IM BACK! Now, did you all miss me? XD I know you didn't.
So I didnt get back on Thursday but i would have if I hadnt have had to go to Milwaukee on Thursday. But more on that later. We're in the new house now and it feel's so great to have my own room and sleep in my own bed and listen to my music as loud as i want! Okay, so the last part isnt true because apparently the walls in this house are paper thin and everyone can hear my music when i turn it up full blast.. but what ever.... But we went down to Milwaukee thursday to get some more stuff and check up on a couple things. We didnt plan on coming back up to Cashton until sunday but since theres a big winter storm hiting us right now we decided to come back saturday morning. So we made it back but you wouldnt believe all the fog that was up here! We got lost a couple times because of the fog! I usually love the snow but right now i wish it'd just STOP. Nikki's coming to the states today from armenia and i have a very bad feeling that her flight is going to be delayed. =[ I just hope she's okay because shes become one of my really close friends! Even if she does live way half way around the world half the time. I get to see her this January though! Im excited!
BUT. Christmas is in TWO DAYS! well technically only one for me since we have christmas on christmas eve morning. XD HAHA. I get christmas early. I already got a couple of my christmas presents.
-Loveless DVD box set.
-Everwood DVD box set [my favorite tv show EVER]
-Flyleaf CD/DVD
-Boys Like Girls CD
-Rascal Flatts CD
I was so mad when i went to suncoast because they didnt have the deathnote poster that i wanted but then i seen the loveless box set and i just had to have it because loveless is my favorite anime ever! I've been searching for the box set EVERYWHERE! I love suncoast but sadly the closest one to me is 3 hours away. I guess thats what im going to miss about milwaukee the most. Their great mall T.T They have the GREATEST anime/manga collection if i could buy the whole store i would! I have to finish the death note series and then im moving onto one piece... because its... been bothering me. eh? nevermind that.
I cant wait for christmas!!! And the weekend after christmas my best friend nikky Is coming up to Cashton to stay with me for a week. We're going to spend new years together! It's going to be so much fun. We always have so much fun when we're together. We're going to play in the SNOW! Yes.. we're little kids. Oh that some how reminded me, while i was internet deprived I got caught up on Cassie's two storys "Sixteen" and "Murder and Lyrics" and i am now ADDICTED :3 She is the greatest writer I've EVER met. so If you dont know her or you haven't read her storys i HIGHLY suggest that you do!! Hehe would this be called whoring cassie's stories? hehe xD
I know this is really long but im happy for some odd reason! even though im HIGHLY jealous of someone right now im pretty darn happy. lets just HOPE it lasts for a while. So i guess I'll end this now. I wrote this post a whole hour before its even time to post but do i care? nope XD I'm outta here though I need to go wrestle kyle to try to get him out of my warm bed :3
Blargh. So Its MONDAY. Closing day. we get the keys to the new house today.. Hmm yeah, fun fun fun. I dream of nothing more then sitting in a bank for two hours watching my mom sign papers.. Good thing my ipods charged and i have such a great imagination. But yup. We'll start moving tonight and hopefully be in the house by tuesday.. Yeah. I dont know why but this whole rush and slowness of this past week has made me miss my dad more then ever. It's odd. but the more i think about it the harder it is to move on.
Ah anyways. guess what? I FINALLY KNOW WHAT I WANT TO DO WITH MY LIFE. that is all.
Haha. I'm going bowling again tonight with Derik Kyle and my little sister. It should be interesting.. seeing how the last time i saw Derik was VERY interesting. As long as we both dont drink i think it'll be fine.. o_o
ehh. We're going to Lacrosse again today not that i mind i like the drive there. What i really cant wait for is our trip to Wyoming this June. It's going to be awesome.. =D
we're moving tuesday so i dont know if i'll have internet for a day or two but chances are i will. I cant wait until i have my own room im so sick of people looking over my shoulder when im online and sleeping next to my mother -_- Why do they even make big beds?! My mom will make sure she's all over it. Haha.
Anyways I gotta go, Im going to try to comment everyone today. I hope you all have a great day! bye bye~!
Ughh. I have such a headache. Haha its funny Nikki's first reaction to that was "Do you have a hangover?" Not really.
I ran away last night. Me and my aunt got into a huge fight and i said something stupid. I just left. My aunt knows how to pull my strings all to well. i dont know if this whole living together thing is going to work but i mean... I guess every family fights but i HATE alcohol I DESPISE it. but shes the older one and i over step my authority. Get used to it jenny. I have 3 more years here and then i can move out. I guess that's why i need to get my butt in school. Shes right about that and in 3 years im sure i'll see that she was right about everything else too. I dont know what the hell i hit my head on last night but it hurts like hell. Doesnt look to appealing either. Derik, found me. I let him find me. Its kind of stupid to run away when the closest person you know is 25 miles away and id most definatly have froze way before i got there. *sigh*
im getting my hair cut again today.. imma go pretty short. We'll see how this works out. hahaha.
I dont know what to say anymore. No matter what I do its wrong. Someday I'll make it right for all of them though. No matter how I have to do that.
We have a party to go to.
bowling party
Ahaha.
I was really depressed today.
I cried like a flippin baby.
then i talked to donny.
and ate practically a whole jar of sprinkles..
now im hyper and have a stomach ache.
they're making me go back to school in january.
eh honestly i dont care anymore.
Im sneaking my phone though
I must text to surviveee.
okay maybe not really.
mkay.
nothing much else.
i can be a bitch sometimes.
Im tired.
and yet still hyper.
imma go grab a soda and try to sleep
makes no sense does it?
mm night guys.
I dont know what to post about..
im bored out of my mind..
even with 7 people in the house
and christmas cookies and candy to be made..
im bored out of my mind
and im reminded once again of how much of a life
i DONT have.
I need a hobby
....im not depressed
Im just sad.
and lonley.
my aunts pushing for making me go to school in january.
the day that happens will be the day pigs fly.
I'll go in september.
but no sooner.
I dont know why so dont even ask.
i wish it was januaryyyy.
I wanna see nikki and donny.
time goes to slow when you want something -_-
we have a chritsmas party to go to on sunday.
I hate partys.
i hate crowds.
i hate people asking what the hell im doing here.
i live in a town of 1000
everyone here KNOWS what happaned to my family.
they all stare at us....like they feel sorry for us..
for the first time i miss milwaukee
I miss nikky. I miss my old school.
I wish i was going to alliance with nikky.
Im so sick of complaining i really am.
We get the keys for the new house on wendsday.
I CAN FINALLY LOCK MY SELF IN A REAL ROOM.
im getting bunnies in the spring.
^_^ I love bunnies.
Im mailing stephy and cassie a package today.
=D
what a mood-swingful post.
I need to go away for a while..
So I cant complain about anything.
I need help.
in the head.
Im nothing but screwed up.
I need to lock my self out of this life.
and out of my mind.
I really need to shut the hell up every once in a while.
i think i'll sleep until mid january.
then hide in nikki's luggage and go back to armenia with her.
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Wednesday, December 5, 2007
I love her..
More than I've ever loved anyone.
Id do anything for her.
I want to spend every single moment of my life with her.
