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myOtaku.com: Fae Tsukiakira
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Sunday, July 11, 2004
This and That
Hello all...what a placid and dull day i am having...yesterday i attended the going away party for my cousin as i mentioned about earlier...I didn't realize how terribly i was going to miss her...I rather distanced myself which i have a tendancy to do at family gatherings...but there was no fighting...well we had her boyfriend's family over as well and my other cousin's boyfriend but still usually there are some kind of disagreements that cause disruption and angry words...glad to find things differently...we had our traditional Water Fight...it is our ritual...how it came to be i have no clue...I sang a song for my cousin...not exactly a good bye song but it was something and then she came in and harmonized with me...i won't see her smiling face for more than a year...that is frightening...also this love issue with my boyfriend and i is seemingly spiraling off into some broken haze...my friend is in the same condition as i am...so we have presented a pact...if by december things do not appear to be looking up we say farewell to our guys and move on...i admit i am not the greatest girlfriend...i move slow in relationships and i don't want him to grow clingy...and i also have high expectations...like for one i want to be able to have a stimulating conversation...we have so little of those with each other...all he talks about is his dreams and items of that sort but when i bring myself up he flips it back onto himself...also while singing he just continued on pounding away on the piano which threw me off...he wasn't playing anything...just banging on the keys...i think the love is gone...at least i am almost certain mine has left...Oh and Hiten e-mailed me and IMed me...awesome...he is really cool...i love it when people contact me...but hey...also...i finished another song...yes...i wrote it at four in the morning...my tears have seemingly dried somewhat and my blood has stopped spewing about...right now i am just in a somber solitude...also i worked on another song but am missing one part... i just have the verses and chorus...tell me what you think...it started off as something more cheerful but ended up in a darker narrow alleyway...
"My Apology" by amber sadoy...July 11, 2004
Sacrificing myself
For the sake of remaining one
Masquerading at the Devil's ball
I thought I could hold back
The gloom and the doom
But my will sank to nothing
Into the Titanic's arms
The mystery unfolding
Speaking the unspoken
My tears refused to hide the truth.
In a silent refuge
Our love died
Falling out
From our reach
This is my apology
The truth was laid like a map
Revealing our journey through flames
We somehow fooled the numbers
But our hearts knew all along
Our bomb has exploded
Leaving us in desolate ruin
Spread away from the dream that left us that day
the mystery unfolding
Speaking the unspoken
My tears refused to hide the truth
In a silent refuge
Our love died
Falling out
From our reach
This is my apology
Also my friend has said every time he hears this song it reminds him of me...
"Not Like The Other Girls" by the Rasmus
No more blame I am destined to keep you sane
Gotta rescue the flame
Gotta resuce the flame in your heart
No more blood, I will be there for you my love
I will stand by your side
the world has forsaken my girl
I should have seen it would be this way
I should have known from the start what she's up to
When you've loved and you've lost someone
You know wht it feels like to lose
She's fading away
Away from this world
Drifing like a feather
She's not like the other girls
She lives in the clouds
She talks to the birds
Hopeless little one
She's not like the other girls i know
No more shame, she has felt too much pain, in her life
In her mind she's repeating the words
All the love you put out will return to you
Farewell..
Fading out like the stars in my sky...
~The Innocent Demon~
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