Saturday, October 10, 2009

i guess we're all one phone call from our knees
huh. i missed a day. but only because I wasn't even home at all until after midnight.

i like the way your elbow was pressed into my side and the way you let me wrap my arm around your waist when we where walking through the mall. I was to afraid to hold on to you for long so i let go.. but it was amazing while it lasted.

and you think i didn't hear you when you said that but i don't think your brain quite caught up with your mouth before you said it. "we could pretend to be a couple."
yeah. we could.

Our dynamic trio is now a dynamic duo.
i hate being the inbetween.
i hate that i'm going to be the only one who talks to both of you.
i do have to admit that i do kind of think it's fucked up that you'd sacrifice our friendship for some stupid guy.
there is some rule somewhere isn't there where best friends can not steal other friends ex boyfriends right?
well i'm glad they're okay now... i should feel bad that the only reason i'm really happy is because now i don't have to worry about that dream coming true.
even though i had practically the same one last night.
i can't believe my self sometimes.
i think i'm completely insane.
my thoughts aren't even making sense anymore and i'm almost slipping out that i don't need any of this stuff.
i'm not going to make it that far anyways.
because i know she'll never save me.
this time i have to save my self.
and for right now i really don't want anything to do with being saved.

goal: make it through the play without thinking about her.
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