Thursday, May 14, 2009

[[When you find you, come back to me.]]
So, I went to the doctor yesterday. If you know me, you might know that that's weird because I have a strong dislike for the doctors in general. I guess I'm just moving on. They don't really know what it is that I have but I'm out of school again today, which means I won't be back in school till next friday.. Imagine the work I'm going to have to catch up on. Oh well. Summer's almost here, and I mean if I fail my classes what the hell who cares?

I have to go back to the doctors on Tuesday the 26th for a lab. To find out if I have something called Polycystic Ovary Syndrome. Which.. Is pretty serious I guess but I don't really care. Also I have to go back two more times for the second doses of that stupid shot that prevents cervical cancer. hahaha.

I also may... may be put on anit-depressants. Yeah I know, I've always really been against them. I've just been really really bad off lately. I kind of know why and I kind of don't know why.. It's just something I can't change. I actually was talking about it with my mom which was really fucking weird because that kind of thing just doesn't happen. But yeah.. She said she thinks i have problems and that I may have get the depression from my dad.. and I wouldn't be surprised. She also said not to think about dying. But if she only knew, if she only knew.

I want to say i'm getting better but I think I only feel better because I don't have any food in my system again. I'm barely eating.

Nonetheless i'm leaving today. Kinda relieved. Kinda gunna be super pissed if I don't feel better when I wake up.

I have a lot of shit to do tomorrow though, before I get going. I should probably go to sleep at any point in time right now.

Still thinking I'm just going to walk the 375 miles to Bayonne. Still thinking she'd hate to see me.

Yeah, Later.
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