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• The city of lost angels..a,k.a. Los Angeles
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• 2004-06-26
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• singer/ writer/ student/vampire/old age goth/witch
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• Amber but you can call me Fae-Fae
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• Choir Awards, Singing Awards, Poetry Awards...too many to list, Honor Roll my whole life
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• well...since eighth grade but my newfound friends in p.e. got me more into it
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• Inuyasha, Cowboy Bebop, Witch Hunter Robin, Chobits, Yuyu Hakasho, Tenchi Muyo, Ruroini Kenshin...i know i spelled some of those wrong
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• to become a singer, study in Italy, find my true vampire love...already attained, to master my craft of magic
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• singing, being different, daydreaming, writing, dieing, bleeding from sel-inflicted wounds, crying, hurting, mentally breaking down, hating, loving everything but myself, ridiculing myself, drinking blood, casting spells, and learning about Wicca
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• singing, writing,...i think that is it
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myOtaku.com: Fae Tsukiakira
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Thursday, August 26, 2004
It has been lovely but i must leave and scream now...my cries shall not be heard
dear sweet rotting corpes...this maddening internet service has thrown me off-line and has deleted my message i was writing and readily about to post...that angers me so...i have my thoughts planned out and it is removed in three seconds...let me see if i can retract my thoughts and figure what i was speaking of...ah yes...
an aura of happiness surrounds me...but inside my soul and heart a seed of sadness has been planted yet again and fretfully it has begun to bloom...i do not understand what is occuring within...but it is driving me into the depths of lunacy...my emotions are being placed within a jar and tossed about...in any case...i also have become better friends with the guys i was in the band with...that is all except for the drummer...he still angers me...he no longer speaks to me...which is understandable...i cannot stand him at times...he ridicules me and then goes and does the same thing...he goes down these non-sense venues and never explains his meaning...sometimes what he says appears rather insulting but every moment you catch on and try to figure it out he fronts you with a "nevermind...forget i said anything"...that can be extremely frustrating...am i lieing to myself in more ways than one on my outward personality...?...i do not know how i appear towards others...i have been feeling this reign of confidence these past few weeks but seemingly it has plummetted down and i no longer can call it mine...then there are these issues of love flying around in my face begging for some sort of ravishing attention but i do not feel as if i owe any to it...apparantly i have been flirting without truly knowing it...dear me...i only want to be friendly...i love being in the company of males...not for sexual purposes mind you...but they make excellent friends...they are honest and there is no pressure...you don't have to look good for them and you can joke about things you normally couldn't with your boyfriend...but i was not aware that my actions were being perceived as flirting...this is worrying me due to the fact that this one guy in particular is my friends interest...she has a slight crush on him but doesn't speak much in his presence...i on the other hand am rather talkative and joking and continuously smiling...it is only because i find him in interesting character...he does have a lovely accent however and is quite handsome but that is not the key components in this discussion...
i feel i must be on my way...my mind is reeling with too many thoughts and so many things that must be done...*sinks even further within the black hole...*...also i am working on two new songs which is very eventful...the first has no title yet and the second is "The End of the Bottomliss Pit"...Farewell all...i think i shall be able to visit a few of your sites...once again i am sorry...if i disappear for a few days it is due to the fact that i have to follow a schedule now...i hate schedules...i despise them greatly...
hold on for one moment...there is this band that i find very infectious...i have heard numerous songs by them and am pleased with every one that greets my ears...if any of you know anything of them please do let me know...there name is Diary of Dreams
~The Innocent Demon~
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