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Birthday • 1987-08-06 Gender •
Female Location • The city of lost angels..a,k.a. Los Angeles Member Since • 2004-06-26 Occupation • singer/ writer/ student/vampire/old age goth/witch Real Name • Amber but you can call me Fae-Fae
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Achievements • Choir Awards, Singing Awards, Poetry Awards...too many to list, Honor Roll my whole life Anime Fan Since • well...since eighth grade but my newfound friends in p.e. got me more into it Favorite Anime • Inuyasha, Cowboy Bebop, Witch Hunter Robin, Chobits, Yuyu Hakasho, Tenchi Muyo, Ruroini Kenshin...i know i spelled some of those wrong Goals • to become a singer, study in Italy, find my true vampire love...already attained, to master my craft of magic Hobbies • singing, being different, daydreaming, writing, dieing, bleeding from sel-inflicted wounds, crying, hurting, mentally breaking down, hating, loving everything but myself, ridiculing myself, drinking blood, casting spells, and learning about Wicca Talents • singing, writing,...i think that is it
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Tuesday, August 31, 2004
Love has plunged into the flames once more...
well...today sheena and i auditioned for the Battle of the Bands...we made it...most of those participating are punk bands...we are doing a cover of Michelle Branch's "Goodbye To You"...only a sadder version...which is rather ironic seeing as to how i have said goodbye to my significant other...for good...no turning back...i have grown out of love with him and i told him...buecause well frankly i cannot continue to lie...my mother i should have held in till graduation...yeah right...lie to both of our hearts...nice idea...live in agony...now he hates me...more than anything...doesn't trust me...doesnt' want to be friends...and he told my mom all of these things about how i have fucked up in the relationship...he never tells me any of these things...how am i supposed to improve if he cannot even be honest with me...?...it appears we both were not happy with each other but since i was the first one to open the mouth and voice my opinion i get to be the villian...and my mother places this load of guilt upon my shoulders as if i don't have enough crap pushing me down...frankly i don't care anymore...i had to do this...for me...sure it hurts because i am out of my comfort zone but i cannot lie to us both...i have fallen out and in love with someone else...yes...i am horrible...here he loves me and worships me and i go and fall out of love with him and in love with someone else...he is just so tantalizing...this other guy i mean...Ri i have decided is more of like a buddy ...i love my ex as a best friend but he doesn't want that...so i have to accept our fate...x_X..yes death to it...but this recent crush...we shall refer to him as Age...he was performing at the Battle of the Bands today...and *sigh*...he is awesome...one of the nicest guys i know...my best friend knows him and has been feeding me info...i have talked to him a few times and each discussion has been pleasant...he likes AFI...like me...not punk...goth...or any of that sort...just himself...awesome guitaritst...and did i mention he sings...?...he is hispanic but looks completely white...he has brown hair with long blond bangs he wears in front of his face...and has a dreamy smile and green eyes with flecks of yellow...he is crazy in a cool sense...in any case...i do not wish to jump into things so quickly...otherwise i may find myself drowning in pain and i do not wish to seem as if i am acting on rebound
...here are two songs by The Cure which are really explaining some points on my love life at the moment...
"Apart"
he waits for her to understand
but she won't understand at all
she waits all night for him to call
but he won't call anymore
he waits to hear her say
forgive
but she just drops her pearl-black eyes
and prays to hear him say
i love you
but he tells no more lies
he waits for her to sympathize
but she won't sympathize at all
she waits all night to feel his kiss
but always wakes alone
he waits to hear her say
forget
but she just hangs her head in pain
and prays to hear him say
no more
i'll never leave again
how did we get this far apart?
we used to be so close together
how did we get this far apart?
i thought this love would last forever
he waits for her to understand
but she won't understand at all
she waits all night for him to call
but we won't call
he waits to hear her say
forgive
but she just drops her pearl-black eyes
and prays to hear him say
i love you
but he tells no more lies
how did we get this far apart?
we used to be so close together
how did we get this far apart?
i thought this love would last forever
"End"
i think i've reached that point
where giving up and going on
are both the same dead end to me
are both the same old song
i think i've reached that point
where every wish has come true
and tired disguised oblivion
is everything i do
please stop loving me
please stop loving me
i am none of these things
i think i've reached that point
where all the things you have to say
and hopes for something more from me
are just games to pass the time away
please stop loving me
please stop loving me
i am none of these things
i think i've reached that point
where every word that you write
of every blood dark sea
and every soul black night
and every dream you dream me in
and every perfect free from sin
and burning eyes
and hearts on fire
are just the same old song
please stop loving me
please stop loving me
i am none of these things
i am none of these things
Love has plunged into the flames once more...