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• 2004-06-26
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• singer/ writer/ student/vampire/old age goth/witch
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• Amber but you can call me Fae-Fae
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• Choir Awards, Singing Awards, Poetry Awards...too many to list, Honor Roll my whole life
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• well...since eighth grade but my newfound friends in p.e. got me more into it
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• Inuyasha, Cowboy Bebop, Witch Hunter Robin, Chobits, Yuyu Hakasho, Tenchi Muyo, Ruroini Kenshin...i know i spelled some of those wrong
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• to become a singer, study in Italy, find my true vampire love...already attained, to master my craft of magic
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• singing, being different, daydreaming, writing, dieing, bleeding from sel-inflicted wounds, crying, hurting, mentally breaking down, hating, loving everything but myself, ridiculing myself, drinking blood, casting spells, and learning about Wicca
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• singing, writing,...i think that is it
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myOtaku.com: Fae Tsukiakira
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Wednesday, August 4, 2004
just rambles
hmm...sorry i have not posted recently...i have been way to busy...and rather ill...last night i went to the Incubus concert...it was rather awesome...Sparta was very good but they needed more energy...but Incubus...oh my freakin' goddess...i almost died...it was bliss...heaven...the guy with me was bored as hell...but he claimed he loved them...i think he was just sick of listening to me scream at brandon boyd...they had a lot of major jamming breaks...at one point they brought out this small drum set...the thought going through my mind was that they were going to bring out a little kid to play...but the bassist placed his bass down and began to play...then brandon went to the bongos and the drummer continues on...and they had a jam out...after every song brandon would go behind the drum set...but i couldn't tell what he was doing...perhaps drinking som water...my friend was in the front so she could see...apparently after everysong he would go and take a puff of some weed and then come back and continue singing...i hope he stops though because it is really going to fuck up his voice after a while...one of the main reasons why i won't use it ...that and because i have asthma...hehe...my friends make me "brownies" instead...but don't think i am some kind of druggie...i am not...i only do it like twice a year...no addict here...i may have sorrow following me..but i don't liek to resort to drugs...well...i guess i should say who the guy was that was with me...my boyfriend...yeah...we are back together...*smacks head*...good or not...i am still not sure...lately...he has been complaining of wanting to go out and drink again and hanging in the streets...and has been getting buddy buddy with his ex...i am fine with things like that but they have spoken some things about me and he always referred to her as a bitch...suddenly she is a great person...but whatever...i suppose that is his business...he is saying he gave up all of this stuff for me...like how he gave up his friends for me...and he told me he would never choose me over his friends...which is fine by me...i would never pick him over my friends either...but i have not once told him to stay with me rather than his friends...i have always told him to go have fun with his friends...him and i can be together later...grr...what is wrong with me...?...why do i keep returning to him...?...oh well...more bad news...the band i was in has split...we are over and through...so now i am in search of another band...preferably goth rock...but not many people out here want that kind of music...my town has a small minded mentality...not everyone...just the majority...which angers me...i want out of here so badly...my mother really wants to get me out of here and wants me to see the world...and to follow my dreams...she is actually being supportive of me...which is somewhat freaking me out...this kindness is something new...but i like it...and i welcome it...but i am sorry for the babbling...
It has come to my attention that the one person whose approval i have longed for the most is not too fond of my writing...my sister is this person...she thinks i am too dark and that i make death appear too beautiful...she tells me i am going through my "dark" stage and someday it will end...but i disagree...this is who i am...people think that because i think dark thoughts and am into the goth scene that i don't ever have joyful times...believe me this is not so...i go out and have fun...i do not hate preps...i do not look down on those who are not like me...i don't always wear black...i listen to other music besides goth...granted i appear very depressed when my words are read...and i always have a cloud of sadness around me...but this is who i am...i do think she believes that i am in a phase...i am finding who i am...and along with that i am discovering that i prefer the darker scene...light is lovely...but there is beauty in darkness...afterall...the night is dark yet always appears heavenly...graveyards are "dark"...but offer peace...in any case i am going to cease rambling on...sorry...*blushes*...Farewell all. *black tear rolls from face turning the white rose black...offers it to everyone*...
~The Innocent Demon~
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