Saturday, August 23, 2008

We're the new face of failure.
Time:1:33AM
Listening Too:The [After] Life Of The Party by Fall Out Boy
Reading: Breaking Dawn
Writing: Nothing. Bleh.
Thinking: If I told you, you'd be worried so I'll refrain from that.

First of all, I cleaned my room for once. and now it's all pretty and clean and I put up my posters. yes poster[s]. Which will be explained later in this post. I also reorganized my room so it looks different now.. I have a thing for re-decorating. It's odd.

I've been missing my cousin a lot lately. We have some evil plan to get my mom too fly us out to new york so we can see eachother but i don't think my mom has a lot of vacation time so i guess that won't be happening. ugh. I don't have to TRY to be happy when I'm with him, it just happens because we can make ANYTHING funny. I miss that.

I went too walmart again today. and bought another joker poster so now i have two. [yes im obsessed. i knowwww] they have one more that i want to get.. Maybe for my birthday.

My mom thought I was dying last night. I had to say no but deep down inside of me something wonders if that was a lie. Haha. 'Is too realize two out of three aint bad'

When am I going to realize?

I don't want krissy to leave, even though I know thats the selfish side of me.. I dont want my birthday to roll around and I don't want to go back too school. I don't want to do anything anymore.

I have nothing here.
and I'm getting tired of holding onto something that isn't here.
Sooner or later I'm going to realize that I've been waiting for a happy ending that has no intention on ever coming.

This wasn't meant to be emo.

maybe tomorrow will be a better day.

-jenny
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