Yeah, as you can probably tell I changed my theme. I chose a Invader Zim layout but its pretty much just Gir. I love gir.
I called cassie yesterday and talked to her on the phone for like two and a half hours... XD It twas fun. I love cassie I wish i lived in Michigan. ='[
My sister and cousins had a snow day yesterday so everyone was home all day.. They woke me up this morning so i was kind of grumpy all day. I didn't do anything today really but practice piano.. I really suck at left hand and im not getting any better yet. but i've got the right hand part of Fur Elise by Beethoven down.. now i just need the left hand! and im trying to learn the song "Wait for you" By Elliot Yamin. i have the very begining down but it comes down again to the left handed part! -sigh-
somethings been on my mind latley and its been making me feel weird but theres really nothing i can do about it to change it.. I get so paranoid sometimes i wish i could get out of my own mind. but im NOT supposed to worry about it... but i cant help it. -_- Cassie your probably the only one that knows what im talking about haha.
Oh.. well I'm going to go try to talk to cassie some more and then im going to bed... I think.. hmm.
Yesterday I went to the mall and got a gir hoodie =3 and an MCR shirt. And i got the second box set of FMA that i was
wanting so now i can watch it. then wait till feb. 5 for the next one. hehe.
I got hurt a lot yesterday too o_O I fell down the stairs, cut my fingers and burned my self with candle wax. I can be such an idiot sometimes XD
Im thinking about changing my theme but i dont know what tooo. Oh well. Maybe an Invader zim layout? Or something odd and abstract?
odd fact i learned today but should have known a long time ago: metal gets hot when its in fire. it also steralizes. :D
Question:
Do you think its evil to declaw a cat?
I would post a picture but stupid myo has to be an idiot and stretch my page everytime i try to post a picture........ RAWR>>>
....Hi. So maybe i was missing but im back now.. heh..
My internet failed friday morning. Which happaned to be the day i shadowed my cousin at the high school. Which went okay.. Im starting school nexts wendsday even though im not at all to thrilled with that idea. Blergh.
But.. yeah I was without internet for a while and the internet company told us it was our wireless modem.. Which in the end it ended up having nothing to do with that it had something to do with network configuration. but now we're back online and i dont ever want to have to talk to another internet represenative again... none of them can pronunce there words. Nor do they have patience considering the main computer downstairs is the SLOWEST THING IN THE ENTIRE WORLD. *huggles my fast computer* But yeah.. im back now sorry i went missing without a word of where i went.
I was pretty bored while i was gone.. I missed stephy and cassie and megan. T.T My internet friends are really a big part of my life. Which reminds me i met one of my internet friends the other day. I met up with krissy [aka SayanaChan] at mcdonalds XDD we went to the mall for a little while to.. but my family was being there usual pain in the butt selves so i had to leave. I didnt buy anything but she did buy a panic at the disco poster. and gerard ways comic. am i a dork for remembering that... ahaha i have a picture to 'prove our exsistance at the exact same place at the exact same time' but you'll have to visit my myspace for that little treat. XD
I dont remember if i ever mentioned that i got the dvd box set of the first season of full metal alchemist... its only the first half but i watched that while i was deprived of the internet and now im on the last disk and i dont want to watch it because i dont know when ill get the next half.. c_c Im getting back into anime again.. I guess i go threw phases with it theres times when im REAL obsessed with it and other times when im not.
Anyways.. Im ranting i need to go read something so ill talk to you guys later!!
More Then A memory
Ive been laying in bed for the past hour
I cant sleep.
I havent been able to fall asleep the past two days.
I keep thinking to much.
...bleh..
i went to school today..
and got my classes..
Im shadowing my cousin on friday... tommorow..
ugh.. I dont want too.
Im a wuss.
I saw Nikki for the last time yesterday. Now i wont see her until next year when she comes back from Armenia for good. *sigh*
Im going to miss her.. Shes awesome.
Even if my aunt does despise her for some twisted reason.
-_- whatever.
Im gunna go try to sleep again..now.
I miss stephy T.T
I'll wait here for you..
Blah I hate shrinks.
I dont even have one yet
i just hate the idea of shrinks.
Mood? Im just fantastic.
Im going to go watch some anime.
maybe i'll figure this out.
But I, I failed you this time.
And it feels like tonight.
I can't believe I'm broken inside.
Can't you see that there's nothing that I wanna do,
But try to make it up to you?
-me
P.S read my livejournal for the more emo version of this post since i dont feel like pissing people off. Comments (3) |
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Tuesday, January 8, 2008
We are so young
Hehe.
thanks for the well wishes everyone.
Im feeling a lot better
and so is she. ^_^
Im such an idiot sometimes though >.<
Today im going to paint my room ^__^
Its gunna be blue!
I like the color blue.
Soo I must go now.
Love you guys!
It was foggy today.
Felt like the way my mind feels.
I didnt sleep last night
stared at the ceiling.
thought about many things.
her.her.her.her.her.
ferris wheels.perfect worlds.
God.. I'll never take her for granted again.
Nothing has really ever hurt me this much before.
I could hardly talk to anyone today.
without crying.
I left her a voicemail..
Lavi said he'd let her listen to it.
I think she could hear me..
I know she can.
I just wish she knew how much i miss her.
I wish i was there..
by her side.
even if i couldnt do anything.
I just want to be there with her.
I feel sick..
I shouldnt have ate.
Its just going to come back out anyways.
I have so much to say..
will she ever get to here it?
Why didnt I take my chance when she was here?
I might have been able to save her.
but i didnt want to lose her...
and yet i am.
theres so much i still want to know.
My heart hurts.
I just want her back.
....
i just want her back..
without you i just cant find my way.
My worlds dying..
I cant even talk about it.
I dont have the strength too.
i just want to crawl into bed, put this song on repeat and wait to hear her voice in my head.
I dont want to be here if shes not going to be here.
Theres so many things i need to say to her.
so she HAS to make it!
she has too..
I want to cut open my chest and rip my heart out so I dont have to FEEL this!
I want to be with her.
I miss her.
The more I miss her the more I long to be with her.
Whether if be life or death..
I need to be with her.
I need to go..
I need to pray because its in God's hands right now.
And if i happen to fall asleep then i know she'll be there with me in my dreams.
like she always was
like she always has been
like she always will be.
-the same person i was yesterday. Just a little emptier inside.
P.S Cassie, Im sorry I didnt call you yesterday.. I was honestly afraid too. I need to talk to you though. Comments (3) |
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Saturday, January 5, 2008
=D
I had a pretty awesome day today.
Getting to see Nikki and Donny was the greatest thing thats happaned to me in a LONG while.
Nikki's awesome.
I was sad when they left. T.T
BUT! they're coming back on wendsday so I can. not. wait. =D
Gosh I wanna go to Armenia with her.
But its mighty expensive so theres no way in this world I'll be able too.
Oh well. One more year and she'll be in the states for sure.
^_^
Okay, im tired I went to sleep at 3 in the morning last night and got up at 8 i needa sleep. I guess we're doin a lotta stuff today.
