Birthday • 1992-08-27 Gender •
Female Member Since • 2007-11-22
myOtaku.com: fading.dreams
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Que Sera Sera
i didn't have the strength to say that tonight.
i feel weird like something just isn't right, and i know a lot of things have changed as of now and i'm making a lot of changes i'm fixing a lot of things and i'm trying to patch up a lot of my mistakes. i feel like i need to grow up right now because i have been being mighty childish about a lot of things. I need to start acting like a normal human being again.
As of today my dad has been gone for exactly 10 months. I'm numb now a days when it comes to me thinking about my dad. I really don't know what to think anymore. I know I can't bring him back. But i think the saddest thing right now is that I don't know what he'd say today. If he knew the way I was. He'd be so dissapointed in all the things I've done since he's been gone. And he thought he was the failure. Yeah. I do miss him. But who am I to grieve?
Jordan is coming over today after church and we're going to hang out for a while. I don't know what we'll do though. I'm kind of glad shes moving to town because i don't have any friends in town.
