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myOtaku.com: Fae Tsukiakira
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Saturday, June 26, 2004
destroyed kinship...
my mother is not a mother...she is just a woman who tries to buy my love with material possessions....when someone else cries out...she runs to them...but when i need help and i feel the only way out is by pushing a blade into my flesh she turns and tells me how ignorant i am...if someone else does they aren't ignorant...but i am....is it because i am her daughter?....yes i told her i didn't want her to treat me like a daughter...but that was a long time ago...these past months i asked her to treat me like a daughter....but she didn't....she never did....i don't know what a mother is....i have no father nor mother....no guardian....no angel...no protector...and when i say i think it should be quits with my boyfriend she throws all of these guilt trips on me..."well then you can tell him this...you can tell him that...now i can't help him anymore....you explain to him and his mother...."...sometimes i wish sadness would kill me...no pain is worse than this....a knife buried deep in my heart cannot compare to the emotional wounds and scars...then she will go and tell my boyfriend or someone else...she is this she is that...i want to fade away....i wish i were invisible....i hate breathing....i hate living....i hate thinking and talking....i just want to leave this world and find one where my pain can be remedied....would she even flinch if one day i were gone?....i have so much anger built inside of me...so much hatred and hurt...please God...gods or goddesses whoever rules over the heavens...please please cease my misery....i don't want gloom for a companion...can't happiness come and visit and stay this time?....is that too much i am asking for?...please send me some answer because time is becoming my enemy...my foe...blood looks so reassuring...my own blood that is...for with each drop that falls so goes a drop of my life energy along with it...such a beautiful picture it is...so lovely...the life draining from my body...peace finally entering my soul....finally means the release is coming...the tension is leaving...i will enter the eternal reassuring sleep never to be disturbed or tortured....someday happiness and joy shall belong to me
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