depressing.......]

wedding:
Behind the Sea-Panic at the disco [cassie was a pirate and im marrying one. does that mean im marrying cassie?]

birth of a child:
The way you touch me-Enrique Iglesias [........woooowww]

final battle:
Kill Caustic-AFI [this makes me happy]

funeral song:
Angels of The Disappeared-Rick Springfield [how ironic.....and depressing]

end credits (2 songs):
LG Fuad-Motion City Soundtrack

Skeptics and True Believers-The Academy Is... [would you believe me if i said i didn't need you?]
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