Wednesday, July 30, 2008

I've been dying inside you see? I'm going out of my mind..
Time:12:45 Midwestern time
Listening too: Your Love Is A Lie by Simple Plan
Mood:Sad. But okay.
Drinking: Nothing.
Reading: Eclipse [still]
Writing: HSNE Chap. 21 [yes.. still]
Thinking: about ducks

daily rant:

yes. ducks.

Today we went down too my aunts farm and cassie and i walked in the creak down that runs all the way down her land and it was pretty cool. I love how our real lifetime experience's are getting thrown into our story. It's great. :] I drank a bit but still drove home because my mom was completley wasted.

Mom also made me cry today because she brought up the fact that she does things for me all the time and never for her self. I was only upset because I hate it when she drinks outside of home. What would she do if i didn't have my permit? Sometimes I feel like I'm being used. I know im being selfish but alcohol is something that really bothers me. I don't mind when she drinks at home but i know when she gets around other people her mind goes down the wrong path.. Ugh, I don't know I guess I'm just horrible.

Anyways.. we went to see the dark knight and it was a good movie. I laughed threw out a majority of it because i really find the joker to be a sexy man. Poor heath :[ It makes me want to watch brokeback mountain now. XD but some asshole stole it from me... bleh.

We're leaving tommorow for Kalahari and Milwaukee and warped tour. I'm going to take my laptop but I don't know If I'll get internet. I know it's like...15 bucks to use the internet there for an hour. eh -_-

I hate my self sometimes. Too the point where it really fucking hurts. What am i gunna do? Can't let my emotions show.

Eh, I'll talk to you guys sometime soon hopefully.

-jenny
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